too many late nights in a row make for a very tired sammy.

you know... the fog has burned away, the sun is out. somehow it just makes it all the more delicious to hibernate and watch films. closing the curtains on the world and escaping can be nice once in a while.

it's stuff like this:

I just won't feel slightly at ease until some justice is served, and that means we gotta bomb some shit and kill some fuckers. Even then, I won't feel completely right again. link

that really frustrates me right now.

i am growing really weary of all this... and as callous as it sounds to some i think we should really move towards some clarity and grieving in a constructive manner. life goes on-- and it should be lived in the honor of those who perished. 'bombing and killing some fuckers' isn't going to take anybody's pain away.

yay for me!

i just heard from the ymca-- they are offering me a seat in their class. i am in the self-employment program.

yay. one hurdle down... and a little bit more security in the near future.

laundry - done
dishes - done
litterbox - done
vacuuming - in progress
banking - appointment booked

hmmm. what else. i'm taking the day to catch up and get back to a nice clean start.

geez. i think my upstairs neighbour has a hard-on for me.
only, not in the positive way... i swear she has it in for me.

not only is she the only person in the building to complain when i had a bbq.. now she has come downstairs because my music was too loud and apparently she couldn't hear her tv.

well turn it up then!! that's what i do when someone else has loud music on.

sure. i am grooving to a little jill scott right now.. but it by no means is outrageous... it simply cannot be louder than the cbc the fogeys were blaring the other day. this is the woman who has managed to fight with and/or alienate every other tennant on her floor and the former building manager. i guess now she has to move it on down to me. some fresh meat to annoy, nitpick and quibble with.

great.

if i hear that one more time i may cry of frustration.
i am sure my friends are fine.. but i would just like to hear their voices regardless.
the world trade center is close enough to their store that craziness would reach them i am sure... but i see no reason why they would be in the neighbourhood at that time of day. and i am holding on to that until i hear a familiar voice on the phone.

much love and wishes for all those affected today.
i cannot begin to imagine the pain.. nor express myself appropriately.

(9.12.01 - update - i've heard from atom and jenna. all is well.)