Monday, September 17, 2001

I woke up really early today for some unknown reason. Okay, it wasn't THAT early, but like there was no reason for it.

Yesterday was completely uneventful. We all had serious headache action going on, so we were all quiet like all day long. BestFriendBoy came over at like 9pm and then we had the girls from down the hall come over and we all sat around being stupid for a couple of hours. For some reason we were talking about hats, and I said, "I have a princess hat!" And nobody believed me so I broke it out and they were all like, "Why the FUCK do you have that?" Haha. I rule. But yeah, that was the extent of our fun last night.

I have class at 1pm today. It's a three hour long class and then I get an hour break and have yet another three hour long class. Oh boy! My roommate actually signed into my first class though, so hopefully that should make it more entertaining. It's some Philosophy class and it's pretty interesting and there is no homework and no tests..but my professor just basically lectures for all three hours. He made fun of some girl who was trying to be *DEEP* though the last time we had class, so maybe once he gets to know us all better, the class won't be quite so drab.

The second class I have is English Lit. We're reading Chaucer at the moment. There is a girl who lives in my building in that class, and she's pretty cool. THAT professor is FUCKED UP though. He made us all go around and introduce ourselves and say where we're from and I did and he was like, "I Didn't know they did THAT in [insert state name here]." All I said was that I liked to watch television! Yeah, okay.

Tonight..what are we doing tonight? Um. Homework, probably. I'm trying to rest my head up because this weekend is my BIRTHDAY and I can gaurantee I am going to be fucked up for most of it. It's kinda cool that my 21st birthday falls on a Saturday. Yay.

Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I don't really have anything else to type right now as nothing exciting is happening and I hafta get my ass in gear but my ass just doesn't want to move.

Oh yeah. I have a job now. A workstudy job. It's in The Women's Center and I work 9 hours a week. I've only done it once so far and I really don't like it. Two of my roommates are also supposed to be doing workstudy, but one of 'em got permission from her mommy to quit, and the other just hasn't really even tried to get one. I just don't want to work! But oh well. It's 9 hours a week, like that's really going to kill me.

K, well. I am gonna go brush my teeth again and put on shoes and socks and then sit in the living room and read a magazine and then go to class for six f'ing hours. Okay, bye!!!
posted by s 9:10 AM

Sunday, September 16, 2001

So last night we had our party. There was plenty of fun.

There's this boy..he's friends with one of my roommates. Last night was his second time at our apartment. Anyhow, I really like him. I told my roommates about liking him, and the one who is friends with him got all sorts of excited. I don't know. I'm not really all that lonely here. It's really amazing. I mean, obviously, I am always surrounded by people. Usually, I feel lonely though. Not now. Of course I still get lonely, but it's not as bad as it was. I don't know.

I woke up at around 11 this morning and one of my roommates made me eggs and an english muffin. She set off the smoke detector, it was funny. But, we were all really hungover and what not, so we just basically sat around for a couple of hours. The hempfest was today. The hempfest being a festival to legalize marijuana with lots of pot smoking going on and all that wonderful stuff. It is really close to where we live, so we basically didn't need to make PLANS for the whole thing. The girl who shares a room with me...she has a best friend who is a guy who lives in Boston, too. So anyhow, he is always over here and we all really like him. So he came over while we were all still lazying around and blahblahblah.

We then went to a late lunch at this "Mexican" restaurant. It was alright. Then we went to the Commons for The Hempfest. It wasn't all that eventful because we ended up getting there really late. But it was still cool. Um. Came back upstairs and sat around for a bit. Did our usual thing, blah blah blah. I think the boy who is best friends with my roommate and I are becoming really good friends! Okay. Roommate who burns stuff, she went home for tonight because she has a wake to attend tomorrow. Roommate who is beautiful but anal, she went to another school tonight with her boyfriend and is spending the night. Roommate who shares a room with me, she went to a concert with some friends from home who are not her best friend. Anyhow, that just left me and best friend boy and the two girls down the hall. We were all pretty burnt out, so we decided to see The Others at 9:05pm. It was 7pm by then, so the two girls went back to their place and the boy and I took a walk. We wanted to see if the Fest was still going on, so we took a walk through the Park. It was almost dark and nobody was really there anymore, so we just walked through it. We decided to just keep on walking and we ended up going towards the outskirts of Boston for some Coffee. It was nice. I really like him a lot. I would have to say that he's the roommate I like the most (hehe).

So, we came home and then went to the movies with the two girls down the hall. The movie was pretty freaky, and then we walked home. We were a little bit freaked out, so we came up to my place and watched Big Daddy to make us not so freaked out anymore. Um. My roommate came home and the movie went off and everyone went back to their places. Including bestfriend.

And my roommate and I just bonded over Ani DiFranco and Marijuana. We tend to have really good discussions at night, she and I do.

Anyhow, it's 3am now. Time for bed..I think laundry and homework are what's in store for tomorrow.
posted by s 12:00 AM

Friday, September 14, 2001

I am so fucked up.

I also think I fell in love tonight. But shh, don't tell.
posted by s 11:37 PM

Here I am!!!!

So, it's been a couple of weeks. I am all moved in and have three great roommates. The girl in my room is very nice. The other two also kick mucho ass. We were supposed to have a fifth, but she has yet to show up, so we just made her bed to pretend she's here so we don't actually get her! However, our apartment seems to be haunted, so we figure maybe she is here after all. The first week, we had no internet, no television reception, no telephones (except our cell phones). We were basically living in a box. We bonded very well, and all that wonderful stuff.

Boston is fabulous. I need to come up with fake names for my roommates so I can explain things that are going on. Anyhow, we got our telephone service almost a week ago. On that same day, the ethernet got hooked up for everyone but me. What luck! Our R.A. (Resident Assistant) lives across the hall and is always coming over to our place at inopportune times so we figure he's got a crush on SOMEONE in this apartment. I'm pretty sure it's not me because why would it be me out of all these beautiful girls with wonderful personalities?! But, my name is the only one he seems to remember and I'm the one with the hardest name! Anyhow, he came over the other night and sat in our living room and talked to us for like two hours about the strangest things EVER. We mentioned that my computer is the only one not working after having gone to the computer people like seven thousand times already. He left, and about an hour later, he came to my door with the head of the computer department thingie. TO MY DOOR. We are supposed to go to them, but oh no, he came to me. Yeah, it was great. Anyhow, he came again the next night and still couldn't fix it. But it's working now thanks to a wonderful person who needs to come and visit me!

Ummmmmm. I am really happy about pretty much everything. Sure, there are little annoyances here and there, but for the most part, things are fantastic. We still have no television though, so we've been watching a lot of movies and we put this painting in front of the television. Tonight, we are having a "Party." Not really sure what it's going to entail, but lots of boys are coming with lots of liquor. We'll see how it turns out.

Oh, yeah. Classes are good, for the most part.

This whole WTC thing had me freaked out quite a bit. Thursday, I cried in class. Haha. No, really, I did. That was also the day I went into the men's bathroom and didn't realize until after I got weird looks from boys and spent a couple of minutes looking at myself in the mirror and THEN saw the urinals. Yeah, I'm smooth.

There are so many things that have happened. Everybody is in SUCH awe over where I'm from. They even call me "The [insert state name here]." We have an honorary fifth roommate. He is my roommate's best friend and he is always here. He is wonderful. The girls down the hall are also very wonderful. Our R.A. is wonderful and his roommate (yes, he has a roommate..but it's an apartment so it's alright) is very beautiful.

My birthday is next Saturday. We were gonna take some van from Chinatown Boston to Chinatown New York, but you know, there was a little bit of a terrorist attempt done in NYC, so we're prolly just gonna do things here. We'll see. I'm the oldest, but one of my apartment-mates has a fake ID that actually looks legit..so yeah. I kinda feel like a teenager again sometimes. Sometimes not. I don't know.

Anyhow, I'm gonna go be social. Bye!!!
posted by s 4:01 PM

Saturday, September 01, 2001

Okay, I'm going to update now because I don't know when I'll have time to make a big huge long update next, and, well, I really feel like expunging everything from the past week before I go forward!!!

So, Monday. I woke up at 7am for no particular reason. It was actually a good idea that I did, though, because I was able to finish up everything that I hadn't done the night before. You know, finish doing the dishes that I had somehow left in the sink for way too long before my mom came home! Alright. Did that, and then I got to have a good AIM conversation which left me feeling sad because I realized that was the end of talking to said person for a week, and the last of talking to said person from said previous location. Um. 1pm I signed off and unplugged all of the cable crap and went to go find the cable place. For whatever reason, I couldn't find it, and I had to go pick my mom up from the airport and there was a lot of traffic, so I just took the REALLY long way to the airport and waited like a half hour for her. Okay, she came home and really wanted Italian food, so we went and got that and then came home and I went to bed at like 7pm.

Tuesday, we woke up semi-late and then did the whole toilettrie (I don't know how to spell that word) shopping and stuff. We ended up going to Wal*Mart, Target, AND K-Mart. See, the thing was, I couldn't ship anything to school before I got here because I'm not staying in the main dorms. I'm staying in some apartments that the school owns, but are not dormitory living except for the fact that I live with a couple of other girls who go to the same school as me and there are other people in the building who go to my school. Does that make sense? Okay, good. So basically, I could only take the amount of stuff that the airplane would allow on as baggage. Since there were two of us, it was a bit easier to take more things, but still not that easy. So yeah, I got four trunks and one small suitcase and that's basically it! The rest of the stuff that I need has to be purchased here. So anyhow, we got all of that sort of stuff purchased on Tuesday.

Wednesday, I ran a LOT of errands for my mom and got everything settled. Finally found the cable place and returned my cable modem and digital cable box. It really was a bummer having the equipment but not being able to use it. However, I wouldn't have had a chance to use the stuff anyhow, so no biggie. After that, we went clothes shopping. I got a VERY nice selection of clothes and I felt super good because everything I tried on that I wanted fit me and looked good. YAY!!! Haha, okay, I'm a dork. Um. Somehow, this day managed to be really long and we got home at like 10pm and then went to bed. Oh no wait, on Tuesday night and Wednesday night, we started packing a few things just so that we wouldn't have it all be left for Thursday.

K, Thursday, we finished getting everything we needed and somehow managed to stay out way too long. We got home at around 8pm and spent the next three hours finishing packing and making sure that I didn't leave everything behind. I finally was able to get to sleep at around midnight. As soon as my head hit the pillow, I realized that THIS IS IT. A couple of minutes later I was in the bathroom with my head in the toilet. Yay for throwing up! I managed to fall asleep at 1:30am and had to wake up at 5:30am, however, because I was nervous about EVERYTHING, I woke up at 5am. Blah,blah,blah.
K, Friday. Okay, the taxivan thingie came and my mom went to open the garage door while I went back inside the house for a final check of everything. Out came the waterworks. I really am not a very sentimental person, but I was totally crying. It was weird. I dried my eyes and went into the taxivan and watched the scenery for one last time. We got to the airport really early (which was good) and the lady behind the counter was trying to be a bitch to us and tell us that we couldn't have any carry on bags. What the FUCK is that shit? Anyhow, we were like, "Well, that's not what they said when we CALLED." And she was still being a cunt, so then my mom goes, "I want to make sure I got the frequent flier miles applied to this trip." All of the sudden she turned on the charm and treated us like valued customers. Yeah, we won. Hah. K, so my mom wanted a quiche for breakfast, and she made me drink milk (what the fuck?). So, I'm sitting there sipping on my milk like a two year old, and out came the tears again. I SWEAR I had no idea where they were coming from. I mean, I was in the airport, thinking about milk!!!! K, so I went potty and dried my eyes and came back to sit down. My mom had me call my grandma to say goodbye, and that's when I REALLY started bawling. It was all just very weird to me. However, at the end of the conversation, my grandma said, "I hope you like your new sleeping partner!" And for whatever reason, I started laughing uncontrollably and yeah. That was cool. We went upstairs and I called my sista and she made me cry again and then okay. Got on the plane, transferred in Dallas, got on the next plane and I went straight to sleep even before it left the ground. An hour and a half later, I woke up, and we were still at the gate. Okay, then we started taxiing and the captain comes over the speakers, "Folks, it looks like we have an hour wait, there is a lot of weather related problems causing major air traffic." Uhhh okay. Five minutes later, he goes, "Um, it looks like we have mechanical failure, we're going to have to go back to the gate and see if that can be fixed." Yeehaw. Anyhow, to make this story shorter, we finally took off about three hours after we boarded the plane. Um. We got here, and came to the hotel and that's the end of that story.

Today is Saturday. I figure because this is a big enough city, I can tell you where I am. However, I'm not gonna say the name of my school because it's a really small school! Okay, I'm in BOSTON!!!! Anyhow, today we spent the entire day walking around and purchasing things that we weren't able to take with us. I took the T (which is the nickname for the subway here) for the first time and it was really fun. Yeah, something like that. Actually, I wouldn't really say it's a SUBWAY, but you know, whatever. Ummmmm...I am in serious pain. I think it's funny that I am the laziest person in the whole wide world and I am living in a city where you have to walk EVERYWHERE. My mom seems to be loving this whole concept. She laughs quietly to herself every couple of minutes. Let's see..what else. Um. I am absolutely in love with life right now, despite the fact that I am SO FUCKING EXHAUSTED!!! I am just so happy to be here and I am so much more calm than I was the previous week. You should have seen me, I was seriously freaking out like I've never freaked out before. Now, I am just very very calm and it all rules so much.

I move in tomorrow morning. We hafta be there by 9am, which kinda sucks, but I figure it'll be good to get it done early in the morning. I'm going to be living in a two bedroom apartment. I know the girl who is staying in my room with me already, but there are THREE other girls in the other room and we both have no idea who they are. So, that should be fun. I know two boys who are going to be living in my building. I met them at orientation. I also know another girl who is staying in my building that I met at orientation. She was a little um...what's the best way to describe her? Oh, I know. SHE WAS A BIBLE THUMPER. Okay, one more thing about the building I'm living in..basically, there are other offices and such in that building, so it's not just us. There are only 80beds that belong to my school in it, so that's pretty cool. So yeah. Okay, you can't really tell voice inflection over the stupid computer, but I am so so so so so so excited. So excited. Like you have no idea. I know this sounds stupid and retarded and cliche, but I really feel like I am meant to be here. It's just awesome! Yay!!!

Okay. This net connection is really shitty here at the hotel: it won't let me really do anything besides go to webpages. So um, I am going to post this and then repack up my computer. Once again, I move in TOMORROW. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! K bye.
posted by s 6:37 PM

I am here!

Actually, I am in a hotel right now. They have, wait, let me quote...they have "High Speed Access to the Internet." So, of course, I set my laptop up to take advantage of it. However, it really, really, really sucks!

I have a few stories to write about, but I don't have too much time at the moment. My mom is in the bathroom getting dressed, and I'm pretty sure that as soon as she comes out here, she's going to start getting on my case to get dressed. Soooo, I will go now. Just wanted to let everyone know I am here and safe and sound!

I move into my new place on Sunday, so yeah.

Okay...bye for now!!!!
posted by s 9:37 AM

Monday, August 27, 2001

Is it weird that the first time I've really gotten sad about leaving was just now, after saying, "I shall talk to you when I get to [insert city name here]" to a friend on AIM?

Well in any event..this is it!........
posted by s 12:16 PM

So, basically, this is probably my last post for awhile. I might try and update tomorrow, but no promises.

I was going to write something sentimental and nostalgic, but uh, yeah nobody likes that.

Basically, I don't have anything to say. It hasn't set in that I'm leaving, it hasn't set in that this is the end, nothing has really set in. And because of that, I just don't have anything to say.

If you want to email me, please note that I updated the email links and stuff. You can send email to madonnaisnumber1@yahoo.com and I'll be glad to reply!

I just want you to know that I'll miss you, and that I love you.

See you on the other side!
posted by s 12:39 AM

Sunday, August 26, 2001

I'm only updating now because I promised I'd update again. Not that it really matters though, I guess.

I'm still not in a very good mood, I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't wait until I'm gone. At least then I'll have SOMETHING to do on a regular basis (school), even if I don't end up doing anything else. Heh.

So, Aaliyah's dead. I don't really care about that one way or the other, it's just weird. Weird because the first time I really heard anything about her (other than her music) was recently on MTV. But um, yeah I don't really care.

I should be in bed now, I'm going to have to wake up early on Monday, so if I go to bed late tonight and wake up late on Sunday, then yeah. You understand. Also, I really have a lot of shit to do tomorrow before my mommy comes home. I didn't get jack shit accomplished today because I was in such a terrible mood. Oh well.

It still hasn't set in that I have less than a week before I move. I guess I've just had so much time to sit and wait this summer that I keep thinking I've got tons of time. I don't know. All I know is, tomorrow is my last day of sitting online for endless hours at least for a little while.

Okay, that's all.
posted by s 1:34 AM

Saturday, August 25, 2001

Man am I ever in a bad mood.

Right before I woke up, I had this dream that I got a D in a class that I absolutely did not deserve a D in, so I was yelling at the professor. And then the phone rang and it was my mom and I was all off balance and cranky so I told her I'd call her back. I went and tried to start packing and stuff, but I just couldn't deal with it, so I went and took a nap.

I woke up and called my mom back and she was being very cheerful and joked around and said, "How was your Date last night?" I got PISSED OFF. I was like, "IT WAS NOT A DATE!" She was like, "Uh, okay I'll call you later."

I went BACK to sleep, and she called me to ask about two errands I need to do before she comes home. I was like, "I'M TAKING A NAP COULD YOU PLEASE CALL ME LATER?" So, then I went back to sleep and woke up about two hours later (I think). I'm feeling a bit better, but man oh man.

Anyhow, I just called and had a decent conversation with her. My uncle says, "I WANT TO TALK TO JAP!" So, my mom gives the phone to him and he says, "She said she would wake me up before she went to the store. She did not. She's killing me, I am dying BECAUSE OF HER. I HATE HER." So um. Bitchy me came out to play again. "It is your OWN FAULT that you are dying, do NOT blame my mother for YOUR horrible life." And then all of the sudden I hear my mom's voice on the phone saying, "Hitler's returned." Hahahahaha.

Okay. So.

It is like 5:30pm already, I've slept away an entire day. Yay. I'll update more later, I promise. For now though, I am going to go clean and stuff. And hopefully not be so bitchtastic.
posted by s 4:35 PM

So let's see. Where shall I start?

Well, I'm a little bit sad right now, allow me to explain why. I guess there's a whole bunch of beginnings to start from, so I'll just pick the shortest story and go from there.

Well, okay, yesterday (that would be Thursday), after I got home, Alan was online and he asked me what I was doing the next day (that being today, or Friday). I told him I didn't have any plans, so he said he wanted to see me before I leave and that he wants to see Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back with me. That was thrilling in itself, because I really wanted to see the movie, so I was like well you can definitely count me in. Okay. So today we confirmed our plans and met at the theatre, blah blah blah. It was just going to be me, Alan, and his brother. But Alan's best friend, I'll call him Chad, showed up too. I really had no problem with more people coming, but it's just that it was Chad. I will give you back story on him.

I guess I met him about three and a half years ago. Obviously it was after I met Alan. The way we met was really kind of weird, actually. Chad works at myformercompany, too. Alan, Curtis, and I always used to sit together on our 5pm - 2am shift. Anyhow, one night, Chad came up to Alan. All three of us were in some lame chatroom making fun of HACKERS, and I typed something witty in the chatroom and Chad asked who it was who said that. Alan said it was me, and so I introduced myself, etc. Chad went home, and we all had a long night ahead of us. A couple of hours later, he IM'd me and we started chatting. He said he really liked me and wanted me to go hang out with him in his hottub and stupid crap like that. I really had low self esteem at the time, so it came as a complete shock that somebody who really only knew me from looking at me would like me so much! Anyhow, he and I talked a lot for a week or two, and Alan would have me relay messages to him and all that good stuff. So, one night I went over to his house. He had this park type situation right near his house, so we sat on the grass and talked for a little bit. And then he totally took full advantage of me. I wasn't completely against doing anything with him, but when I told him to stop doing what he was doing or that, no, I didn't want to have sex with him, he still persisted. So yeah. Finally I got up and was like, "Well, I gotta get home." Luckily, I was still living at home so I used my mom making me be home early as an excuse. The next day, I thought maybe he would at least still talk to me, but he completely ignored me. I've hated him ever since. I didn't say anything to Alan because, whatever, Bros before Hos. But I've never had to hang out with him again, and I've always avoided him whenever possible. So, seeing him tonight was like a big scary step for me to overcome.

It HAS been over three years though, so I tried to act as friendly. Besides, I didn't want to ruin the evening. So, we got there early and the boys wanted to play arcade games before the movie started. No problem. I was watching them, and then Chad was like, "Why don't you play this racing game with me?" I DID want to play, so I was like alright. He started getting a bit friendly, so I quickly lost the game and went and hung out with Alan. Then we went and sat down in the theatre, and Chad and Alan's brother went to go get popcorn. I sat down next to Alan, but was at the end of the row type thing. Luckily, Chad and Alan's brother went and sat next to Alan, so I did not have to be near Chad at ALL for the HILARIOUS movie. Yes, Jay and Silent Bob RUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUULED. It totally made up for the bad Chad.

K, so after the movie we all went potty. I thought they had just left, but they were all outside waiting for me. They were going to some music store to get the soundtrack, and Alan said I should meet them there. So, I went. Apparently, I walked past an old friend in the movie theatre and didn't even see him, but he called me up while I was driving to the music store. Yeah, I felt popular.

So, I went to the music store and whatever. They had gotten there quicker than me because there was this big fucking accident and they ran a red light and I was like um, no I'll just wait. Anyhow, they were in line waiting to pay and I asked Alan what it was they were doing after that. He said they were just killing time until he had to pick up his mom so I said I was just gonna go home. I mean, there wasn't anything else going on anyhow, might as well sit in front of the computer, right? Right. So, as I'm saying goodbye, Chad is all trying to flirt with me. Ugh. I totally ignored him and gave Alan a long hug goodbye and invited him and him only out to visit me if he ever wants to come up to where I'll be moving. As I was driving home, I got all sorts of teary eyed because I realized that I really am leaving.

Okay, that's the end of the first few stories. There are still a few more.

Remember how the other day I was feeling all bad because Mark didn't call me after work like he said he would? Okay, good. Well, this afternoon, I got online for a couple of minutes and he IM'd me with, "We didn't hang out!" and I said, "Yeah, I know." Then he goes on to tell me that he called me but I didn't answer. Yeah, okay. Well whatever. So then once I got home, he was talking to me and telling me about this GIRL. He was telling me about how he has had a crush on her for a year and a half and she finally talked to him and he talked to her the entire night on Tuesday (same day we were supposed to do something) and then went out for coffee and blah blah blah. That's cool, I'm really happy for him. HOWEVER. Don't fucking lie to me. Okay? Okay. Good.

Um. So, all night I talked to Curtis on AIM. He and I both seem to be in the same funk. So that was cool. Also, he is the only person I've told about the whole Chad situation (until now..that felt good to get out), so I was able to bitch to him about having to see him. He's never really liked Chad either, and when I told him what happened, he just liked him even less. So yeah. That was good. Also, I told him about the whole Mark fiasco, and he was like, "I never really liked him, either." Haha. Curtis is a great friend. He also sent me all sorts of classical music mp3's, which was just marvelous.

Those are really all of the This is What I Did Today stories that I have. So now, I will write about my *deep emotions.* Aren't you glad I can't seem to stop typing? Yeah, I didn't think so.

Well, most importantly, I'm leaving on FRIDAY MORNING. My mom is coming home (hopefully) Monday afternoon, so that means we really only have like three days to do everything that I need her help with. What that means is, I've scheduled to have my cable turned off as of Monday. What THAT means is, no internet for me for a little while starting on Monday. I don't go through withdrawls or whatever if I don't have my internet, but. Ugh. It's the people that I miss. And really only One Person in particular.

Yeah, but let's not get into that right now.

I guess that I really should stop typing for now because otherwise I'm going to probably end up typing something I might possibly regret. So. That's all!
posted by s 2:07 AM