Look ma' I get to Express my self!

Ok.. So I suppose it's another moment of intellectual pondering and a desire to have these ponderings portrayed to the world it's time to slip back into this routine again. There are times when you have to get away from the things you enjoy. When you come back to them you realize why it is you enjoy them so much. After my brother and his Fiance stumbled onto my website followed some what shortly by my mother discovering it I was a bit discouraged to expose my feelings here. But that's passed and here I am once again at an ungodly hour with my confused, weird, and even hectic thoughts. I hope the few of you who visit me every once in a blue moon can understand this.

Not much is new in my life. Well, some things yes but nothing of major importance. I got a domain name a while back, I've yet to decide on some sort of layout for it. And if you have one of your own and are wondering why I'm waiting and frowning for it just sitting there, don't worry. I'm using it. I moved some of my smaller projects to the domain name and I enjoy having the ease of accessability to them. There's the Wild 5 PGN Archive as well as the FICS Quotes page I and a handfull of others run. A few other bits but those are private for now or undercontruction. I plan on moving my ramblings there too. Something a litttle more personal then a modified template and a hole off of my isp. I might keep this going though, for more personal thoughts and ramblings.

this all of course depends on wether or not I actually get off my lazy ass and do these things instead of just think about them for an eternety. I can't wait until febuary 16th... big lan party will be going on. 48 hours of killing goodness.. yum. Let us not forget that febuary is also the month of my birthday. Neat huh? 18 years ago on Febuary 24th I was born. Frightening isn't it? I'm curious as to what I'll get, as is every person when that time comes rolling around..
posted by Night 0wl at 12:40 AM [n0]

wee.. how fun.
eh? So.. yeah.. I haven't been here in a long while. 12/22/00 to be precise.
I'm still alive. But what do you folks care? I could have disapeared off the face of the planet and I doubt I would get one person to wonder.. Well, maybe a few people, I do need to get my brother that 40 bucks.
For x-mas I got a domain name and some free hosting, so expect me to be scarce here and a change in the near to not so near future.
I'm not dead, I just needed a break from here. To much shit to right about so I decided it would be best to do the shit instead of write about it as it went flying past me in a blur. I'm still not back full time here though. Domain to enjoy, Highschool to complete, With College on top of that. And life in general.
It's annoying at times. But I'm liking it. I just need to do my fucking homework now, and keep up with it. I can do this though, I know it. No more slacking off. I'll ace this and hold my mom to her promise of some new gadget. I'm just having trouble deciding on a PDA or a nice big Monitor. What do you think? Don't know why I'm asking you people though.
posted by Night 0wl at 1:26 AM [n0]

Bleh.
Bleh I say, bleh bleh bleh. Earlier some day ago, I don't even know what fucking day it was. My mother stumbled upon my page, and had ample time to read it before I could attempt to thwart her from reading it, wich I wouldn't do, I think...
And if you have been reading constantly, wich I do believe my mothers one adventrue to m page was her last. You'll know there where a few moments here and there where I wasn't completly gentle with my words. But damnit, this is a place for me to vent, I can say what I want and how ever you take it is how it goes down. You'd think though, that reading something personal and knowing it as such would put you in a specific mind frame to be a bit acceptant to thinks.
Yep, My mother had misinterperated what I had said a bit and threw a fit of sorts claiming she was never going to speak to me again. Do you think things can be that simple? Hah! She sure spoke to me. Bleh.

I was tempted to just abandon this "project" of mine. But this is for me, no one else. The visitors are just a bonuss. Speaking of for me, I need to do some thinking and creating, my brother is the owner of neversleeps.org, wich I'm 100% confident it will be presented to me in a gift during this holiday season, namely Christmas. Did I mention bleh? BLEH.

And damnit Mom, don't take this to seriously, I'm just ranting.
I have to rant some place if I can't rant to you.
posted by Night 0wl at 4:57 AM [n0]

What is it I have to offer you people? It's been so long since I've had something to write here, every thing is so bland lately. That's not a bad thing really. But it's, well, bland. Though with the recent news today I do have something to discuss with you, and my self. I'm damn near a college student. Life really begins now. To complete my highschooling I needed, as often times stated, One english, Two history, and one Math. My mother signed me up today for Math 95 at the local community college. I've got a book and all. Thankfully, Being the Night0wl I am, There evening classes and only two days a week.
Of course theres more promises of stuff if I achieve good grades--Do your homework! Perhaps I may do well this time, I could use a new monitor..
posted by Night 0wl at 7:43 PM [n0]

Things keep adding up you know, and honestly that's about all there doing. Something new here and there, bit by bit the pile against me keeps getting taller and taller. Get the dog an apointment with a groomer, get the dog an apointment at the vet, get a dentist apointment, think of the schedual for tomorrow, think of a domain name, get ready for life! Blah blah blah. I hope there's a break in the storm here soon, one can only take so much of this before radical things happen. If it was easier to dig a hole and hide from it all you're damn right I'd be digging it and climbing in, but it sure as hell isn't the easy way out. Procrastination doesn't work when what you're putting off is life.
I need a change. Something, I'm not sure what, can't tell you until it's happened. Taking a class at the college will be good for me, I can get my fucking diploma and really start life. So much to think about and figure out, It's going to drive me mad(er). Bah.
posted by Night 0wl at 10:35 PM [n0]

Just a quick word folks.. Slick foot stools and fluffy socks don't mix. I can't keep my feet where I want them. *sigh* Maybe I should put on a pair of expensive Nikes? Swoosh!
posted by Night 0wl at 4:22 PM [n0]

Most of you don't know me at all really. Just a few things you've picked up from reading here and there, but when it all comes down to it you don't have a clue who I am. I don't blame ya, not like I've given you something to explain who I am, I'll get to it ok? But I'll tell you something now, I have no father. Wich may assist in explain my peculiar nature. There's no need to comfort me on this fact, I appreciate the kind words, but I have never known any other existance. He was gone before I had a chance to know him, all I have is a name and a small story. My father was in one of history's worst points, the Vietnam war. It's even believed that Agent orange was a leading factor in my disease. Wars are terrible, but then again so is depression.
The one thing I am at a loss about with out a father, is how to shave. Damnit it's annoying. I'm fairly certain being the geek I am and doing some reading, or guessing carefully, I could figure it out. My mother however continues to mention it to me on a semi-regular bassis.
Life is full of issues and problems. Some times I just wish they would go away.
posted by Night 0wl at 7:55 AM [n0]