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Tuesday, July 18, 2000<------
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I went to go see "A Perfect Storm" tonight with Jackie, and I had a great time. I really like to spend time with her.... she's beautiful and fun to be around. I've been trying to buy a computer online at Egghead.com for the greater part of the day, but with no luck... I'm looking to pick up something like an HP Pavilion type system with an AMD motherboard, and soon enough, hopefully it will come to me. I also got an application for Ace Hardware store today too. Whoo-Hoo!!! I need to start working ASAP so I can once again get a nice influx of money... All in all... Good day! *1:02 AM*
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Saturday, July 15, 2000<------
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Well, DAMN. When we got to the theatre last night... X-Men was completely sold out. I guess we should have expected it, but...damn. No matter...We saw "Me, Myself, and Irene".... The only redeeming quality of that movie was getting to see a midget beat the hell out of Jim Carrey with nunchuks. That was pretty sweet....otherwise don't see it. Ander's party went pretty well (the food was good and basketball is fun)... My feet are killing me since I didn't know b-ball was gonna be played there, and I only wore sandals...my fault..! Oh well... I just busted out my fucking dad today on teaching and dealing with middle schoolers. He is such a tool....I can't stand him... He wasn't that bad today, but most all of the time is an absolute dictator... Maybe my telling him to shove it up his ass (in as many words) is doing something about that.. Ah well... *11:39 AM*
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Friday, July 14, 2000<------
Rehearsal went pretty well today, except the little kids in the Junior Band were all being asses today... Thats no problem though... They're only middle schoolers, and once they get into the Senior Band, they're gonna get kicked into shape quickly enough. I was planning on seeing the X-Men movie today with some friends of mine, but I just found out that my good friend Anders is getting some sort of surprise birthday party, so I'll be going to that instead. Maybe I'll be able to see a WAY late showing of the movie tonight....That would own... Tonight should be a good time....
I'll be turning 19 on the 19th this month, and I'm not really excited about that... Most of my birthdays just came and gone... No one even acknowledges my B-day anymore, but I'm used to it, so it doesn't bother me that much when no one remembers it. Oh, I've got another thing...... Happy 19th Birthday Jennifer! *1:06 PM*
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Thursday, July 13, 2000<------
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Thanks to a lengthy two-part band tour spanning weeks, I haven't been around in what seems to be forever. My apologies... Anyways, not too much has been going on here... Same shitty life living at home, and my love life still is pretty shitty as well... With Jennifer, I've come to realize that I'm in a fight that I cannot win. It's pretty pointless and hopeless. Now that I'm home, I should be able to get back to working on the site. I think I'll leave the column up for awhile, but I've gotta get an interview up so everyone can get a good laugh. Anyways.... I'm out for now. Cheers. *2:10 PM*
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Tuesday, June 20, 2000<------
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I am such a complete fool... Why did I ever say something that sounded criticisive to Jennifer? I could never ever be more sorry... I am such an ass.. I really hope she forgives me, and I don't think she realizes how much her forgiveness really means to me... I just hope she doesn't all of a sudden find some reason to dislike me... which I doubt would happen as it's really juvenile, and I know that Jennifer wouldn't be like that, but still.. I really worry about these things. I really like her a lot....Of course I'll probably never let her know like I should, but that would only be MY fault. I truly hate the feeling that you're not good enough for someone and cant compete (although you may not have to at all), so you'll never have her... Damn, I need to chill out. *1:29 AM*
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Monday, June 19, 2000<------
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I know I haven't posted in awhile.. I've been really busy with marching band and all, aside from just being confused.. It's really easy to get confused... There are so many things to get confused about. School, work, and relationships, just to name a few. I am really fucking confused. I have the worst fear of rejection. I really do. And when I talk to Jennifer, I haven't a clue what to do. I feel like the biggest fool just talking to her, and all I want is to see her smile. I'd make a fool of myself every second of everyday for the rest of my life to see that smile. I really don't know what to do... Why do I have to be such a moron? I haven't done anything wrong, but its just that feeling that you get whenever you're around someone you like/care about, and you lock up. I guess I just try to be funny and hope everything works out...and nothing gets better, simply because nothing happens at all.. If I wasn't so afraid of being hurt, maybe my stupid ass would have done something by now, and all would be well. Damn.... I'm so glad I get to see her everyday at rehearsal... *1:12 AM*
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Wednesday, June 14, 2000<------
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Well, a fun day.. There was a chemical spill at rehearsal today, in another part of the school, in the science wing, and the band had to be evacutated from the building, and the school was put into lockdown until the HAZ-MAT guys cleaned everything up. Weird... After that, we got some beer and just hung out at Guy's house.. A lot of fun, just chillin' and all...but the best was a wicked game of croquet. Croquet owns....No question about that. *8:35 PM*
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The word on the street is......"FUCK YEAH!!!" My dad went out of town for a week to help my grandmother move to Texas, so I won't have to hear a damn thing from him for a whole seven days. What excitement....! Heh, well I had better savour it while I can. He's be back before I know, and damn...how I dread that day. Today was a great day... I actually turned down the pizza delivery job... Hopefully it's for the best... They wouldn't have insured me or paid for my gas or anything... I say "fuck them." I've got another day of rehearsal lined up, and my drumline is sounding really good. They'll be even better by the end of the week. Sign my guestbook, and leave a comment or something. Auf wiedersehen. *12:52 AM*
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