i know its been awhile since i've blogged.....BUT OH MY GOD IF CHIP DIDN'T CLEAN THE HALLWAY!!!! dear lord if i didn't come home from work and make my usual walk to my bedroom to put up my stuff, and as soon as i got in the doorway....i stopped.....i took a step backward....and slowly turned around...........WE HAVE A HALLWAY!!! it looks so rad:) he wasn't here to witness my pure happiness (not that the house has been nasty or anything....i just know how we've been talking about how it'd be nice to have a hallway, a real one in which you can see the wall-floorboards:)

anyways....besides the hall....there seems to be some kind of noise coming from chip's room....its kinda freaking me out. either its something in one of the boxes that he's cleared from the hall (dear god i hope not) or its some kind of nature thing coming from his open window. oh please please please let there be a screen or something on that window that will keep the squirrels and other friendly varments out of our living space. (not to mention the not so pleasant creature we've all come to call a roach....eewwww)
6:03:53 PM

Wednesday, February 23, 2000

it's finally quiet. i haven't blogged in awhile cause it's been difficult to just sit down and think. not that its noisy here....but maybe kinda in my life. today is a prime example. basically the day started off with my body telling me to stay at home....to simply ignore the alarm and pull the covers back over my eyes. but no. i got out of bed, showered/dressed and went with chipper to get some dunkindonuts. once i got there i thought, "hey, wouldn't it be nice to bring some breakfast to the workin' crew!" so i got a dozen and be-bopped over to my place of employment, proudly walked into the graphics lab and set my trophy upon the table. but all i got was, "damn, i was really trying to watch what i eat" and "why do people continue to slam fattening foods in our face" ....etc.... so i put my tail between my legs and went to my cube to begin work.

the day seemed to be getting better, monotonous, but better....until we had a little going away party for this girl and when it was all over i was given the duty to carry her cakes upstairs for her to take home to her family. ....well....i basically tried to "take care of it" by myself....so, when i came upon this door, somehow i felt i could hold the cake and open the door and do it all....but i was wrong. i dropped her cake....frosting down. and it was homemade.

so, i found myself twice in one day putting my tail between my legs and went home. i thought...."hey, i'm home now...everything is gonna be just fine." but no. somehow upon turning too fast at my lightswitch or something.....my shelves got bumped or something and went crashing to the floor.....with everything on it. lovely day so far huh. figurines shattered, videos cracked, my scooby mobile scratched and my piggy bank busted leaving all my change tails up......(for those of you who don't know me, i'm very superstitious)

the noise isn't life shriekingly painful or anything.....just off....just alittle.
8:25:34 PM

Tuesday, February 15, 2000

....alrighty....here i am.......after a great long while. alot keeps happening in my life, but what of it is really interesting beyond my own little hemisphere? i mean, to me it seems like the things going on in my life are such a big deal....like others would probably think the same. but when it comes down to it, does anyone really care? not to sound pessimistic, but realistic. i'm happy with things at the moment.....my boy j is wonderful (stressful for both of us at times because of our fears of getting hurt....but wonderful all the same:) my job is a blast (i even got 2 free Thrasher Hockey tickets at $65 a pop for Valentines out of a work lottery:) my roomie rocks (i luved living with chip in the past, and so far nothing has changed....i really feel at home here even though everyone sees it as "chip's place") and i got a car that is slowly growing on me (and has such power its amazing....especially since its so fuel-efficient:) i dunno....to me this all seems like amazingly great things......to me these are great things. to everyone else.....who knows. so why write about these things when i can babble about my great evening.....i came home from a long day at work to gather the roomie and kate to go for a walk around the hood (normaltown:) i had such a nice time, it felt so good to just get out and breathe and all that....it rocked! and when we got back i had a message from my boy, so i paged him and went out to the front porch to sweep (since i was so inspired after admiring all the porch decor in normaltown......chip and i have decided to take notes on our next walk for future visually pleasing home ideas) and by the time he called back and showed up on my partially swept porch, he swept me in his arms and we sat on the front swing and talked about our days. then i mentioned how i want to take latin/swing dance classes, "would he be interested in joining me?".....surprising me by grabbing my hand, throwing an arm around my waist and showing me the first few steps............he continues to surprise me daily:)
10:24:05 PM

Thursday, February 03, 2000

....my chickmail won't download...i'm kinda pissed. i haven't really eaten today....the car situation backfired....i have no idea if the room is ready for me but i have got to move in (clean up the room and get my stuff in and live with normal people)...and i can't seem to handle all the pressure right now. i need a drink....but somehow food seems to be the better idea.
5:57:49 PM

Tuesday, February 01, 2000

i just read chip's blog......#1 good luck miss kate. and look on the bright side.....good drugs:) #2 is the green room available cause i gotta find room in one of the corners to put my crib. #3 i might be buying a car tommorow....a little nervous about it. i wanted to get the floor boards holed up and the floors mopped tonite, but the people at the dealership were slow. #4 i can't wait to be chip's roomie.....i can't wait to clean and organize the house. joseph would be so proud:) #5 i'm tired of computers at the moment...
8:06:09 PM

my mother is so obsessed with web-bridge.....has anyone heard of this? basically its just like bridge....but even more endless. she is hopelessly happy and driving the rest of us crazy since this house has only one phone line.

.....and my mom finally has a friend....i know that sounds bad, but since my mom's gotted older, her life is either "teacher" "mother" "shopper" "wife".....but never...her and her girlfriends "going out on the town." i'm happy for her...its good to know that she gabs on the phone like me:)

and my lips are so dry....i don't like that. i had to be put on acutane (which is a rather crappy legal drug....no fun side effects AT ALL) and when you mix it with winter weather.....you have one miserably dry wendy:( i just can't coat enough blistex on myself.

done babbling now.
8:00:01 PM

Sunday, January 30, 2000

....oh yeah.....i almost forgot.....working on the closet in the new home, well what does leaded paint dust exactly do to a person anyway?
8:30:55 PM

i know its been like forever since i've blogged....but basically the new job started this past wednsday and frankly i didn't realize sitting in front of a computer all day would make blogging seem so exhausting. i know that after this training period (if i last that long) when i am comfortable and am able to get into a routine, i will love blogging again....or when i move into the Grady house for good i won't be able to help loving computers 24/7 cause of the Chipmeister. but for now....i'll try and maintain the log.

the job seems to be going well, but i still need to push myself very hard outside of work to keep up so they don't decide to get rid of me. i need to buy a car....like yesterday.....but i guess tommorow will do. i have to just decide, write the check and drive away. i need and have to do this.

jay is wonderful, as usual, but he had a rather crappy weekend and i wish that i could help get him out of the house so he could forget about all the problems and worries in his life. its rather a challenge, this dating someone from a different place in life....a person that you seem to grow closer to with every day.....but feel that the closer you get, the more you're possibly holding back each other's lives. could he and i be so selfish. could i be so ridiculous to worry about such menial things. its like i care so much that i would like to think of this thing we're working on as a beginning. but could i just relax and simply enjoy this for what it is, and just take it from there. i have no answers. i have alot of feelings and emotions.

we'll see.
8:22:14 PM

Tuesday, January 25, 2000

i got home a little while ago....ate first since i was seeing double on the road...and must call back chip/kate after blogging before bed, because i have somewhere to be in the morning.

i guess i haven't talked about the job yet because i wanted to sign the papers to know its real......i will be working at flowers/balloons inc. as a graphic artist. kinda far fetched for any who know me, but i know it will fall into place well with time:) i will be working in the catalog/graphics area (which is right where i want to be) and i will be learning alot of things that will blend very well with my photography background. the people seem really nice, i'll meet the whole department tommorow....i hope they like me. i hope i can do the job.

as a part of the pre-job duties i had to get done today was the drug test/physical. the other day when the HR woman set up the appointment, she told me as i walked out of the room, "...oh yeah, and by the way you'll have to take all your clothes off....i just thought i'd warn you." and she left it at that. what was i to think? so for the past few days i've been freaking out, creating scenarios in my head of what might happen when the nurse calls my name. i almost didn't go today. but finally, i got my butt into the car and crawled toward the medical offices. i went in, did the paper work, and actually answered the nurse when she called my name. in the little room i kept looking around...quite sketchily....and finally got up the courage to ask what the physical entailed. .....i had to take my clothes off......but not all of them.

thank god no snapping plastic gloves for me today.
7:07:25 PM