It isn't always what you think it is...
Tuesday, September 18, 2001
Argh...x10
Do you ever just want to take your computer and throw it out the window/door/random opening?
I'm in one of my rarer moods this evening. If I wasn't still paying for it, this iBook and every other computer in my path would be paying the penalty. Don't get me wrong, it's not actually the computer that's having the problems. It's our uplink provider. But all the same, the only thing I could take my physical frustrations out on is this, at the moment, useless hunk of plastic, wire and electricity.
Some days it just pays to NOT get out of bed. Are you understanding me? Or am I speaking gibberish as usual?
Oh. Go boil your brains in bat piss.
by Gayle Hefley |
12:51 AM |
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Monday, September 17, 2001
I just don't know anymore...
Do you ever have the feeling that what you're doing with your life is not "special" enough? Like there's something better or ultimately more fulfilling you could be doing? Since last Tuesday's tragedies, I have been thinking more and more of this. It's as if someone whispered in my ear as I was waking up Tuesday morning, "You're not making enough of a difference." And since then that whisper has become an echo that won't go away.
It's no secret. I have not been happy in my current incarnation. CEO of an Internet company is a title I have not felt "right" about for some time. I keep up the work and strive to grow my company, but in the back of my mind, I know I am not happy. Is happiness a good reason for change? Can happiness take a back seat to a solid foundation for living? Or can happiness be the main crux for living? Can I feed off happiness instead of currency?
These questions - and so many more - have been circling in my mind recently like vultures above a dying animal - waiting for the feast. I want to eat, but I also want to LIVE.
by Gayle Hefley |
9:26 AM |
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You know what. Instead of the usual copyright mumbo jumbo, I will tell you only this: Take it and die! Use it and you will firmly regret it! However, should you wish to use something, do the right thing and ASK ME FIRST!
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