"Is the guy with the funny hat your boyfriend?" George asked.

I giggle.

"Um...God I hate that word. But yeah, we're seeing each other. Agh, saying he's my boyfriend makes it too official," I say.

"aaahhh..I see, so lunchtime loving huh?"

"Ya know, that conference room is good for more than one thing," I say laughing, leaving George at the bottom of the stairs.
posted by C'est Moi at 9:57 PM

Yikes.

Life has been so crazy.

B and Tim did the whole, "We know you can do better..." speech, which is the worst thing I could hear. So I pretty much fucked up on the paper this week.

I'm just trying to get myself together.

I'm not right now.

However, Joe and I are doing really well... I think so anyway. Everyone on staff looks us a little wide-eyed, but it's fun... really fun.

"I'm infatuated by your moves." -badly drawn boy.

posted by C'est Moi at 12:41 PM

Life has been treating me really well...

and then today it just kicked me in the ass.

1) Got kinda pissed at anna for telling things to bud about joe and i that should have remained secret.

2) My dad decided to be somewhat of an asshole.

3) Tim got mad at me for not doing everything i COULD be doing. And I know i'm a dissapointment.

It all sounds so petty.. but...the Tim thing just really got me. Maybe i'm not supposed to write. Maybe this whole journalism thing just isn't for me. So that whole thought just threw me for a loop.

I just want to pull the covers over my head and hide right now.

I want to quit everything.

I want to just give up.

Game over.

Would you like to play again?
posted by C'est Moi at 6:35 PM

Got home at 8:30 a.m.

Dad was up making breakfast... "She decided to come home!!"

oi.

I think he was kinda irritated.. but didn't get mad or anything.

"what? did you fall asleep again?"

so I was honest... told him, "No. I purposely fell asleep. I knew exactly what I was doing."

He can't get mad if I'm honest.

He was more upset that I bought some stuff at Abercrombie.

I fell asleep at about 11. I guess Joe and his brother were playing computer games... i didn't even hear it.

I think at about 2 a.m. Joe got in bed with me.

I woke up at 7 a.m. Completely awake.

I was restless for a while. Hugged Joe a little bit. And finally pushed him outta bed to let me out.

Decided to come home...

I'll go over there again a little bit later.

Is it normal to want to spend so much time with someone?

Is it healthy??

I'm so afraid we're gonna get tired of each other.

I'm so scared.

Very scared.
posted by C'est Moi at 9:55 AM

Joe just farted in front of me..

he seems damn proud of it too.

mn hmn.

That's a turn on...

posted by C'est Moi at 8:50 PM

I love sleeping with Joe.

Love it.

I love waking up next to him.. feeling his skin against mine.

Running my hand along his cheek.

Kissing him.

His fingers touching my hair.

Whispering, "hi..."

Him whispering back, "hi sweetie.."

posted by C'est Moi at 3:21 AM

Joe and I had a great date.

We actually had dinner with my mom, which was pretty cool. That went over really well actually. So.. yay!

After we dropped mom off, we headed over to griffith park.. got lost in the hill... it was actually really really nice just to drive around with him. I really didn't have any other worries.

Every time my hand found his it was electric. It was wonderful.

We finally found our way to the observatory. We looked at Saturn and Jupiter through the telescope.. which was amazing. It made me feel SO small. But at the same time, I felt so high. Just being with Joe made me feel like I was up there in the stars. I cherished every moment our lips touched.

After we left, we drove around L.A. He showed me past residences. Which was kinda cool. We stopped by Grant's house, said our "hellos" saw his room and whatnot.. and left.

so here i am.

I'm completely happy.

Completely satisfied with choices i've made.

No regrets.
posted by C'est Moi at 2:04 AM