Thursday, August 17, 2000
wow, it has been waaaaay too long since i last blogged. i'm very sorry, truly. i really want to make my blog pretty (thank you madeline, for making mine look like more of a piece of crap....or should i say, thank you carter?). that will happen eventually, even though ellis stole my whole pink/black combination, damn that girl!
hmm....i got my hair cut, it looks pretty good, it's different and all that. it was pretty weird, though, because she didn't actually *cut* my hair. she took this old-timey razor and grabbed a handful of hair and ran the razor down it, shaving off hair. i was so scared it was going to look horrible, but it really doesn't.
today i spent five hours at the athens/clarke county library finishing my ap history homework. it was sooooo horrible! but, there was a steady stream of interesting freaks and old men coming in to read magazines and the wall street journal, so that was cool. well, wait...i guess it was more like 4 and a half hours, because halfway through i walked over to beechwood and grabbed some food. the frat boys are truly back, i had an insanely embarrassing car honking and deep male voices yelling at me experience. i almost had a heart attack, good god.
school is starting monday. i got my books today. i really don't want it to happen, but i think i'm mentally prepared for a hellishly hard sophmore year in high school. i'll survive somehow, like always.
paper fuzz. i saw them. they were good. i made a shirt. it was fun.
oh, so i heard that you guys are going to be voting blogs off the project. okay, "you guys" is just chip, isn't it? well, please don't vote mine off! i know my blogs have been infrequent but i can change, i swear! i've just been.....busy. please believe that.
the grapes of wrath is a really amazing book.
anyways, i'm gonna get going. this has seriously been the most productive day i've had all summer. i'm kinda proud of myself for spending that long at the library, though. i mean, i guess i found out i actually do have will power, which is totally kickass. AND i just blogged, so now i don't have to feel guilty for a little while.....
all is well.
love, nelle
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Wednesday, July 26, 2000
feeling obligated to blog again...............another perfect summer night for me. drove around, looked at mansions, lied around in my underwear....it was wonderful. wait, it is wonderful....the night isn't over quite yet.
other news....my fingernails are so long. i'm really proud! i feel like such a girl, it's great.
madeline is really dating zack now (i'm telling you this only because she has abandoned her blog.....what a lame-o).
hmm....i'm on a new acne-prevention thing. it's pretty cool, except that it's majorly irritating my skin right now. why do i always blog about my skin? it's like, only interesting at all to me, and i know that.....hmm.....
i got new birkenstocks today. they're such ugly shoes, it's insane, but so comfortable. wow, they feel good. i can already tell i'm going to obsessively wear these like i did my last pair. the day those shoes began to reek was one of my most depressing days ever, seriously.
sooooo tired. i'm going to try to update more, i'm serious.
going to the beach for a week on sunday. god help me.
love, nelle
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Monday, July 10, 2000
i've decided to use this blog as a place to complain. i apologize in advance.i feel bad. i have a little bit of a fever. i have stomach pains. i mean, pains. it's really shitty. i'm getting hives for like, the millionth time. they itch terribly. i need to sleep, but i don't want to sleep. maybe i'll take some tylenol pm and let myself pass out. that's always nice. god, i'm really glad my mom told me that i have to have "a quiet night tonight." ooooh, the pain lessened for a little bit there. aaaaaaah, better. better. ugh, but, it's still there.
my mom and i are going "intimate" shopping tomorrow. haha, that sounds kinda kinky in a reeeeally lame way. nah, you know what i mean. we're going underwear shopping. it's gonna suck. i just hope she doesn't force me to show her....*shudder*
summer is so wonderful. i really love it. i'm really happy. it's so nice. i'm so relaxed.
x-men this friday. i'm there.
ughhhh....i'm gonna go lie down with a heating pad and feel sorry for myself.
and to think, i could be doing homework right now......
bwa-hahahaha! summer rules!
love, nelle
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Thursday, July 6, 2000
today is thursday. i keep fogetting that. i feel like it's tuesday for some odd reason.lets see...yesterday i mowed our entire yard (it's pretty big, i'd say) and was catcalled at in spanish by construction workers across the street. it was really disturbing. now, i've been told that this is "*my* own fault" because i was in a bikini top while i was mowing the lawn. somehow that kinda pisses me off. i mean, i'm a fifteen year old girl, i *look* like a fifteen year old girl, i was mowing *my* lawn, minding my own business...i mean, aren't i allowed to wear whatever i want on *my* property? grrrr.....
i was going to lay out today (in a construction worker-free zone) but i don't really think the sun is bright enough right now. i think i'm going to try to get my room insanely clean (it's wrecked) and then maybe (god willing) do something normal and social. like a movie....ah yes, a movie. well, wait....there really isn't anything good out yet. (x-men is on the way though!) hmm....well, we shall see. i've had a few closed-off family days, what with the holiday and what-not, and i'm starting to slowly go insane. i mean, i love my mom and everything, it's just that she continually rants about e-bay now and it's gotten very old. i think the only thing that's saving me is reading the Harry Potter books. god, i feel so lame. my mom has been trying to make me like them for awhile, so i broke down and read the first one. it was really enjoyable! so, at like, two o'clock this morning i went downstairs and grabbed the second one. it's not *quite* as good so far, but it's entertainment. and, you know, reading has kept me from obsessively watching tv this summer....well, really, watching tv at all. i just can't watch it for some reason anymore.
i'm dying to see Sister Act!! god, i don't know where this came from, but it's really weird!! it might be shaping up to be another Tommy Boy.....well, no, there can never be another Tommy Boy for me. god, i love that movie soooo much.
well, i'm off to go start my day, and it's actually before noon for once!!! i'm getting somewhere!
love, nelle
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Monday, July 3, 2000
um, excuse me for that last blog. i was really, really irrational at the time and being very stupid. it turns out that i haven't gained any weight at all. fancy that.what has been going on in my life? lets see, on sunday i went to my cousin jack waters's funeral in north carolina. it was a really difficult day, to say the least. but, i'd rather not go into that, sooo.....
i've decided that i want someone to sing "Bridge Over Troubled Water" at my funeral. it came on in the car on the way home, and it was just so emotional that it started me crying again. and, really, it's a sad song, but an uplifting song, too, and a song i've loved for awhile.
i saw The Patriot again, because i'm a good child and my family wanted to see it. it was a little more tedious the second time through, and my dad ranted all the way home about the historical inaccuracies. oh, and the young rogue fighting for freedom was way less attractive this time.
on the way home from best buy, my sister and i rolled down the windows and watched a really nice fireworks display. it was one of those really peaceful, picturesque moments that make me feel really content. i mean, the wind in my face, the brilliant lights, the sound of the crowd 'ooh'-ing and 'aah'-ing, my sister and i confiding in each other....it was perfect.
what else? hmm....i'm feeling rather frustrated with alot of things going on in my life right now. i'd go into it in detail, but i don't want to offend anybody close to me. anyways, i think being at home and listening to music and such, alongwith my frequent car trips, is putting me in a very reflective mood. that and i'm obviously feeling really stressed...i've been breaking out in hives lately (a result of tension) and having really, really bad headaches. i think i just worry about people too much for my own good. ahh, it'll pass, everything does.
haha, i downloaded some songs from SisterAct (don't ask) and that part in "Hail Holy Queen" where the quiet redhead girl bursts into song at the encouragement of whoopi just came on. why does it crack me up every single time? soooo easily amused....
i know, i know....i need to update more. i try, people....you know i do!
um.
okay.
i don't.
at all.
love, nelle
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Thursday, June 29, 2000
okay, i think the fact that i'm blogging twice in one day is evidence that i am bored out of my mind!anyways, i'm currently freaking out because in the past few days i've been snacking and whatnot, you know, not really thinking about what i've eaten and such. well, i just hopped on the scale and i have gained, like, four pounds!!!! i'm almost crying, i swear! what the hell am i supposed to do? i hate struggling with my weight, i really do. well, i think (and i know this is stupid, but i really can't have this extra weight on me, seriously) i'm going to on a short period (maybe three days) of a crash diet. like, all the water i want and a seriously limited amount of food. fruit is okay, right? oh, and no cokes. no carbonated beverages with a large amount of calories. oh my god, i'm freaking out!! i can't get fat, i can't. i can't grow out of my clothes.
okay, i'm going to take a few very deep breaths. i can't cry about my weight. this is not a big deal. i will lose the weight. i will.
i think i'm losing my mind.
love, nelle
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god, summer is so wonderful. i just woke up about fifteen minutes ago. so rested, so relaxed.i'm going to try to not eat today until dinner. no, it's not test-driving anorexia or anything like that, it's just that i've been eating a ton of stuff lately and am starting to feel really weighted down and guilty. so, i'm giving myself as many liquids (minus coke) as i want, and am just gonna see if i can do it. i'll blog with the results. i hope i feel really cleansed, as lame as that sounds.
last night erik and i went to see The Patriot and ended up bumping into woods and two fellow bloggers, jocelyn and amy. the movie was way better than i thought it would be, but about an hour too long. i did like it way better than Gladiator, though. the gory battle scenes were really what made it worthwhile....they were so well done, and okay, mel gibson is pretty kickass when it comes to revenge.
whoa, i just got another call from madeline (she's been gone four days and has called me three times) and it sounds like she's not doing well at all. i feel really bad. she wanted me to get a big group to go to six flags to meet her on saturday, but it looks like that isn't going to work. god, i feel so awful that she's having a bad time. and she has more than a week left to go!
i think i'm going to go take a horribly long shower and then attempt cleaning up my room. it's been looking pretty bad....i mean, so bad that i actually noticed, you know?
love, nelle
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Tuesday, June 27, 2000
wow, i feel really guilty for not blogging. i'll try to make this an extra-long one.hmm....well, summer is going really well. i'm keeping busy, having fun, and all that jazz. madeline's off at art camp...she called me yesterday and is apparently having a horrible time, poor thing. she'll be back in a couple of weeks, though.
last night i had the oddest dream. i dreamt that my now-deceased grandmother came back from the grave and told me that i'm looking fat. isn't that weird? i'm trying to figure it out.
what else? uh....on the 2nd it'll be my two month anniversary with john and on the 4th it'll be my sister rachel's birthday. she lives in washington dc, though, so that's not too much of a deal, i suppose.
alas, with all of these family reunions/funerals/etc it looks like i probably won't be able to go to graceland with my mom. i'm quite disapointed. oh, and i just found out that i have to go to the beach with my family for a whole week in august. i'm really pissed. a week is like a year in my time! i'll survive somehow, though.
i have yet to go to six flags, though i'm dying to. my sister carrie half-invited me to go with her and her quasi-boyfriend tom, but i don't know how much fun that would be. i mean, he's a nice guy and all, but rather bland, and carrie always ends up stressing at theme parks. oh well, we shall see.
i got my summer packet-thing for AP history next year. it's pretty huge. i plan on putting it off for as long as possible.
i took the longest bath i've ever taken last night. god, it was incredible. i was so relaxed. i still need to find some really good bubble bath, though. mine is pretty weak.
i'm slowly getting back into passions, the soap opera i started watching last summer. i'm so ashamed, though. it really is a horrid show. oh well, maybe if i don't let myself watch it today i'll curb my addiction.
anyways, i think i'm gonna try to get back into blogging. it really is theraputic in it's own way.
i watched a bit of The Search for Jesus last night with peter jennings, and it was really cool. i wonder, is that a mini-series or just a one time show. i really love peter jennings, he seems like such a cool guy, even if he is canadian. ("....with all their beady little eyes and flappin' heads so full of lies....")
hope everybody's having a great summer!
love, nelle
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