Did you ever not sleep because of one reason or another? Of course you have, what am I asking. But was it because of a girl? I used to stay up all day and night, because of--her. I spoiled her, and I gave her all the attention in the world. I pour my last bit of energy into making her happy, yet in return, I feel remotely, if not negatively satisfied. Why? Damnit. I don't understand. I feel like Edward Norton in Fight Club. He was sooooo pathetic. That's how I feel now. I am pathetic. Look at me, fretting over some girl... this girl, who for over the past year had been such a dominant entity in my life. I can't stand it. She doesn't understand me. I am so sad. I want to scream, but I will only wake Sam, my roommate, up. What the hell did I do wrong? When she cried, I was there. When she needed anything, I was there with it in my hand. I gave up my friends for her. I gave up my self. I am dependent on this girl. I hate what she does to me, yet I can't bear not having her. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS? Insomnia's a bitch...especially if it's because of a girl. I get these dreams that people are shooting at me, and I roll around. It's so frightenting, and when I wake up, my heart pounds like an insane cat in the alley. FUCKING DREAMS! I swear, I'm turning into Tyler Durden, but not Brad Pitt..but Norton. What a mess. I thought that when I flew home, I'd escape this insanity, and that I could start my semester anew. But I can't think! I can't sleep! I'm a wreck... I'm fucked...
posted by Dang Dao at 3:57 AM

Hey everyone! I just came back from a whole day at Universal Studios., and lemme tell ya... it's a whole lot different from when I last visited way back when. I went with my brother, cousin Vi, and Krissy. They've really expanded since then. Now there's this thing called "Terminator 3D" or somethin'. It's basically a 3D show with glasses..but the cool thing that these guys at universal did was integrate the 3D experience with real live actors. It's pretty darn cool. You've got to check out this show to watch the fighting scene at the end. It rocks! A funny thing was that we were drenched the entire day! ..really! First we went on "Jurassic Park: the Ride"...and believe you me, you get hellllllla wet on this ride. Magic Mountain's Tidal Wave beware! After a while of drying off (partly thanks to the heat heat heat of "Backdraft") we watched the "Waterworld" show..and sat in the SpLaSh ZoNe! WooOOOOooOOOoo~!!!!! Mo WatA!!!!! By then, it got dark, and with the night, comes the COLD! It was a good thing Krissy brought an extra sweatshirt cuz I was really needing it then (although I later forfeit it to my darling lil' bro). Yea...it was a great day for me. To top it all off, I got to spend good time with brother, vi, and especially Kristin. I really needed to develop our best friend relationship...I luv her ya know.
posted by Dang Dao at 1:58 AM

I'm tired right now, but I'll tell you one thing: Life sux sometimes... but it's great othertimes. Ambiguity's confusing ain't it?
posted by Dang Dao at 9:44 PM