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9.16.2001
7:16 PM
music: local rabbits - high school heirarchy I AM GONNA VOMIT. i took a four hour nap because my mom made me cry, and now i FEEL LIKE VOMITING. PUKE CITY. ROOOOOWLLFFF. you're happy. i want to cry. i bet tonight i won't be able to sleep. i haven't been online for more than 5 hours since thursday, or even wednesday. THAT IS SO SICK. it's all because the pentland chronic stopped being so chronic. i think i'm sick. really. i want stuff from lush but man. no. i will go practise piano now. haha yes really. you GUYS. i bet my birthday is going to be one terrible day. i can feel it. it's going to be a day i wish never existed. i will be nauseous. i was going to take something like 5 tylenols because TYLENOL JUST DOESN'T WORK but i decided not to because even five tylenols don't work. they're placebos. like the band. and friends, placebos are like, candy. really. don't waste your time on otc medicines. except for pepto bismol. seriously, i feel sick. 
9.15.2001
11:44 PM
music: graham coxon - hard + slow I LOVE THIS SONG. because it's about treating graham hard and slow, but i thought it would be a super sexual song, but it's full of ACOUSTIC GEETAR AND HAPPINESS AND IT'S SO CUTE AAAHHHHH. i was not here yesterday and most of today because i was at my friend jene's house basically doing nothing, we also talked about vomit and i taught her brother noah play some guitar chords. he is a good kid, he likes barenaked ladies and and the ernies and blink 182, and man, he is a good kid. but yeah. it was fun times. but i will talk about it tomorrow because oh i am so tired! anyway. I HAVE PRE-ORDERED NEW SLOAN. NEW SLOAN COMING IN MY MAIL. NEW SLOAN IN MY MAIL SOON. OH YAY NEW SLOAN. they are the world. they are the children. there is a hot picture of them that is new, it made me shake my fists ala beavis (of beavis and butthead fame, DO YOU NOT REMEMBER THEM YOU IMBECILES!) and i wanted to say "nyahh nayhhhh CORNHOLIO!!" i am an immature child. anyway. here is the picture. during my posting of that picture and the word "during," there was a space in which i excused myself to go to my nearest washroom facility and stood there making squeaky noises. i make funny noises when i have no words, and dangit that's the way it's gonna be. i know it looks like weezer. which really, is funny. and i bought mike o'neill's what happens now, because i've been wanting it for a while. my new favourite song is tofu rivers by the meligrove band!!!!! also i like let's spend the night together by the rolling stones, but i mean, i always liked that song, but i just downloaded it now. so i'm like, "YES!" there is good piano in it. it reminds me of brian jones. brian. you were a good guy. the good guys! also!!! hahaha, i am gonna be a BAAAADD journalist because i don't check up on my facts. this is a retraction on my dad. because remember like, nine posts ago i was all "my dad does not remember when kennedy died?" well he does. i asked him. and he was like, "yeah, it happens i was home sick from school. and i turned on the television [he didn't say television, he said tv, but c'mon, let it go] and i heard about it." and i remember him telling me that story a while ago. so yep. i probably asked my dad about like, when henry kissinger was born. actually i'm kidding. henry kissinger is a very very old man. but you know the jist of what i was trying to say. gist? whut-ever. MELIGROVE BAND ALRIGHT! i bet when noah grows up (YOU DID READ THE BEGINNING OF THIS POST DID YOU NOT) he will become a better geetarist than me and he will do solos greatly but we will rock and roll together. and sometimes, i bet we'll jam together. we'll do DUAL SOLOS. DUAL SOLOS. YOU GUYS!! you don't know how great dual solos are. it's like, dual synthesisers. but it's dual solos. we will give high fives. right now he cannot do the c chord too properly but it's alright, he's only twelve and his fingers are small. he rawks the house. if he had trading cards and they said "started guitar at" it would say "age 12." see, mine would say, like, "age 13." which is only a year later. but you guys! DUAL SOLOS!!!!!!!! THAT IS THE BEST!! YOU GUYS!
9.13.2001
7:24 PM
journalism story #1 - done by my friend larry this one was about three kids, ages six, seven, and nine, who journalism story #2 - done by me this one, it was about seven neo-nazis in eastern mongolia who forced a serb named "mongolian" howard bibbinstock to snort a bottle of storebought tylenol because he had a lazy eye and they found it offending. "my face hurts," claims bibbinstock after the attack. we had to make up stories for like, brief-writing. and those were the stories we made up. and i laughed exceedingly hard. <--- that is a sentence dickens would love.
7:16 PM
heh. take no prisoners in this knock down drag out war...
7:15 PM
music: weezer - knock down drag out tomorrow my school is asking us kids to wear dark colours in order to mourn.
7:12 PM
my mom likes the sugar ray song "someday." but it's okay, she has beatles cred. it's like today i was all, "sometimes i listen to britney spears because it is catchy." and my friend said "gasp!" and i said "no but it's okay because i have indie cred." and she nodded. even though really i don't. indie cred is silly so it's okay to exploit and use it to my advantages. i don't know what this is, really, but i likes it a LOT. i think of all the dead people. and well. it's better than the holocaust. because before that jewish people had something to be angry about. for a long long time. it would have depressed and sanctified their painful side, i am sure. and with this, no one really had anyone to be mad at until you know, mr. eighteen highjackers with box cutters came along. but that must've only been like, fifteen minutes of hatred. it's not going to make you ill. fifteen minutes of hate. hate is bad for you. don't get mad! but like, the passengers? i bet that sure did wake them up. before they plummeted. so at least they got some healthy adrenaline. i am just trying to be optimistic, folks. actually, the bathroom gallery in general is so awesome. darn you nova scotia, darn you!
7:03 PM
music: sugar ray - someday i donated $25.60 (well technically my dad did, in financial spirit, but it was my will) to the red cross fund thingy and it would be nice if you did too. people, you can donate even a DOLLAR. A DOLLAR. THAT'S A HUNDRED PENNIES. ask your parents. they will say yes. this is exactly what i was thinking when i saw the second tower fall down on television in my digital imaging class. "one day my kids will be all, 'mommy where were you when those really tall buildings fell down?'" and i'll probably be like, "i don't remember. i was too young." because when i ask my dad, "dad where you when john lennon died?" he was all, "i don't remember." and when i said, "dad where were you when john f. kennedy died?" he also said, "i don't remember. i was too young. probably in school." or something like that, and really, how could you forget a thing like that. but then he was only 11 or so when kennedy-o died. so you know. you don't care about much when you're eleven.
9.12.2001
7:59 PM
music: the who - baba o'riley on second thought i will not buy this domain. i swear. for the past few days i have been having these absolutely sickening bouts of nausea. like, i'd be sitting in class, and man. i'd want to hurl. i don't know where it comes from. and right now too. which is why i'm writing about it instead of like, rocking and rolling like i'm 'sposed to.this is the best domain layout in the entire world. it's so good. it beats all yo' elitest pagemaker fiends to the GROUND.
7:49 PM
i have to go buy a domain now, or something. me: is this goulash? i guess that means i'm having goulash and rice for dinner. hahahahaha. goulash. yes. hahahaha. that's a riot.
7:46 PM
music: the super friendz - everybody's dancing "are you gonna drive a truck when you go to your farm in canada?" - this dude named larry. he has the impression that when i grow up i will live in canada on a farm and i'll drive a truck to the public library and cry all day. it's good times. and i'm all "NO I WANT TO BE A BLUE COLLAR WORKER." but of course he wants to put words in my mouth because it's journalism. and speaking of blue collar workers. today at nutrition i was in some teacher's classroom, and my friend was all, "what do you aspire to be when you grow up?" and i'm all really loud, "I WANNA BE A BLUE COLLAR WORKER!" and the teacher overheard and she was like, "well when you feel how they treat you, see if you want to be a blue collar worker then." and folks, she sniggled. and i was like, "but i want to serve people food!" and everyone laughed, i bet they laughed at me, because i want to blue collarfy my life. it's not my fault. maybe they did not laugh AT me. but man. i swear. i want to work at a deli like sarah! i am downloading a sugar ray song. because i love sugar ray. and there's nothing you can do about my love for sugar ray.
7:37 PM
music: the local rabbits - 61 days "::opens tupperware with supposed dinner inside::..... goulash..... (pause).... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA GOULASH. HAHAHAAAAAA. YES. YES. OH YES. HAHAHAHA. GOULASH. GOULASH. YES. GOULASH." - me finding out what dinner is tonight. i don't know what it is. i just assume that yes folks, it's goulash. well, nothing else's been screwed up yet. and no matter what ANYONE says about the palestinians, yassar arafat is still our friend and colleague. go yassar! that is one part that scares me. if it is a few good (well, bad but yep) palestinian men, then what if everyone in the states starts on the you know, the racism, or yeah... like in wwII? maaan. they were cruel cruel times eleven to the nihonjin. i'm not just saying because i'm half japanese (that's a really funny thing to be now, all because of weezer). it's just, cruel. it makes me sick. it makes me want to vomit. i am clearly expressing my disgust here. CLEARLY. EXPRESSING. also today i felt kinda bad in journalism because i am too unopinionated to do any opinion aticles. then aftewards i thought, "what if i do an opinion on being too unopinionated?"
9.11.2001
9:35 PM
"it has little bitty ambulances racing up and down the hall" - some guy talking about the pentagon.
9:20 PM
there's like, a picture of the ny skyline on nbc. that is so creepy. it's a hole. you know like, when someone pokes your eye out and then you have no more eye, it's just a hole? it's like that.
9:19 PM
Although officials said the attacks appeared to have been well planned and executed, a passenger on the plane that hit the Pentagon said in cell phone call to her husband that the terrorists were armed with knives and box cutters. it's almost too ridiculous to be true. box cutters.
9:15 PM
12:04 p.m.: Los Angeles International Airport is evacuated. that one sentence, even though it's so... boring, compared to the other bits. it's scary.
9:11 PM
9:40 a.m.: The FAA halts all flight operations at U.S. airports, the first time in U.S. history that air traffic nationwide has been halted. i am going to puke. i hope you don't mind me doing this because i still don't get it, and i mean, what am i supposed to do, SLEEP? lying there. in the dark. "i'm gonna die. DIEDIEDIEDIE LIKE A FIGHTER PILOT." it's not gonna work, kids.
9:09 PM
"These acts shatter steel, but they cannot dent the steel of American resolve," george, i love you baby, but you have to know this. america's children are breaking down.
9:06 PM
okay. so denise and chrissy are alive, because i saw their guestbook entries. good. that's a good thing. that lifts my heart some. LOVE IS THE ANSWER.
8:54 PM
i got this from the sloan message board, of all places, but anyway. One of the free papers today said today is the U.N. International Day of Peace. what the. i don't get it.
8:51 PM
music: the dandy warhols - sleep i think that song's good for today too. gee. a whole slew of songs. there should be a mixtape. i am so sorry about that. i should be quiet now before someone beats me down. i tried to call rita. her line was busy. which is understandable. but that just makes me more scared. how close is jersey to new york? because oh man, denise. chrissy. juli too. you guys. i swear. it's getting more surreal the more i think about it.
8:29 PM
music: matthew good band - look happy, it's the end of the world you bet it's fitting.
7:57 PM
heh, i love you guys, but reading all these diary entries makes me want to cry more. not that i have already.
7:54 PM
well well well. you guys sure do LOOOVEEE God now, don't you. that was less intended to be sarcasm than it sounds. no really.
7:52 PM
you know what, on any other day i'd find it funny to see footage of like, a cow running into a tree. but now it's just like, a metaphor.
7:42 PM
i want to give everyone a hug. a hug and a good shoulder to cry on. or like, beat to shards of flesh if you are angry.
7:37 PM
and my final note? it's because i've read how like, everyone's all "dude. i am speechless." and i thought those last few posts were just too happy for this type of... event so. yassar, you guys, my homegirls, and the rest of the mourning country as we know it. let's hold hands. no seriously. give peace a chance. oh man. and my initial reaction was "HELLO I'M GONNA CRY." because i was in my zero period when i saw it on the television in our class. "where were you when the world started to end?" and i will say, "i was in digital imaging doing nothing." actually, i was sleeping. i don't know. there's too much hate in this world. it's enough to make me go back to my charlie-lifestyle again. which was odd, really. today i was gonna go to an angels/mariners game, too. well sort of. of course it's cancelled. and my mom is angry because she lost a pen. really, mother. the pentagon is now the square, and you're mad about a $3 pen. THE SQUARE. WE HAVE A SQUARE FOR A GOVERNMENTAL BUILDING. i just don't know how to sound sullen anymore.
7:29 PM
music: sloan - losing california (live on conan) you're so right, patrick. we are losing at least, the united states. inch by inch. sit back and watch it go. coming in clearly. dance dance dance to the raa--- HEY HEY HEY. THIS SONG IS ABOUT HOW THE UNITED STATES IS GONNA BLOW UP STATE BY STATE. IT'S NOT ABOUT DRAG CAR RACING. WHAT KIND OF SICK GAME ARE YOU TRYING TO PULL, MAN?
so you're speechless. thus holding you also defendless. i am appalled by you. not really.
7:26 PM
music: the stooges - loose (i listen to other stooges songs, i mean, but this one's always on) obviousLY. 1) RITA ARE YOU OKAY. she holds my most concern. because you know. she lives like, in new york city. dudes. reasons why i wish i lived in canada
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