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poetic license is on hiatus.

saturday, august 25
so i haven't posted since may and now is the time for explaination i guess. to be completely honest, i am just no longer interested in my computer at all. anyway, i have an obligation to keep the adoring public posted, so here's what happened:

the last two weeks of school were really, really hard. i was really stressed out and got sick during my AP exams and then later during my real exams. i was staying out late and skipping school and getting all preoccupied with people i shouldn't. the end of school was a big relief and i told myself i was going to change my life for the better over the summer.
i met my new boyfriend, tim, at a few agents shows before we went to the 6/14 show together. since then, we've pretty much spent every day together and have gone all kinds of places and done all kinds of things. i quit at busch gardens and went on widespread panic tour the second week in july, which was amazing. i had never been away from home for so long by myself and we just experienced a lot of things and i felt really liberated. the tour summed up with visiting crystal and tim and i's one month anniversary on the 14th of july. pretty much right when i got back i got a job at this cool record store in town. i really really like the job even though it's a lot of responsibility because i'm one of 3 employees and it's up to me to be punctual and know what i'm talking about. i'll probably be working here until i go to school or move next summer.
anyway, so that's what i've been doing. working, seeing lots of shows and being all smitten with this boy. i've made tons of friends and im establishing my place in the world of the hipped out. otherwise, nothing is up. email me if you love me :)
15:34

wednesday, may 30
i think i've decided that songwriting is less trying to be someone else and more trying to properly represent myself. i go in waves of both, listening to the same album over and over to try to find the key, the underlying words that'll help me start (or finish) the next song. when all i really need to do is listen to myself. analyze me. be less inspired and more meditative, maybe. maybe?
13:28

saturday, may 26
of the recent crushlink adoration i've experienced:

sonorancy (7:49 PM): dammit. i dont want to write who i think it is because i dont think i like anyone that would send me that.
Psy666 (7:49 PM): Is ignoring it an option?
sonorancy (7:49 PM): but then i wont know who it is!
Psy666 (7:50 PM): This rampant curiosity must make your life very difficult.
Psy666 (7:50 PM): You see the pope on TV, "Did he send me email from crushlink!?"
19:59

wednesday, may 23
how do you tell apart when you're lost in simplicity and when you're simply lost?
i think at this point i'm just lost.
i'm overworked, i'm overstressed, i'm overloaded, i'm overtired, i'm frustrated ... i need summer vaca in a bad way. school's over for the summer in 15 days, but if feels like an eternity. my attendance is bad. my jazz band teacher hates me because of it. i haven't been to english in a week and i have 2 tests to make up in 2 of my hardest classes. its so hard to wake up in the morning. at night i'm fine, but when i have to wake up at 6 in the morning i just get nauseous. work sucks. the people at work suck. i need to get a new job for the summer. if only i had time to look.
i think i'm just really discouraged. next year will be better. if only i could keep telling myself that...
19:38

i like oxy pads because im gross and i like seeing all the gross stuff that comes off of my face.
00:19

saturday, may 19
upon reflection of the past 2 or 3 months, one could say i should be weary, and teary, and worn. but i've decided to let it all look like it'll work out in the end, and whatever's going on is simply the good life on hiatus. i had a good day at work today despite a whole bunch of burocracy i don't agree with, i just did my job and got some quiet time and didn't take it too seriously. all i need to take seriously right now is school and music. no over the top relationships, no working 50 hours a week, no fear. i just don't have time for it. anyone feel the same way? email me. i could use the moral support.
23:50

tuesday, may 15
lou on the agents of good roots merchandise inventory:

LouRW (11:19 PM): i wish they sold mesh shorts
23:23

sunday, may 6
i can't even begin to explain the past two weeks i've had. well, i guess i can begin. a quick overview? emotional rollercoaster. extended synopsis? i am a freakin emotional flight attendant. up, down, up, up further, down, down, down. and for once, i don't think it's me.
01:19