9/17/2001 09:03:07 PM

Blogger has been a pain lately, so whenever I've tryed to update it hasn't allowed me to. I've been on a picture taking frenzy. I took a shoot with Sarah M. on Friday, and I did Jenna's senior pictures after rehearsal today. Sarah and I stuck around the area and walked to this local field and cemetary, while Jenna and I went to Sanford and hit the broken down mills and rough parts of the city. I can't wait to see how they turned out.

The play is coming along nicely, it's just really irratating that my throat only fills with mucas when I'm about to sing. Angelica said she had this special soup for it, I NEED IT NOW... :-( other then that my only complaint is that I'm sharing this part with Crigger. I wouldn't of minded sharing so much if 1. it wasn't Crigger. 2. he would of got picked besides the fact his family is IN with the music director. amd 3. that he really doesn't fit the part. This boy is 80 lbs and he's a junior, and he sings high soprano. Yet all his songs are tenor range, and he can't seem to choose which range he'd like to sing in. Also in creating his character he's turned Ugly into this meek little creature who can't even talk, Ugly is somewhat unconfident(etc.) but the level that he brings it to is just wrong. Nobody wants to see this pathetic character whimpering out his lines. The whole thing just irratates me cause he was only cast because of his status with the director.

School is great. I'm still loving my classes even though homework is becoming rather intense and I'm struggling with Geometry. Cursed equations.

I've been dreaming A LOT lately. A)I traveled every morning to Washington to see Kim and traveled back everynight, for like a week (dream time), and then her mom caught us taking a nap and she got mad, then I woke up. B)Meghan's family disowned the other half of the family, and then I gave her claritan for her allergies to the new cat. C) Ethan came over and watched American History X, made eggs on the ceiling, and then he started cutting off his hair randomly and glueing it to the eggs.

jlevesque



9/12/2001 10:14:27 PM

My senses have returned to normal. It turns out that two of the suspects crossed over from Canada (or it appears so) and caught a plane in Portland, ME. That jetport is 15-20 minutes from my house, this totally freaks me out.

On a lighter note, school has been fine. It's going on like nothing happened, Honk! rehearsals are still going on and most sport practices are still on. Biology class is tons of fun, we did animal capsule labs, and History was good just because Mr. Wagner talked to us about everything that happened like Humans and not these sub-species of apes. I really don't want to go to French tomorrow, his yells all the time, he doesn't mean to but that's how he talks. AND I don't understand why these kids are in French 3 if they don't really care about it. You only have to take two years of language. It's so irratating when people dont know that QUI goes if there is no subject and QUE goes when there is a subject. YOU'RE IN FRENCH 3!

so yea, I'm going to do my homework now. Goodnight, and to you who know people that have been killed or injured, my love is with you.

jlevesque



9/11/2001 06:40:20 PM

I sit here, dwelling on disbelief. My body stiff with shock and my brain too overwhelmed to comprehend. It fealt to fake when the announcement came over the com, school went on, no big deal. Then we all went to the library and watched the actual events on the set up TV, and I left the room to cry. These waves hit me every so often cause I forget for split seconds what went on, and then I'm jolted back to reality by the news playing in the distant, or an IM from someone talking about it. I just feel so overwhelmed.

jlevesque



9/8/2001 12:43:32 AM

It's late, I'm going to a bottle-drive tomorrow with Kelsey. It should be fun, Ethan's gone for the weekend so he won't be going which is a bust.

I love the band American Football, emo me to death.

For some reason I'm feeling detatched from my Dad's house, even more then normal (seeing as how Im here 4 days a month), like my being a vegitarian puts this big wall between us. oh NEWS!- My step mom is pregnant with a boy! I'm going to have ANOTHER sibling. Benjamin Levesque..... I'm working on the changing the name. Nothing is wrong with the name Ben, but come on let's break out of the mold a little bit. I've never imagine myself having this big of a family with tons of nephews and nieces. It's just really really weird that I have this big family all of a sudden...ESPECIALLY another brother, I just never fathomed(sp?) it.

jlevesque



9/5/2001 08:50:48 PM

I was feeling rather captured earlier so I took my homework to our wicker couch outside located is this cut out of the woods out back of our house. I had to read a short story about King Arthur which I found very intresting. At first I was skeptical and thought it would be your Disney story but it cut off at the movie part and went to another where King Arthur is explaining how to use Might as Right. It was just relaxing.

I'm looking forward to ACCL Biology tomorrow. The class is 120(i think) minutes long, and I'm excited. Honestly.

jlevesque



9/5/2001 05:53:28 PM

School was absolutely the best, having class with Ethan has brought me back to earth, we're too sarcastic and witty. *nods* I got homework and I'm dying to dive into the book and read even though I have to till Friday. I just realized I can go out on my roof, I think I've found my new spot. I love my classes save for ACCL Geometry and I'm the only Sophomore. I feel so stupid in the class, even though I know how to work the calculators and they keep breaking them. It's amazing how organized I am this year, I'm going to get PERFECT grades I tell you, PERFECT.

jlevesque



9/4/2001 02:55:50 PM

School starts tomorrow, and I can't wait to bury my head into those books. To have something really productive to do, I CAN NOT WAIT. I made notebooks last night to prepare, but somehow I've neglected clothes shopping. I think I've only gotten one pair of pants? and maybe 2 shirts. So I'm begging mother to take me this weekend, I can live off my old clothes for 3 days. I've worn this grey shirt religiously this summer, I need some change. I'm probably getting my hair cut a little, just in the back it's a little to long. I might get it dyed too, egh it depends if I'm feelin' it. So now I'm just putting around the house waiting for the hours to slip by, I'm extremely hungry but all we have is animal product to eat. I might walk to the store and get an italian or something.

Driving with Mom is getting rather annoying, she yells at me all the time and I'm doing exactly what I'm supposed to. She gets so nerved up and she really needs to calm down.

I showed Meg one of my notebooks and she wants one so I'm going to make her one tonite. I love being this constructive.

jlevesque



9/3/2001 10:10:57 PM

I can't wait to go to Mechuwana and see Jenna, I need some stability, and I find that around her.

jlevesque



9/3/2001 10:06:17 PM

I haven't updated in a few days, my expression is limited now, but that's ok. I went to a Labor Day party today, a day filled with kayaking, swimming, chess, some good eats, and good friends. All in all it was pleasant. I came home and mom and I instantly started argueing about things. Stupid things that I should of dropped but I didn't. The argument continued on the ride to Wal*Mart to pick up some pictures, and ended in the shoe department. She's manifesting this extra stresses out of no where, and I'm trying to make her realize that but she won't admit it.

I haven't fealt "healthy" in over a week now, obviously due to issues that I'm harboring away from the world. Hopefully my stomach will digest them soon.

I'm going to design my notebooks now, I'll be back, probably with another update.

jlevesque



8/31/2001 06:27:38 PM

So things still arn't as great as they could be, just all these things are happening with different people and so I'm taking all this in and reacting the wrong ways to the wrong people. I'm sorry to those who I've offended, you know who you are, and even though you keep saying I don't understand, I do. I really do understand. I can't wait for school start, I need it's structure.

jlevesque




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