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Tuesday, September 04, 2001

i want to think, i can think...but nothing..no creativity nothing

i have to let it flow free and then i will beable to come up with something
im trying to make a site for my art and maybe perhaps sells prints
somethign origanal like only one print per graphicso there isnt more than one out there unless i make it out there

i can do this ! I CAN MAKE THIS SITE KICK ASS
well..maybe i can =\
preston 12:55 PM

Sunday, August 05, 2001

"les armys prospèrent"
"infuse life"
"rock on milk man"
"fill time"
preston 11:55 PM

i must be the most laziest bastard ever, i work on my computer all day long and make more money than my friends working 8 hours a day....maybe im just paraoid but i think they're pissed at me for it... o well fuck them i waited for a chance like this for a long time so im gonna rub it into there faggot ass faces till they barf
preston 11:52 PM

Wednesday, August 01, 2001

preston 5:21 PM

somedays are so just:

blank, blank, blank, and more blank

I want to think but i cant and there for my freelance work is not going to get done[yet again]
i need to snap into gear and fucking do this, I CAN DO THIS
preston 1:51 PM

Wednesday, July 25, 2001

carry on

i told you to realize
preston 1:42 PM

Tuesday, July 24, 2001

sometimes:

I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
I just hate myself.
preston 4:21 PM

Thursday, July 19, 2001

i get my money today i get my money today !!!!
first im going to get my hair cut, then to the casino or somewhere to buy a webcam

today is going to kick so fucking much ass i have 2000 dollars to waste !!
preston 11:51 AM

anastomosis
preston 11:50 AM

I get my 2100 for the freelance work I did for a friend today, YIPPE FUCKING YAY. 2grand for bullshit super easy 2 days work, man I love myself right now.
preston 4:27 AM

Monday, July 16, 2001

over grown
preston 12:19 AM

Sunday, July 15, 2001

Just another shitty day on another shitty night.
Nothing ever makes sense to me, I can be told i'm liked as in relationship liked, and told I have a crush on me. Why am I single then ?

Girls are headcases so all of you can burn in hell when I have a girl for the rest of my life.
preston 10:43 PM

I'm 36% gay, i'de just like to take the time to rub it into evberbodys face that thinks I dig guys, when i don't. Link from Bob and Jess. Thankyou, you two for giving me something to do late nights, and for proving to me there is love in the world. -flutters around

thespark.com
preston 2:21 AM

Saturday, July 14, 2001

big broken machine
preston 11:40 PM

i think its fixed, and everything seems ok
preston 11:36 PM

sometimes it's just so hard not to be happy and smile over a girl

nicole= a million ;]'s
preston 2:39 AM

Friday, July 13, 2001

I [again repeat again]

Somedays everything is no better than the last, when everything repeats. My life seems to go nothing but downhill, nothing much can make me smile anymore. I can't even feel half the time, just sitting staring blankly into a tv whatching cable. It's so beautiful.
preston 2:04 PM

Thursday, July 12, 2001

sometimes i enjoy my life and see what i've done and redone and done over again, and be happy and proud that i have become someone in someplace somewhere by myself without the help of a models picture or a pretty face i got off the street. then i feel like shit and dont feel a need to live for any known reason, maybe i have chronic depression or something. dont know...why care anyways being a nobody but a somebody sucks fucking shit i dont even know what to think anymore, i try to work and make a living but i feel so down and used for being like everbody else, but the world does turn another day and so on so on

maybe i should just get a job
maybe i should just die
maybe i just feel sorry for myself
preston 2:04 AM

Wednesday, July 11, 2001

maybe im more fucked up than i thought.

am i that fucked, everythng is high high high high =[
preston 2:13 PM

Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

link from: jess
preston 2:12 PM

i got bored made up something simple, now soon i want to get some pedro the lion playing in flash5, and be able to let you choose differant songs...but im way lazy so that'll have to wait
preston 3:47 AM

Monday, July 02, 2001

well im tired as fuck and i hate little punk faggot skaters, they are nothing more than worthless cuntsores who have no respect for anyone else besides there selves and some girl they want to fuck
preston 3:05 AM

Monday, May 28, 2001

Jess said im gay, and that she kind of misses me. =]
preston 1:40 AM

Saturday, May 26, 2001

time

i have alot of time so i like to talk through beauty
preston 4:27 AM

another you

all art work done bye me
preston 4:26 AM

Friday, May 25, 2001

im bored in life
i like ppl
to bad it never works

dead life
preston 3:38 AM

Thursday, March 08, 2001

todays a very slow and bad day
today everythng is pointless
today YOUR FUCKING POINTLESS
in a society of everyone wanting to be differant we are only drones
drones of a market of humans made of flesh and bones
we will all walk together
think together
be together and die together
our live basis is on eachothers
we revolve around me and you
we are drones
whatch me yell
we are drones
whatch me die
preston 4:19 PM

Friday, February 23, 2001

people are so easy to piss off that i get hate emails explaining there selves -shrug-
it cracks me up so bad
preston 4:15 PM

Thursday, February 22, 2001

if i cant be sarcastic...why live
preston 2:57 AM

Wednesday, February 21, 2001

i think ive come to a end
i hate "artists" that rely on right cliing a image and using it in some "art"

[and notice artist and art in quotes]

i think ill complete one more image this week depecting my start to my end...i dont want to post any more...maybe its just ignorance talking but im sick of it...they cant be creative they cant do anything they add some blunt objects that dont even go with the image itself and call it "art" im sick of it and ive stuck with it for to long....its time fror my end from my community i once posted all my thoughts and hard work at

i dont want to sound like a asshole...but.....who and what are you if you rely on images of models and so on to complete your image
it shows no creativitie and they cant seem to move on...its always the same..same objects exactly the same shit with filters..its nothing is what it is..i mean its alot differant if its a personal picture or a picture YOU took yourself but relying on some model for your main image is getting pathetic..no one posts art in the 2d anymore its all shit with faces all blank souls all blank thoughts ALL BLANK PEOPLE
preston 11:53 PM

yoursofuckinguniform
preston 8:28 PM

im tired and feel worn out....

i think im depressed ....
i think im gonna go make some food go sit on my chair and whatch cartoons

jen doesnt make me feel good anymore
i hate to say that and feel it but its true
shes never around for me anymore...its hard to care when you dont see them

its like caring for jesus...why do people care for something they dont see
preston 3:06 PM

sitting here
thinking bout my spacegirl
i never see her..and when i do she seems distant...maybe its time to pack it up and be alone again
no matter how much i care for her i dont think she believes me...maybe its just not worth it anymore
maybe its time to go back to bed and shutmy eyes for months and months until i feel ok again
preston 2:53 PM

garbage
preston 2:48 PM

sitting in the dark
staring at my computer screen

i have to make a call tonight
but im thinking about some stuff
i think its time for me to do my portfolio site in flash5
i know ifi can pull it off im guranteed work...well i think i am guranteed work
lets just hope i am
preston 2:00 AM