i wonder how many people i threw off my track
and how many more i just suddenly disappointed
by disappearing

i wrote that i would only share with those i loved
except that when it comes down to it i love everyone
(not you, though)

or maybe i got tired
of my words getting stashed away
drowning in the snow crash darkness
of few readers and fewer replies

or maybe i'm not afraid anymore
of fools and their commentaries
and i'm ready to face head-on
(with great vengeance and furious anger)
anybody that would decide to turn my words
(which are my soul, when it comes down to it)
into something they felt like ridiculing

it is all of these things
and more, i'm sure
that have brought me to this decision
but rest assured that everything is more dangerous this time

if you are here
either i love you
or you are persistent
or you are lucky
and i know which is which

so here i am again...