Not much to write. Mostly, I haven't been hungry at all, what with all those people dead and all.

Patrick is having trouble too, but of a different sort. He is hungry, but feels nauseous after he eats. I force myself to eat, then feel physically okay, but really sad.

We are all stumbling along these days, and the physical manifestations of stress and grief are beginning to reveal themselves. All I can do is wait it out.
posted by annalisa at 6:42 AM

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Yesterday:
Morning: Croissant w/jam, coffee w/cream
Midday: Regular veggie salad from K2, plus tasty roast squash w/mint salad, and some sesame tofu thrown in there; Fresh Samantha - the green kind
Evening: Baingan Bartha w/rice; Mango lassi
Water: not nearly enough, felt parched the entire day...

Feeling: like I need to eat less carbs... i'm totally bloated around the middle. Grrr.
posted by annalisa at 7:04 AM

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Well, everything is going along okay. I haven't had meat in awhile now and well, I don't even really miss it anymore. The big test came when I had PMS and wanted nothing but a big ol' hamburger. So I grilled up a Boca burger instead, and that seemed to do the trick, once the lettuce, tomato, mustard, ketchup and onion were on there. Overall, no big deal.

I've been maintaining, which is good, but have been lazy about exercising. Need to change that. Trip to San Francisco in a few days should help (we always do a lot of walking).
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Yesterday:
Morning: Coffee w/cream; half bagel w/2T lite cream cheese (i know, i know, i know - all carbs and fat, but tasty!)
Midday: Salad w/lite dressing & marinated tofu (from K2 cafe); half rice crispy treat
Evening: Black bean burrito (no dairy); can of sprite
Water: ~42 oz
posted by annalisa at 7:42 AM

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Staying honest:
Morning: Coffee (black)
Midday: Veggie burger w/mustard, ketchup, and onion; half a back (snack size) of chips; water
Evening: Beer, beer, more beer (w/limes); slice of cheese pizza at 11:30pm; 1c blackberries at home.
Water: not nearly enough
Feeling: scolded for not eating (need to pack emergency rations into messenger bag next time)
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Hmmm, so. I think I'm finally done with my WW meetings for now. I'm at my goal weight and I feel like I have the tools I need to continue on my own. Also, it's a pain to get to the meetings and I'm pretty tired of the whole meeting thing anyway. There's always the message boards for that group support, and we have a local mailing list, too.

I'm under 140 lbs. and barely able to believe it.
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Matt, at Gigamatic, is taking suggestions on healthy eating. That's what prompted me to fess up in the previous entry.

Oh. And. I am wearing new black pants that make me feel good, and look skinny.
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Yesterday
Morning: Iced coffee (freakin' huge size)
Midday: Salad w/lite dressing, sesame marinated tofu, roasted squash w/cranberries and mint; diet iced tea (at K2 Cafe in Kendall Sq)
Evening: Marinated tofu & veg stir fry, 2c white rice (uh, i was starving); Spicy V8 and a plum (while waiting for dinner)
Water: ~48oz.

The day before I ate pizza and a bunch of other stuff that was neither healthy, nor inclined to make me feel good. To be honest, I felt like shit, and made a mental note of it.
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Yesterday:
Morning: cofffee (black)
Midday: Eggplant w/garlic sauce; tofu w/peanut sauce; brown rice (1c ea)
Evening: Total raisin bran 1c, soy milk .5c, and half a banana; Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich (mint)
Water: 30 oz
Exercise: 1hr Kripalu yoga class
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After weeks of going back and forth over the same 2 pounds, I'm down again. And it wasn't that hard. Part of it, I'm sure, can be attributed to keeping my journal, which I've been consistent about for a few weeks now. And I'm 1.5 lbs. from my goal weight.

I am almost there.
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Um... still not at goal weight. I am having a really hard time dropping those last 5 pounds. I do pretty well for most of the week, then BOOM, weekend hits - which means going out for dinner, and being home during the day (yields grazing). Also, while I've been excercising more, I've been eating more, too.

Grrr. I still feel fat. I know I'm not, but that's how I feel.

Richard said, "nice rack" today. That was nice.
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