Life Lately
Man, have I ever been busy. And I'm not even going to try and act like I don't like it. :) List of good stuff going on right now:

• One of the 5 of 15 elected to be Members at Large for the upcoming school year.
  
• Co-captain of Field Hockey Team
  
• Co-editor of 2002 MVHS yearbook
  
• Nearly 3 months of bliss with boyfriend :)
  
• Loving all my classes so far this year!
  

I'm really happy with everything that's been going on lately, but once again I find that as soon as I get a boyfriend, I stop thinking. I stop writing, I stop wondering, I stop being able to create. Bleh. Oh well... All has been fine so far, and I hope this year proves to be among the best.
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 5:31 PM

Any great revelations?
Nope, none at all. :)

Except, why pay money for music when you can make your own, when you can seek out amateur artists in your home town, when you can enjoy true & pure music for free...I think I had the ultimate Canadian experience last weekend, I just wish I could have stayed longer (damn yearbook camp, damn it all to hell!). Just sitting there, in front of a house in the absolute middle of nowhere...a log house, to be more specific...Minus John was playing on the porch, sounding better than I've heard them in a while. Everyone around me had a beer in hand, there were girls visiting from BC, I got to see Josh for the 3rd time this summer (even though the bastard just lives up the street, grrrr!)...I mean it was just awesome.. sitting at a picnic table, 10 feet from the band, everyone around me buzzing (or solidly drunk)...I wish I hadn't had to leave.. there was a meteor shower that night, but I'm sure none of them noticed :P Anyway, that's been the coolest experience of mine in a while, oh wait and yearbook camp, which I'll talk more about later.
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 9:27 AM

it's been a looooooong time?
heeeelllooo everyone.. it has been ages.. i've probably suffered a severe drop in my readership (from 2 people to 0, lol).

so what HAVE i been up to lately? working, mostly. I haven't had much of a chance to use this machine cause I've been coming home quite exhausted at night, either ready for bed, or ready to call patrick THEN go to bed. I've been working on a play too, I might post it for feedback and stuff like that, but I'd sort of like to keep it under wraps until it's done. If you're interested in reading it, email me or something, leave a message in the guestbook (since no one does that anymore!)

I really do need to make some updates..it's really hard though, this computer has been going nuts. I lost everything, several times. dah well.. craziness will resurface on the site soon, i promise! :)
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 8:02 PM

artificial sentiments
saw artificial intelligence today...
....wow...

its made me even sadder and more death-oriented than i have been lately, i have a lot to say to all my friends now... love to everyone..
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 12:41 AM

Nerdilicious
Aaron, can you handle this? Matthew, can you handle this, Joeee, can you handle this? I don't think they can handle this! Barely move, I am drunk, lookin trashed, lookin high, im slick, slick alright, CFAN, jam tonight, Spotted me a geeky guy, there you are, come on baby, dont you want to, email me, can you email, email me!

You gotta type much better if you gonna email me tonight, you gotta work your fingers if you gonna email me tonight. Read my email, carefully, if you can read what i type, you can hang with me, by the looks i got you, confused of me, hookup your modem, its time for takeoff!

i dont think you ready for this email, i dont think you ready for this email, i dont think ready for this cause my email too nerdilicious for ya babe! (x2)

inbox, can you handle this? sever, can you handle this? hotmail, can you handle this? i don't think you can handle this! im about to turn you off, shut down, goin hard, press the button, with my finger, count to 3, unplug thee, lookin hot, smellin plastic, groovin like, you old skool computer, look over my shoulder, lick the monitor, can you email, email this?

i dont think you ready , for this email, i dont think you ready , for this email, i dont think you ready for this cause my email too nerdilicious for ya babe (x2)

move your mouse, up and down (whoo), make your mouse touch the ground (whoo), i can't help but wonder why (whoo), is my Vibe too Vibe-alicious for ya babe!

i shake my joystick at every chance, when i whip with my stick you slip into a trance, im hoping you can handle all these mad skills that i have, now lets play on battle.net while we get carpel tunnel syndrom!

la la laaaaaaaaaa la lalala laaaaaaa aaaaaiium

i dont think you ready , for this email, i dont think you ready , for this email, i dont think you ready for this cause my email too nerdilicious for ya babe (x5)

the fact that it's 4am explains a lot of that. my general retardedness explains the other 35%.
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 4:05 AM

[insert funny drunken french guy phrase here]
Some pretty cool stuff happened this weekend, and I'm thinking I'll have to list it in point form or else it'll be too long to post.

• Went to library / mall / Ritchie's Warf with Patrick
  
• Played geeky games such as Star Wars Trivial Pursuit, Scrabble, and Boggle with Patrick
  
• Golfed with father and grandfather, shot a 76 (...on 9 holes, ick)
  
• HUGE step forward made in uptightness of parents... get this... I was actually allowed to go camping overnight with the rest of the lifeguards, with my parents knowing that there wouldn't be supervision, and that there would probably be strangers and drinking.
  
• Hung out with really awesome people and did not sleep all last night, watched the sun rise with a beer in my hand, got drunk for free for the second time in a row!
  
• ...after staying up and doing that all night, am going in to work in 3 hours. WOOOO HOOOO!
  

Had some grrrrreeeat conversations with Sarah, and now I have a pleasant smell of burnt stuff and bug spray. Despite my tiredness, I'm stabbing stuff with a compass. Yes, I rule.
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 10:01 AM

GRRRRRRRRAAAAARGFH!
I had a huge rant written ... and then i went to click on the "floating on" ICQ thing to answer a message and i accidentally hit the "go" button on the browser, losing my fucking post. FUCK. On another note, I could so be Kate Hudson. Maybe half the time.
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 1:35 AM

Almost famous...
watched 3/4 of that tonight, I'll see the end eventually. I'm in no rush, I want it to sink in. There's a lot of good stuff in there, a lot of thought, retrospect, and introspect. I love how the guy sees Penny as some sort of higher-up person at first, someone above him, someone to admire.. and then seems to get over her, to see past and through her, and the whole picture. He recognizes the absurd excesses of the system and the anti-system, the fakeness and self-righteousness. It's awareness at its best. It freaks me out a little because it is so real.

I'm at this stage now where I don't want to start questioning things. I don't want to criticize my own choices, my priorities, or thoughts. I'm hitting something where I'd rather live, and just live, and not wonder, because it's easier. Craig and I played golf yesterday and coming down the 9th fairway, out of nowhere, we started talking about God and the afterlife. It makes me restless just remembering the conversation. Like fuck, think about it. Either we die and that's the end, and that sucks. It really does. This life, our memories, our experiences, are for nothing. Or, there's some eternal thing. And I'm not ready for that either. Never ending? Wouldn't you get bored? Like, it's.. just unfathomable. BOTH OPTIONS SUCK. I don't want to be perma-dead...but who wants to perma-live? MAn, who asked me if I wanted to be born? lol

anyway, I'm not sleeping tonight if I keep thinking about this. off to play sims...
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 12:09 AM

Sunday, July 08, 2001

one of THOSE weekends
...by which I mean, one of the really out of the ordinary ones... tkd camp!! :) odd and fun, scary at times, but something I'm glad I did. If you only do stuff you're good at... and things you know you can succeed at... you're not really helping yourself. So yeah, by screwing up a pretty simple form infront of many important people, I think I built SOME character or something. :P

I felt quite intimidated for a lot of the weekend, though most people would if they'd been doing something for 10 months and were all of a sudden in the company of people who've been practicing most of their lives, but especially in a sport as rank-oriented as tkd... it's fairly obvious (unless you're in a room full of colour blind people) where you belong...

There was only one yellow stripe there besides myself, and he was a dick. He was younger than me and he'd had his belt for a shorter period of time, yet he absolutely refused to be last in line. He cut in front of me every time we lined up for stuff, it was really frustrating. Some of the guys there seemed kinda odd... just like the 8-13 year-old set seemed very show-off-y, and that's something I really don't like. I'm discovering there's this whole political / social side to tkd that I really do not like, and I'm hoping I can just ignore it and yknow, stick with the pure stuff.

Most of the girls, especially the older women, seemed really nice however. Sensible and driven and hard working and all that. I feel really badly for not going running this morning, I'd actually like to see if I could keep up with Master Chung. Probably not, but that goes back to the whole challenge thing...

The best part of the weekend was definitely the company however. Glenn is hilarious, even when making fun of people...man I don't know where he gets some of the things he comes up with. And also, through observing the behaviour of other kids and stuff, I've come to realize that our class is a really good one. Yknow, you sort of assume, hey Miramichi, we must suck compared to Moncton...but man we were nice and obediant and hard working and all that, and I wasn't really impressed with the attitudes of some of the kids from other clubs. So I guess he's a pretty good instructor too. :P
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 3:58 PM

Summer laziness? Way to go me!
I have the dream job I think. At 4:30 pm today I was still sitting here in my PJs, and I just got up and decided to go to work. Looking pretty much exactly like in that early morning photo. Work was cold and windy tonight, but I really can't complain. What a job, jeez! MMMM pool.

Unfortunately it's a contributing factor to my laziness, 'cause I never have to work before 5 except on Saturday, so I have no reason to be up or anything. I have started developing some terrible habits. Oh well. Apathy abounds! Why shower when you're a lifeguard? lol... that's definitely something I should do tomorrow.

Tonight turned out to be really fun, one of those randomly-get-patrick-to-come-hangout deals, he and Sara and I drove around for a while and tried to find fun things to do, and found nothing really but the company was great. Then we dropped Sara off and continued on our merry way, went to Ritchie's Warf for a bit, wandered randomly, a great night. It'll be a while before I can sleep, with those thoughts in my head. GRRRR what a boy! man! whatever!

Anyway, nothing really exciting to report, except sleep sounds awfully good right now..
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 3:07 AM

revemalation?
So yeah, last night was good, just hanging with the nice friends..

I can't draw lately. That makes me very mad. I just can't draw. My hands don't even feel right. I can't hold stuff right. I can't express what I want. I can't even do dumb drawings. Where did it go? grr... that makes me mad.. I can't even manage to sustain a rant..so yeah, I'm off to work, and im starving..
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 4:09 PM

right now i could...
so easily slide between the sheets on my bed and let that worn mattress rise around me. and you know what? im goign to. gnight!
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 2:00 AM

Sadness
Sean is making me cry!! LOL stop it!! So I haven't seen that boy in a very long time, and he decides to send me super cute pictures of himself, just being himself.. sigh.. miss you ..
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 12:02 PM

Linkage
Well, I realized that my site has not exactly been interesting of late. No thrilling observations or witty ranticisms, so I'm going to encourage my faithful readers (Teri, Jenni, lol anyone else?) to cheat on me.

• Where's Willy. Ever wonder where your money goes? You spend a ten at the mall, and you never see it again...or do you? It may end up in your posession at some point, or it may end up in Vancouver. If you enter the year, serial number, and your postal code at this site, you can track where your money goes. It's a good idea to write "whereswilly.com" on your money so that the next person who get it will know to go there too.
  
• Adbusters.org. Speaking of writing on money, I write "adbusters.org" on all of mine. This site will encourage you to make up your OWN mind about advertising, and how to avoid commericialism. Very very cool place.
  
• Exploding Dog. SOOO FUCKING HILARIOUS. If you have an odd sense of humour, check this one out for sure. Hundreds of emotional stick figure drawings. Some of them aren't funny, but most of them are. This guy looks at things in an interesting way. For example, a drawing titled "I can finally reach my toes" doesnt feature (as you'd assume) someone bending over and touching their toes, but someone reaching up to a high shelf and touching a jar labled "toes". GENIUS! pure genius.
  

posted by Kathleen Gadd at 2:21 PM

good news aplenty
heyo, guess i should be updating, yeah, that's my role. :P

much craziosity in life lately, got my honours certificates a few days ago, tied for first out of 64 people in french, came first out of 23 in Computer Science, 2nd out of 21 for English, 9th out of 130 in math 12, and that's all that I know. :)

The Kinsmen pool has opened for the summer, I worked yesterday and it was really really fun. More on that later, cause the best news happens to be boyfriend related, as in I have one. YIPPEE! More will be revealed once I've informed my parents, cause there might be some issues there. anyway, im off to work, chance of real updates later :)
posted by Kathleen Gadd at 4:12 PM