eh we had a movie party today! cooleyhighharmony! it was pretty fun considering no one barely came. ya see, christine called me up yesterday and we were supposed to go to the mall as a sort of girls-day-out-lets-forget-about-guys-in-ur-case-danny thing. well thats what she wanted. so then i wanted to invite melissa and she said yeah. but i wasnt about to spend the day alone with melissa while christine talked to nina or whoever ya kno, so then i tried calling janet or kathy but they bailed. so i called lai to invite her but she was gunna watch "GLADIATOR" with johnny @ this guy khanh's house. then she said we should watch a movie at my house. big screen. no one home. fun stuff. so i okayed it and here we are. me danny, lai johnny. ack. danny must think i set this up. haha. he probably thinks im still "inlove" with him. hahaha loser. well DANNY CALLED ME YESTERDAY! yehoooey! ehehhehe. at least hes not being assholey anymore. i called up melissa but she was sleepen. oops. so around 10:30 am i went out to am bought some chips and my slurpee, no1 was @ my house so i walked over to danny's. haha, he must think its an act of my love. haha please.. so then we called up lai to ask when she was coming over and her sister said she left like 2 minutes ago. and since we were on the questions, danny said to ask what she was wearing but i didnt hear it so i asked "is she a virgin?" and the girl was like WHAT? I DONT KNOW! and i hung up. hahaha. so me and danny walked to my house around 11:15 and then lai and johnny were already @ my door. we got in called up tri. no answer. melissa. no answer. lai said she saw white-sweatered-melissa walken to school and just vanish into thin air. ? oh well. so then we got in, made popcorn which did not pop much. we called up lai's house to talk to fai but lai's old 21 or so mean brother answered and went to get fai and while he was getting her i was saying "LAI'S GAY!" and lai tackled me and choked me. hahah. rapist. we watched "Hollow Man" lotsa nakeyness. hah. johnny brought food. sweet. so i called up melissa and she told lai she was babysitting sick martin so she cant come. bummer. johnny lai and me sat on the far couch eaten and chillen while danny sat on the recliner doen nothing haha. johnny likes angel. lai hates doggies. i called up melissa again while i was getting popcorn she said me and danny should do stuff. ew eck no! haha.. so danny left at 1 oclock and lai and johnny and me finished the movie. dopeness. it was 1:30 and lai had to leave @ 2 so then i let em watch my home movies. i let em see part of it b4 the movie. so danny could see jimi and them. yeah and lai and johnny and me watched the "Who's Line is it Anyway?" portion of the "JERMAE, KAYE AND RYZZA SHOW" wow how dorky. then johnny kept jumping on lai and i said no sex in my house. so then they start wrestling. more like romping. ew dry sex in my house. so i call melissa and told johnny to mess with her and he was like "hey melissa, are u scared?" hahaha weirdo. i meant for him to flirt ya kno. so then me and melissa talked in my brother's room while lai and johnny wrestle. i went to check on em and heard humping and moany noises. but i knew lai was fakin. ewwww. deja vu. vincent and ngoc in my bed. bleck! so anyway they play hooky in my house and i hide their shoes. haha. 2 oclock and they looked for shoes & phone. then they left. had to tape "GLADIATOR" for em. lai called while melissa was still talken to me. but i hung up on lai. talked to melissa a lot more. she sent me some weird thing online. it was this prog where it makes this one uglee chick pop up on yer screen and scream. i was waitin, nothin happend so i left the phone by the comp and went potty and heard some weird sneeze sound ran to my comp and nothin there. i waited more and the ugly bitch scared me haha. jayvee came home, told him to go online and check neopets. he got scared too. so melissa had to click over and leave. aww. so i called up lai and talked to her more. lai is my new buddy now. yeah. shes like my best girl bud in yb. i denoo why but yeah. so we talk. about everything. she asks hecka questions. oooh lordy. at around 5:30 her and fai come. fai is scared of my dogs too. they chill in my dirty room. and get the tapes and i kick em out. so here we are, night time. i was talken to melissa when i started writing this and now she gone. i was acting stupid. asking a question that wasnt meant to be asked. its the one i was writing about a few days ago. but then it came out so totally wrong. anyway, here:pinay f l a m e (8:45:56 PM): hey melissa
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:45:58 PM): hjey
pinay f l a m e (8:47:32 PM): hey r u like alone?
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:47:57 PM): yeah why
pinay f l a m e (8:48:26 PM): hm
pinay f l a m e (8:49:22 PM): well ok ill ask u something
pinay f l a m e (8:49:27 PM): like hypothetically
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:49:54 PM): ok
pinay f l a m e (8:50:10 PM): its really stupid but....
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:50:20 PM): ????
pinay f l a m e (8:51:58 PM): ok u kno how u said the stuff u said like about that *stuff*.. well i was thinkin ya kno (hypothetically) if i was too say hm fall again then ur saying it would be ok?
pinay f l a m e (8:52:03 PM): ack that didnt make sense
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:52:18 PM): fall for me
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:52:32 PM): it'd be ok... but dont expect anything.. i mean we're friends.
pinay f l a m e (8:52:48 PM): so say i never fell out
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:52:55 PM): oh really...
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:53:05 PM): then you jess never fell out
pinay f l a m e (8:53:12 PM): ack i dont think im makin sense
pinay f l a m e (8:53:14 PM): haha
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:53:23 PM): i understand you
pinay f l a m e (8:53:37 PM): shit
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:53:52 PM): ?
mee MIGHTY mouse signed off at 9:13:39 PM.yeah, i wasnt being hypothetical. i never fell out. i just shoved it into a corner of my heart, way in there, where no one could ever find it. and now she told me all this shit and i just wanted to know if it was ok. but no. that corner of my heart just ripped my whole heart apart. again. we're friends. i guess im still not allowed to be inlove with her, am i?
....
luv sucks pwet. big time.
always
karebear
posted by xxxkayeiskoolxxx 9:36 PM
HAPPY NEW YEARS FOLKS!
wooohooo! we didnt die! yehooey! k, so we had dat annual bringing in the new year party last nite (sat. 12/31/00) at marielle's. they came back from maryland the night before. anyway, the party was coo. i thought there'd be dancing but there wasnt. ryz was hating on marielle but i dint want it to be like that so i went up to her room and dragged her downstairs. my rival came. marissa, jimi's best bud. jeez. ryzza kept trying to have me start shit with her but i didnt wanna, coz i mean, its jimi's friend, so i gotta respect that. and it wasnt like she was flirting with ER. at about 9 or so, mae and i went to her cousin's house. her cousins jammie, richard and jc were there. jc tried to play that whole mack on me and i was acting kinda shy. jammie and mae kept buggin us anyway. we exchanged digits and screen names but that about it. he's okay. trying to act black haha. anywho we went back to the house (jc, jammie, and richard came too) and ryz was like alone outside. i thought she'd be upstairs playing with marielle but she said she got dissed by all of them, including jimi. i guess she was kinda mad but she got over it. yeah so jimi came down coz erin called so we all chilled outside. jc was kinda shy or something and jammie, mae and me were hating on jimi, er, ryz, and rheeza (marissa). mostly rheeza. haha, jammie did a way cool impression of her. dat was mean tho. but HAHA. anywho i was wearing jc's hat and jimi asked if that meant *anything* and i said iono. so her and er were like by the counter and i had a feeling they were talking about me. so we went back to drop off jc and them ya kno. he gave me the biggest hugs. hehehe. he kissed me on the cheek too. awww. yeah then me ryz and mae got back to marielle's and i didnt wanna talk to jimi so i just went up and watched TV with marielle in tita ellen's room. marielle was like "hey kaye, wheres your boyfriend?" arrgh. then the whole gang came up to find me. jimi was like really sorry and i told her "jeez, i know all this" i guess that was kinda rude. ha. but i didnt really forgive. i dunno. it just hurt that jimi would talk about me. i mean, out of all people, jimi. anyway she gave me a hug and forced er to hug me too. heehee. aw, so sweet. we went down to countdown to midnight. yehooo! we didnt die! we were all jumpy and hugged and kissed everyone. i hugged er! caught it on camera too. after, we all went upstairs and screamed "HAPPY NEW YEARS" to the neighbors. lol we're crazy. then they danced in the rooms and we went downstairs to chill and stuff with jimi before she leaves. she wanted to share scary ghost stories! AHH! jeez. i hate that. they scared the hell outta me the last time when they said tita neri said theres a ghost in my house!! sheesh. well we went upstairs to watch some mystery show. creepy. spontaneous human combustion. whoa. thats a perdy scary thing. and the whole seeing ghosts thing. sheesh. well then we hadta leave and i said bye to jimi and ryz. yehoo ryz is coming down on my bday. jimi promised she'd call IF EVA. ay......today:
this morning at 8:45 or so i called up jimi to wish her a safe trip to the philippines. she said early happy bday. SWEET 16! and i told her she better NOT call me on prom night. lol. feb 10. lol.
sheesh, im gunna miss jimi.we went to eat at pho then tita vick's. snoozer day.
8:22:33 pm.
im talkin to melissa online right now. dunno what to say, anywho, she called me up awhile ago. to talk about stuff. she said shes bi. like she just realized it. i didnt really believe her at first coz of the whole hating in 8th. but then she like explained it and stuff how this girl she hung with in summer made it all clear for her. and how they like kissed and stuff. well, i deno if i was jealous or not, but man... i just was hurt. i mean, i couldnt make it clear for her. in 8th. i deno. well, i denno what she expected from me by telling me, even she said she deno. its all just really confusing. well thats melissa for ya. really confusing. well i deno if i still have feelings for her coz i mean that was a really long time ago and ive like really tried to shut that whole situation out of my life and now all of a sudden i feel like she just told me that im allowed to be inlove with her. so iono. i dont think what she told me really sunk in yet. its like a blur. she said she appreciated everything i did. yea right ya kno. she coulda said so back then, i mean coz wen i did all that shit, she made me feel like shit coz i didnt know what the fuck she wanted from me. i deno. i have mixed feelings right now.mee MIGHTY mouse (8:22:33 PM): did u scope out that website??/
pinay f l a m e (8:22:46 PM): no
pinay f l a m e (8:22:56 PM): im typing in my diary
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:23:01 PM): ohh coolios
pinay f l a m e (8:23:07 PM): u dint give me the link?
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:23:19 PM): www.butimacheerleader.com
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:23:33 PM): i feel soo happy ow
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:23:33 PM): now
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:23:57 PM): like... i dont have worries
pinay f l a m e (8:24:22 PM): coz u told me?
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:24:28 PM): not only that
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:24:42 PM): coz im accepting it and stuff..
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:24:46 PM): i dono...
pinay f l a m e (8:24:58 PM): yea thats cool
mee MIGHTY mouse (8:25:07 PM): i jess feel good rite now.. and also prolly cause im listenin to a really cool song
mee MIGHTY mouse signed off at 8:34:45 PM.im happy for her though. im glad she knows what she wants now. at least she's not confused about it. i hope she isnt. well im glad she told me too, really i am. bad timing though. i mean, me liking danny, hooking up with jc, and now this. sheesh. now im confused.
first thing i thought about was telling danny about this coz i mean he should know. but then i thought about it and was like why the fuck should he know. like he would give a damn. i can keep a secret. besides i gotta stop telling him shit. hes not worth it. not anymore.
the next thing i thought about was telling jimi. without all the bullshit behind it. not telling jimi about melissa. but telling her about me. there was lots of times when i told jimi i used to like this girl but then quickly played it off as a joke but i think i really should tell her. even though i know she kinda hates that kinda stuff coz of the girls in the philippines but for some reason i know she'd understand because of just that. i just dont want her to feel weird around me. yeah, i should tell her that i was inlove with melissa.
but im thinking though, am i still?
posted by xxxkayeiskoolxxx 9:11 PM
NEW YEARS EVE! party tonight! and i feel like hell...*its the end of the world as we know it...*
jeez, i hope the world wont end at midnight.. im too young to die! i still havent accomplished much shit in my life anyway! ay nako...anywho, on fri. 12/29/00, i slept over at maemae's house. (the resting house) WHOS LINE IS IT ANYWAY!? thats hecka coooliosisis! gotta try all that.. and the next morning (sat. 12/30/00) jimi and ryz came over and we went to the mall. bought danny's gift. holla'd at some flips. at night, freaky jimi went crazy strip club style.. talked about LALA's weenie.. heeeheee.. jimi's crazy.
LALA=ER=my lover lol. *ryzza's scream* lol.
okay, today! called tri this morning, called danny, and christine. tri's crazy. horny for britney! eck! justin stealer! danny's gross. i guess he's really sick. i was supposed to tell him that "if the world ended tonight, i still love you" but i couldnt cause he like spoiled the frikkin mood. coughing and dying in my ear... i think he lied about having to get off the phone just so he wouldnt hafta talk to me anymore! sniff. meanie. christine is my shrink. cool! all we do is talk about boys. this time, in particular: danny and thang. i really should get over danny! i love LALA! wooohoooo! yeah.. christine said danny isnt worth all my tears anyway. i guess ill believe her for now. anyway, i gotta get ready with my shot gun and stay outside thang's house to scream at that FOOL to talk to christine.. muahahah. christine's nice. she said she wont let me be psychotic, a slut, a lez, or a druggie. thats the nicest thing anyones ever said to me.
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS
1. GET OVER DANNY
2. EXERCISE BABY!
3. DANCE! DANCE! DANCE! or try to..
4. BE NICER TO THE PARENTS
5. QUIT OVERTHINKING SHIT
6. STUDY! STRAIGHT A'S!!!
7. FORGET ABOUT GUYS!
8. MAKE NEW *FRIENDS*
9. GO TO A RAVE OR H.S. DANCE and have fun there for once
10. TRY TO BE FRIENDS WITH DANNY wooo toughie.GOTTA GO! gotta rape LALA and kiss him.. muahahaha!
posted by xxxkayeiskoolxxx 3:57 PM
we just got home from REN-O! yehooey! that was fun! k i dun exactly remember everything in order but this is wat happened:
wed. 12/27/00
6:00 am :: went to tita vicky's and picked them up
6:something :: went to jimi's and picked them up
7:00 or so :: ROAD TRIP! i went with jimi in their van, ryzza and ron were there too
we ate at mickey d's. hash brown=yucky and ryzza stole mines
1 or 2 or something pm:: got to circus circus (room 709, 711), went down and played in the arcade/circus/carnival area. well i really wanted to meet all the asian dudes and make new friends, ya kno to get over danny. but no, jimi and ryz were ShY! we saw this dude with a spikes and a lil tail in the back, perdy cute! TAILS! anyway, he kept staring at us.
5-6:: ate lunch/dinner at the hotel buffet. can u say eckk? anywho, jimi's buddy mark came. pretty cute. NICE HAIR! hehe. work it ryzza.
the rest of the night:: we hung out at the midway---HALFWAY!---saw the BonJumpy act at 6:15. snoozer. we hung with mark at the arcade and guess what? he's friends with Tails! only jimi got introduced so i dun think he knows me and ryz' names. ha! so, his name is gordon. kinda reminds me of LALA! he had the cutest teeth. not perfect but really cute. his smile was fine! so we kept walking around being really bored. and i dared jimi to make "FRIENDS" so we found this one viet dude and jimi pointed to one of his stuffed animals and asked where he got it, and he actually gave it to her! hehe. cute! i asked him his name and it was tuan, the other dude he was with was shy i guess coz we didnt get his name. so we went back in the arcade inside out lil video game booth and there was this dude behind us playing on the skateboard game. i was really bored but hyped so i went up to him and was like "hey my friends wanted to know ur name, theyre really shy!....." haha, his name was daniel. another LALA! with glasses and more clean cut, kinda like johnny. anyway, hes 15 and, being the slut that i am, i asked for his room number so we could call him and he didnt wanna give it! haha, shy. so i told him to call 709 and he said maybe. jeez man, catch a girl while shes throwing herself at ya! after all that, we ran around and played more games, ryzza got hecka mecka junk. so we left for the room around dinnertime and went back to the arcade then went back to the room. get that? yep, my mom got mad, as usual. she musta been a drill seargant. so i dressed up for bed after dinner ya kno and then ryzza wanted to go out again so we left the room again and walked endlessly through the midway until our legs and feet hurt. we waved at so many dudes. so desperate. i had 5 buckaroos to spend on getting my damn nsync poster from that shooting cork game! yehooey! so we asked gordon and mark to play for me and win me the poster but we all sicked duck. so anyway, i guess gordon felt bad and said "whos money was that anyway?" and it was mines and he gave me his orange dog (which was actually a lion) stuffed animal and we were all like "AWWWWWWWWWWWWW" haha. i named it gordy. there was a group of korean/viet dudes and another asian crew that we always saw and stalked and jimi waved at em and they saw me take paparazzi picz of em. lol. were lunatics! we saw another LALA hangin on the next floor balcony thing and i waved. how stupid. we saw this one guy who looked like boggers and we stalked him. i ran up to him screaming "KARLOS!!!" and looked at him with a weird hey-youre-not-karlos-are-you? kinda look and ran away. i was playing at this car game outside the downstairs arcade and trying to move it back and forth like ryz, but mines wouldnt move so i was making noises and trying to moved and doing weird movements. well i turned and saw this guy staring at me with a weird what-the-hell-are-you-doing? look and i notced that i looked like i was jacking off. LOL. we waited for mark, who was hangin with gordon and this girl (our guess was his girl), at the arcade and went with him to his room on floor 21 so his daddy wouldnt get mad at him for bein late. then his mom let him stay out somemore so he came back with us to jimis room and then ryzza said she wanted to go out AGAIN! crazy.. i didnt want to; i was tired, thirsty and sleepy. but yea theyre my buds so i HAD to go unless i would be stuck with the kiddies. so we went out on another long-ass-walk-around-midway-with-no-money trip. we went down and saw gordon and the chick on the escalator. he hadta leavet coz he had to sleep so we hung out with mark's girl daisy and him. i forgot her whole name. pretty long. we went on the shuttle. snoozer! it just goes around to the other side of the building. we waited for the next shuttle to go back and we almost ditched mark coz he went on the elevator down. bluffer. the view sucked tho. guess what we did next?? hah! we hung out at the arcade/circus/carnival area and met mark's sperm-eyebrow-wanna-be-a-baller-slutty-maarte-kinda-chick friend, michelle. she was kinda like LALA's sister's buddies. trying to cop game that she didnt have. anyway, she was really nice too, kinda nosy. "Hi whats your name?" "What do u do for fun" sorta questions. she left and so did daisy. we had to leave too coz tito jojo called us. we got back to the room around 1:30 am. werent sleepy so i bought a MUG and we all sat on the floor next to the bathroom and talked. we toasted to our new FRIENDS and had a tea party with our stuffed animals, gordy (my lion/dog), marky (the football mark gave to jimi), and tuan (jimi's blue doggy that she got from tuan). o yeah and ryzza's wanna-be-mark lion. she tried stealing gordy from me. sheesh, homewrecker. jimi bought a mountain dew and me and her drank that. nothing to toast haha, we suck. we went to sleep around 3 or so.
thurs. 12/28/00
i woke up to the moms talking about us. justine told about how we met boys. and my mom pointed out the fact we slept with out stuffed animals from our guys. she said ryzza's was probably named after karlos and that whenever she says his name she sings. heehee. lol. work it ryz. anyway, we left to go to midway. how fun! i had to babysit. gordon was there too. i screamed his name and we said hi. damn his smile is fine! lol. we saw marky walking and jimi said jamie was my daughter haha. mark looked confused. mark got lost and with the help of whitey worker we found him and jimi was like "eh, if u want us to wait for you......" and his daddy was there heehee. he hadta go and eat breakfast. we went back up and dropped off justine and jamie then went back down and hung with marky. we hung out while ryz bought candy and spent all her money on stupid stuffed toys. saw more guys. got more desperate. saw Tails and wanted to take a pic but the babies called us up. sheesh, no kodakan. we left reno. we didnt wanna leave. so much guys, so little time. we left and ate at chin-eh-seh. my mom gets mad at me a lot. jayvee is crazy. my family is weird. we left reno and i missed taking a cam of that stupid reno sign sheesh. anyway, we left around 1 or so and fell asleep in the car. saw snow, woke up and went *SNOWING*! we played at the BOREAL Auburn Snow Park. actually we didnt play in the park. were so cheap. we played outside it in a lil dirty snow ditch. that was fun we had a sled and went down our small ditch. ryz and i tried to make snow angels but the snow was hard. we tried making a snowman but the snow was sucky. we looked at the snowpark and saw a girl who stood and looked like jimi from the back. funny. we went back to our ditch and ganged up against jayvee with snow balls. went to the van and ate salami sandwiches while the titas peed in the van behind us. eck. road trip home! fell asleep in the car. they exchanged me at mickey d's around 6 or so and THATS ALL FOLKS!
posted by xxxkayeiskoolxxx 11:58 PM