panic.

walking home today something just came over me. perhaps it's my current frame of mind, what with the things that have been happening around me... and of course, i'd say xyn's post and question in dysfunctional would have played a major part in triggering that, "something".

i still don't know what to make of it. it's something to do with the knowledge that i haven't done anything constructive since and august is looming near. which is something i really ought to panic about.

i really still feel like the nothing i've always been, haven't found myself, nor direction. even if i have, i don't think i've found the energy or drive in me to push myself toward it. why isn't anything working itself out for me? it's about time.

posted at 3:22:26 AM ()




2 months (to august).

which is how long i have to compile and organize my portfolio for uni. this sucks. i am not panicking yet, which isn't good, cause i suspect i can't get any work done till i do.

2 things i've been hooked onto of late are, arcanine; an alternative fiction site created and maintained by an old friend from school, go for good reads. the other is neopets; if you haven't yet heard of them, it's an online gaming site. juvenile, but addictive. so shoot me.

i made a banner/button thing so if you want to link me, use this.


download the image and link to http://wrecche.tornumbilical.nu . i'd appreciate an email, if you do use the graphic. ;)

posted at 3:38:57 AM ()




i got down to compiling old poetry and archived them all in transient.

if you've missed my old writing, here it is. watch me shed my skin, cross over the fire and evolve.

this is the dirty excess baggage i've cast off, that i no longer drag around like a corpse hindering my existence.

posted at 11:45:55 PM ()




i put up x; delicate. sort of a portfolio project, where i would publish miscellaneous digital work.

why? i figured i needed a place to put together all the graphics and single page webdirs together. besides, a portfolio would be the perfect excuse to motivate me into opening photoshop more often and working more.

afterall, i still need to get that portfolio done for uni.

posted at 5:42:21 AM ()

release me.

posted at 2:33:32 AM ()




i fixed the bug in ennui. somehow i'd managed to corrupt the .cgi archive files and therefore they were not, uh, communicating. yeah. i had to re-fix them. this is what you get for meddling around with the stupid scripts.

four days ago was five sweet months with my boy and am i in bliss. it's amazing. i haven't been this happy nor carefree for a long while.

posted at 1:23:02 AM ()




nothing much has been happening. i've just been addicted to neopets for the past week or so.

i haven't been doing anything else other than dreaming weird dreams that seem to be saying something to me.

/ennui, my journal, is up... and has been for quite a while, if you haven't noticed. been trying to update it for the past 20mins but there seems to be some server trouble. unnnf.

oh yeah. i meddled with flash today. i like it. i'd meddle some more but i'm too tired. did i also mention that i've been having sleep trouble? well, i do. and it's not helping that i'm up and sleeping irregular hours. xyn is god from flash-heaven. heh.

posted at 11:18:39 PM ()




i've just set up my journal, no longer will i use scribble, for the obvious reasons. i've got the layout and the necessary scripts set up. will post and link up the url as soon as it's ready for the world.

i.e., when i've posted my first post.

posted at 1:40:57 AM ()