9.6.2001
even after having a bad day go on, and progressively get worse, she's there. she's there for me. in person i wish... but she's there on the phone with me, making things better. making everything better. i don't know how she does it. so wonderful, the girl. so very beautiful and loving and caring.
11:42 PM | Alex Venlei
woohoo. IE 6. woohoo. i have money. woohoo. i owe money. woohoo notwithstanding.
side note: what did i do to deserve this girl? God bless starbucks.
10:30 AM | Alex Venlei
8.29.2001
i want a body kit for my camry, also need to get a custom job on my stereo too amongst other little looks modifications. yeah. party party. i'm glad i don't have a honda. i'd like to smoke them all though... maybe a turbocharger? yeah, i'll drop two grand + in that. no problem.
thought pattern change: i hope i see cat. later tonight. i've been in a good mood all day and i'm kinda lookin' forward to something like that. always do.
current song: Blur - Song 2
woo0ohoo!
4:08 PM | Alex Venlei
8.26.2001
it's not fair.
2:12 AM | Alex Venlei
it's hard getting used to a new schedule. if it were only school i would have no problem but yet my girlfriends also is changed. it's hard not to see each other as much. i'm quite moody all the time, no matter the circumstances. a little edgy, paranoid. i dislike being this way. i tend to become short and frustrated with a lot of people, especially those dearest to me whom i care for so much. namely cat. i feel so awful about it. also don't know what to do. ever have the feeling that you can't control thoughts, emotions, feelings, ... i can't possibly be the only one out of control here. heh. heh. sigh.
12:32 AM | Alex Venlei
8.20.2001
oh yeah, my literature teacher seems to be some type of commie bastard dictator, with emphasis on "dick" ...
10:38 PM | Alex Venlei
first day in comp. prog. I. pretty interesting little teacher guy. made peanut butter and jelly sandwiches ( or at least tried to ). i still have issues with the financial aid section of the school, of which i can't seem to get the government and SPSU to coincide. why does this not surprise me?
i came home after classes and found my house empty. devoid of all persons. i thought to myself that it would be a terrific nap-time with no interruptions before i went to work at six. but no, my mother arrived home five minutes after i had gotten there. i hated it. i've had a nice quiet house for eighteen years until my mother stopped working and now she's here all the time. i need my quiet clear time or i get angrified, y'know? i avoided everything and took a nap anyways. felt knocked out ever since.
waiting for catherine to click me off "hold" ...
9:55 PM | Alex Venlei
8.19.2001
there's a wild duck in my pants!!! swan! whatever!
7:53 PM | Alex Venlei
8.15.2001
somehow, everything is better when catherine smacks me around a bit to get my senses back. sigh. she's really great, ya know? aahh, the pinnacle of light in a multitude of negativity.
7:42 PM | Alex Venlei
heh. hehehe. heh. hehe Bwhuahahahahaha!!!
7:15 PM | Alex Venlei
hello? you? you there? i'm sorry, but i hate your rules. they don't coincide with what i so longingly desire, damnit. so, if you would please, please stop now. life is interefering with my little world again and i don't particularly enjoy that. my courses suck, their times suck, my entire schedule blows, work can kiss my ass for all i care, and i'm lonely. just go away and leave me the fuck alone, a'ight?
( this has been an outburst of anger supplied to you directly from Mr. Alexandre Venlei. no, he doesn't care about your feedback. no, he doesn't care if you are ever offended. yes, you should drop everything you're doing in order to make him happy. yes, you should wait on him hand and foot. this is what he wants. this is what you shall do. )
7:14 PM | Alex Venlei
school started back this past monday as i'm sure everyone is aware of. i'm glad that doesn't directly affect me. ( haha. suckers. ) but then again my girlfriends time is selfishly taken by the school system which leaves me with drastic changes in my lifestyle. i.e. being at home in the evenings, feeling a lonely feeling most of the time, mild depression... well, another school year. terrific. i start back at SPSU thursday with some major boring classes i assume. we shall see. i'm just going to go ahead and retire to my quarters for the evening. good luck, and goodnight.
12:10 AM | Alex Venlei
8.12.2001
is there really a difference between "raspberry" and "maroon" ???
8:31 PM | Alex Venlei
7.31.2001
as good as it may have seemed, i had a really crappy day yesterday. and now i can't change things around. < insert expletive remark of choice here > things just make me feel inadequate i suppose would be the appropriate word. inadequate. maybe not totally crappy per se, but maybe it felt like it. maybe.
1:07 AM | Alex Venlei