9/11/2001 01:23:01 PM
"...put out the lights on the age of reason..."

Nothing to say today. Im beyond words. it all goes beyond cowardice...beyond politics...beyond evil.
Just no point in it.

9/7/2001 01:12:01 PM
"...Your head will collapse...But there's nothing in it--And you'll ask yourself...Where is my mind? Way out in the water...See it swimmin'..."

SO...last day of work, which is kind of a drag and it kind of stings, because I liked the people there--but it opens up a whole realm of possibilities.
I'm usually into new adventures, so I feel a bit jazzed about being able to do something different.

Sure, its a little nerve-wracking, but everyone need that from time to time.
People are made 90% out of water...if you dont stir them up every now and then--they stagnate. Simple as that.
And comfort isn't always good. I know a lot of people comfortable with bad habits and situations. The thought of the unknown being worse to them than a known bad situation.

Besides...Heru-wer told me that I would be getting into a better place, and He is the one who owns the gold... ;)

-slide!

9/6/2001 11:31:33 AM
"...And here comes the lust in phaze, but you're down in Marietta...So sweet my mouth was seared, But the words you mouthed were sweeter..."

well, Ive been the target of some strange dreams lately. I am not going to go into it very far, but I am reminded of the part in the film "Real Genious" where the following conversation ensues:

Chris: Do you ever have a dream, where you're standing in sort of sun-god robes on a pyramid...with a thousand naked women screaming and throwing little pickles at you?

Mitch: (laughs) No.

Chris: Why am I the only one who has that dream?

So I guess that explains everyting. ;)
-slide-

9/4/2001 11:25:33 AM
"...Laurel and Hardy is the best bet at 4am on a Friday...no dreads about the working days after though...funny thing about weekends when you're unemployed, they dont mean quite so much--except you get to hang out with your workin friends..."

Trying to get past all the junk thats going on lately, with work and home and private life...with occasional success. Just not too successful today. Im having a hard time being motivated today. Wonder why.

Dont get me wrong, Im not completely sunk in depression. I think some of the bulletproof feeling is wearing thin after New Year though. I just want some things to go right...I dont think thats terribly unrealistic. you?

8/31/2001 08:53:11 AM
"...I come home one friday...had to the the landlady I done lost my job...she said that dont confront me...long as I get my money next friday...now next friday come I didnt have the rent...and out the door I went..."

I'm not going to think of it as being laid off.
In an effort to be positive, I'm saying that
I had an unexpected forced employment manuver.
heh.

8/29/2001 10:14:53 AM
"...did a large procession wave their torches as my head fell in the basket, and was everybody dancing on the casket?"

There is a lot of variety in people's opinions of me.
Not that I have any desire to change that, afterall, it is THEIR opinions...
still, I find it rather interesting that there's no bellcurve--quite the opposite. I find that Im placed in the "you love him or you hate him" column most of the time. I guess I still get their attention either way...

As my boss once said: "there is a long line of people waiting to tell me what my problem is..."

I have a lot of different reputations, some with a measure of accuracy.
I guess I fill a place...I seem to be whatever people need at a particular time. If they need a hero, I can do that...if they need some evil person to blame all of the hardships of their life on--I can be an easy target for that too.
Well, at least if I give them what they need...then I'm a rather useful mammal.
(slide)

8/24/2001 01:29:51 PM
"If the doors of perception were cleansed, every thing would appear as it is, infinite"

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