Smile Like the Sun
monday, september 17
I just noticed the weirdest thing.. See, okay, I'd bought new dividers for my binder, different colors, and I also bought two notebooks, red and green, to store my math and chem notes in. Well, I just noticed that the color of the divider designated to the subject MATCHES the notebook color! So, my math section has a red divider and the notebook is red, and my chem divider is green and so is its notebook. THAT IS SO WEIRD! I swear I didn't do it on purpose, and I noticed it for the first time in two weeks. Hehe.
Hello.. First off, I'd like to announce that I have officially met Chelsea's Sam yesterday. He happens to be in the same PSAT class as me.. Well, but then they split the class into two smaller classes, so I don't get to see him much.. But I just called out, "Are you Sam??" and he turned to me and said, "Melike." It was sort of freaky but cool.
In other news, I'm still sick. I used to be better in the morning, but then I took a turn for the worse and used a whole lot of tissues. People pitied my sickly voice and tried to stay away from me.. *sob* Hehe.
Um, well, I guess that's all I have to say for now. I don't know if I feel happy or sad these days.. One minute I'm happy and the other I'm sad! I think I'm manic or something! Haha.. Oh well, maybe it's just my brain being weird because I'm sick.
In other news, I'm still sick. I used to be better in the morning, but then I took a turn for the worse and used a whole lot of tissues. People pitied my sickly voice and tried to stay away from me.. *sob* Hehe.
Um, well, I guess that's all I have to say for now. I don't know if I feel happy or sad these days.. One minute I'm happy and the other I'm sad! I think I'm manic or something! Haha.. Oh well, maybe it's just my brain being weird because I'm sick.
sunday, september 16
Ew.. Okay.. this morning I thought I was better, but now I'm even sicker than yesterday. The only thing I don't have is the sore throat.. which is good.. I can sing! Hey - I'd better go to school tomorrow. I live to be in choir. But besides that, I feel horrible. I have SAT prep class at 4:30 today, so I need to finish all my homework until then. So far I've done my Spanish, because my eyes just kept watering and I got a headache when I looked at the text for too long. And now I feel nauseous, probably because I keep swallowing my phlegm, but not on purpose.. Ew, that sounds soo nasty. Anyway, this headache sucks and I feel so dirty and greasy and, well, sick. I hate the sick feeling. And my runny nose is really getting on my nerves. I have clumps of tissues next to me and everything.. I'm gonna cry.. wah.
Okay.. back to doing homework. *sigh*
Okay.. back to doing homework. *sigh*
saturday, september 15
OK.. I am so freaked out.. you know how I didn't believe this when I saw it? Well, I looked for the video on CNN and you can actually see it. So yeah, that's sort of creepy.. not to mention that I showed it to my mom and she also found a skull in the smoke after the devil's face was gone. It's really there for a split second but it's there. I also think that video is the best angle from which the plane can be seen.. it's the best video of the thing I've seen.
And yes, I do happen to be sick. Earlier in the day, snot was literally dripping out of my nose. But then my mom gave me hot chicken noodle soup and medicine and a cough drop and I just curled up on my bed listening to Californication. Then I guess I must have drifted off to sleep, because I gained my consciousness and started thinking, "Hey, what happened to the song before this?" You know what, I hate it when just before you wake up you happen to be thinking about something splendid, but as soon as you wake up you try to go back to that train of thought but it's out of your grasp and you feel like it's gone forever, and it is. But oh well. So now I feel a bit better.. my nose doesn't drip and my sore throat doesn't torment me as much. All I have is a headache and I'm not cold anymore. Yaaay. But not like you care. :)
And yes, I do happen to be sick. Earlier in the day, snot was literally dripping out of my nose. But then my mom gave me hot chicken noodle soup and medicine and a cough drop and I just curled up on my bed listening to Californication. Then I guess I must have drifted off to sleep, because I gained my consciousness and started thinking, "Hey, what happened to the song before this?" You know what, I hate it when just before you wake up you happen to be thinking about something splendid, but as soon as you wake up you try to go back to that train of thought but it's out of your grasp and you feel like it's gone forever, and it is. But oh well. So now I feel a bit better.. my nose doesn't drip and my sore throat doesn't torment me as much. All I have is a headache and I'm not cold anymore. Yaaay. But not like you care. :)
Yo supe que es muy difícil hablar por dos minutos en español.. grr! I ended up trying to do the Spanish thing for 45 minutes! I had nothing to say and sometimes I had huge pauses or I said something wrong or sometimes it was too short or long.. so grr. But I am salvaged today. Today's entry shall be written. But I will suffer tomorrow.. Tomorrow is oral recording day again.
This is either a) a very cool coicidence or b) good art. In any case, it beith cool.
That is it for now. I am becoming sick. Throat hurting. Pain, pain, more pain, headache. I want sleep.. but I am not sleepy. Wah.
This is either a) a very cool coicidence or b) good art. In any case, it beith cool.
That is it for now. I am becoming sick. Throat hurting. Pain, pain, more pain, headache. I want sleep.. but I am not sleepy. Wah.
friday, september 14
Today was... okay, I guess. I feel really abused though, because I'm dying of lack of sleep and I didn't eat anything for 6:00 hours so when I finally did it felt weird and I feel weird now.. and I have a sore throat.. which sucks. It really does. Especially for a choir person and everything. I feel like.. like.. an ice skater without legs! Well, not quite. I could sing pretty well today, even though it stung on some high notes. So it feels more like.... an ice skater without arms or something.
I had promised myself that I'd do my Spanish assignment of keeping a diary every day.. and now I'm so sleepy that I'm not so sure if I'm up for it. We have to have 5 written and 5 oral (recorded on tape) assignments, and I decided to do them interchangably.. Yesterday I did a written, so today I should be doing an oral. You know what, I just might do it. We only have to talk for two minutes anyway.
After that I'm definitely tossing myself violently into bed, closing my eyes, and not budging until about 12 hours later. I'm not even gonna, like, lie back and think quietly to myself or anything. I'm just gonna bury my face into the pillow and sleep. (Well, if I did that, I'd never wake up.. so.. but.. you know what I mean.) Thinking is bad right now. It won't do me any good because I have nothing to think about, and I'd rather sleep than waste time on such activities as 'thinking.' Thinking, pish! Who does that? Certainly not me. Certainly not now.
*walks away zombie-like*
I had promised myself that I'd do my Spanish assignment of keeping a diary every day.. and now I'm so sleepy that I'm not so sure if I'm up for it. We have to have 5 written and 5 oral (recorded on tape) assignments, and I decided to do them interchangably.. Yesterday I did a written, so today I should be doing an oral. You know what, I just might do it. We only have to talk for two minutes anyway.
After that I'm definitely tossing myself violently into bed, closing my eyes, and not budging until about 12 hours later. I'm not even gonna, like, lie back and think quietly to myself or anything. I'm just gonna bury my face into the pillow and sleep. (Well, if I did that, I'd never wake up.. so.. but.. you know what I mean.) Thinking is bad right now. It won't do me any good because I have nothing to think about, and I'd rather sleep than waste time on such activities as 'thinking.' Thinking, pish! Who does that? Certainly not me. Certainly not now.
*walks away zombie-like*
thursday, september 13
Ugh. I'm so tired.. all because I went to bed at 12:00 last night because of reasons I shall not go into here.
Today I felt horribly depressed. I don't know what's wrong with me! I don't THINK anything is wrong.. I mean I hope not.. After school I burst into tears as soon as I got into the car.. haha! My mom was freaked out. Anyway, then at home she gave me good food and I felt better, and I had SAT prep class today and that really raised my spirits. I think it's actually working! Hehe... it had better work.. grr.
Anyway, that is all droopy-eyelids-girl is saying for today. I still have Spanish homework to do.. *YAWN*
Today I felt horribly depressed. I don't know what's wrong with me! I don't THINK anything is wrong.. I mean I hope not.. After school I burst into tears as soon as I got into the car.. haha! My mom was freaked out. Anyway, then at home she gave me good food and I felt better, and I had SAT prep class today and that really raised my spirits. I think it's actually working! Hehe... it had better work.. grr.
Anyway, that is all droopy-eyelids-girl is saying for today. I still have Spanish homework to do.. *YAWN*
wednesday, september 12
Hehe. I guess my entry didn't show up last night.. sorry, Chelsea! But as you can see, I didn't write much.. I mean... what is there to say? It was bad and horrible, and I'm scared, and we're all going to die, and all my art is going to perish, but nobody cared about that in the first place. Ummm... Really, what can I say? Geez. People just expect me to spurt out deep and thoughtful reflections! I mean.. okay, this is gonna sound rude and controversial and everything, but it's actually quite interesting.. I mean, I never thought stuff like this would happen during my lifetime! Of course, I probably wouldn't be this interested if I was going to die soon. I hope I don't. That'd be sad.. for me, at least.
Besides that, I'm having a bad day.. and not because of all this stuff that happened. In fact, nothing actually happened to make this a bad day. Everything is going normally. Maybe I am going through weird internal stuff. *grin* I guess I'll be okay.. maybe I haven't been getting enough sleep lately. I just want to lie down and, like, sleep. Okay.. well.. sleeping would depress me too, actually. I hate the feeling of lying in bed with all my hair messed up and my face greasy and it's light out and I'm too lazy to budge so I just lie there for a couple of hours. Then I get up and I'm all dizzy and woozy... well whatever. Okay, maybe I don't want to sleep.
Besides that, I'm having a bad day.. and not because of all this stuff that happened. In fact, nothing actually happened to make this a bad day. Everything is going normally. Maybe I am going through weird internal stuff. *grin* I guess I'll be okay.. maybe I haven't been getting enough sleep lately. I just want to lie down and, like, sleep. Okay.. well.. sleeping would depress me too, actually. I hate the feeling of lying in bed with all my hair messed up and my face greasy and it's light out and I'm too lazy to budge so I just lie there for a couple of hours. Then I get up and I'm all dizzy and woozy... well whatever. Okay, maybe I don't want to sleep.
tuesday, september 11
Well.. I don't really feel like posting anything today, but I might as well, since everybody else is doing it. The thing... it is bad. Very bad.
Okay, now that that's over with, I'm going to bed. See you all tomorrow. I'm tired, damn it.
Okay, now that that's over with, I'm going to bed. See you all tomorrow. I'm tired, damn it.
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