well woo. i slept almost double the amount of hours i usually do and now im not tired anymore. yay. now im just bored.im moving my blogger. the new address is home.houston.rr.com/texasredd/blogger.html
1:09:38 PM
*yawn* third day in a row ive stayed up past midnight. i really need to sleep more. oh well.yay for rektex. it was great fun. im all dirty though and i need to go take a shower, but im kinda too tired. i guess i should go do it now anyway though because if i dont, itll just be worse later. whatever.
12:17:00 AM
ok.....well i just had a really weird dream. it definitely goes up there with some of the most random - like when i ate a hot dog at the movies and then followed kim and her dad through the mall and the one where i ran into kidrock at a store and he took me to kellys house and it was my birthday so he sang for me. i dont think i even really want to know where these dreams come from or what they mean, but anyway, heres a summary of the latest episode of my insanity:it was like the whole waco weekend adventure, except this time it was in russia instead of waco and most of the people were different. someone had a car that they were driving around outside the hotel dining room(which looked suspiciously like the lamar cafeteria) and i was sitting on a bench outside with several other people, the only one of which i knew was geoff. we were just sitting there and no one was talking and then i turned around and it looked like geoff had just disappeared into the air so i was really confused. suddenly i was sitting in the back seat of the aforementioned car amongst several plastic bags full or random things. i could see three or four people in the front, but i thought i was alone in the back. this girl in the front turned around and started talking to me. she said something like "so, has he done it yet?" and i didnt know what she meant, but only for a minute and then i realized. i told her he hadnt and she said "well you should snap him out of it and just do it." and i said "i wouldnt be able to do it either." then i wondered what she meant by snap him out of it, but a quick glance to my right answered the question. there was geoff and he was just staring off into space. another boy appeared on the other side of him and he came out of his trance and they started talking. then we were all in the back of a moving van instead of in the car, sitting on benchs along each side. we had some random conversations and tried to put a project together. when we got to where ever we were going, they told me to carry this container full of blood that was for blood pressure or something. so i took it from the girl who was holding and it nearly burned me because it was so hot. i wrapped paper around it and carefully climbed out of the truck. there were about ten of us and we filed up the narrow stairs into a large hotel room(that strongly resembled my house). we sat around in there for a while or something(i dont remember this part exactly) and then everyone was gone except for me and geoff. since i knew what he was struggling to do i was nervous and he was nervous because of what he was trying to do so we both just sat there, kind of ignoring each other because neither of us knew what to do. he was sitting in a small rocking chair looking out the window and i put my hands on his shoulders and pushed him forward. then i went and sat in a large chair behind him and he just looked at me. (some more things happened that i dont really remember) and then we were in a room(that looked like my real room) and i was desperately trying to figure out how to call my mom(who for some reason was also in russia) because i had been gone for a long time and i knew she would be freaking out. but my phone was doing crazy things and i couldnt figure out how to call or anything, and the whole time geoff was sitting there next to me, just staring at me. i wasnt sure if he knew that i knew about what he wanted to do, but by this point i didnt really care about that. then i went out of the room and my mom was standing there and she asked me where i had been. i suddenly could not form coherent sentences and i just mumbled some random words. then we were in our car looking out the window. rachel pulled up next to us and got out and then sarah brents came and i was really confused until my mom said "thats kellys house!" and then i remembered. i was supposed to go to kellys house(which was also in russia, and next door to my house-looking hotel room) at ten to go to rektex(which was also in russia, but it didnt seem like we were in russia anymore). i looked at the clock and it was nine thirty six. aaah! i started screaming "i forgot, i completely forgot!" and then i ran in the house to find clothes(i had been wearing boxers the whole time, and so had geoff and a few others). i was frantically getting dressed and i noticed that erin and jonathan were sitting right next to me downloading songs from napster. that didnt bother me, but then some random mother who i didnt know came up and started telling me to hurry. "come on, we need to go, i want to go eat first." i didnt know this person at all and she was invading me in my room and pestering me. i wanted her to get out. and then i realized i needed to shep that i was gonna be gone the whole day, but since i knew i wouldnt be able to use the phone, i screamed at erin and jonathan and told them to tell him, but they werent listening to me. so i just left and that was the end.
that was really random, and there were big parts i left out but i dont remember them at all. it was the weidest thing. and there were so many different parts of my life all mixed in there together, things that arent even related in real life, and i have no clue why we were in russia....whatever. but now i have to go get ready or i really will be late to kellys.
9:23:28 AM
whatever. whatever. i do not understand my computer sometimes. it makes me unhappy. whatever.
10:51:37 PM
ok well ive learned the reason for taking empty water bottles in....they have water fountains there that you may use to fill your bottle, but you may not have a top for your bottle. random. but whatever. they have lots of rules. blankets have to be small because people have been known to use large blankets to toss other people into the air and this is dangerous so it is not allowed. anything and everything that could possibly cause a safety hazard is not allowed. rah. so instead you have to spend thirty billion dollars to buy the overpriced food and drinks. how great.
4:12:35 PM
2 finals down, SIX to go. at least we have a three day break. chemistry and english actually werent that bad. the chem was pretty much just like the review sheet, with some random stuff thrown in every now and then, but not that much. and the english, well i knew the english would be easy, and it was. questions copied straight from old tests, nothing too hard. and that part only counts for 37.5 points of the whole final grade so i dunno. whatever.tomorrow is rektex. i decided that was a great name for it because 'robert earl keens texas uprising' is just way too long of a name to say every time. oooh, the laziness takes over. eh, its almost summer. laziness is good.
3:53:39 PM
CONCERT RULES
1.)YOU CANNOT bring food, drinks or liquid of any kind, lawn chairs, strollers, cameras, video equipment or recording devices, weapons or aerosol of any kind into the Pavilion.2.) YOU CAN bring small blankets, beach towels and empty water bottles into the Pavilion.
rule one i can understand although its not really fair. part of rule two, however, is bothering me. why would you need an empty water bottle? what are you going to do with it? pay for something expensive to fill it with? what kind of sense does that make? i know my brain isnt working completely right after having crammed it full of gas laws and word smart words, but still, that doesnt seem logical...someone explain it to me if you can!
3:50:04 PM
ugh. i really need ot go to bed, but something is keeping me from it. i really will go soon though.since i was feeling so stressed and i was liek having major freak-out attacks, i got my cd player loaded with everclears smfta and the cool blue mini speakers, and louis sachars sideways stories from wayside school and went to take a bath. an hour later i got out, having read the entire book and listened to the cd one and half times, and now i feel a hell of a lot better. that book did just what i wanted it to, it helped me stop obsessing about finals and let me relax. now i just need some sleep. and in twelve hours ill be a fourth of the way through my finals and on my way home. yay.
12:22:12 AM
argggggggg. im feeling exceedingly stressed right about now, but i just cant make myself study anymore. its just not gonna happen. and i guess thats ok. ive been over the 147 words for wordsmart, of which only 60 will be used, and ive made my card for chemistry and hopefully it contains helpful information. beyond that, the rest is up to fate i guess. and how much sleep i get tonight and what my spaz-out level is tomorrow. i just want to scream right now. i think i need to go take a long hot bath. besides finals im stressed about thirty billion other things too so that doesnt help, but i guess i can deal. *yawn*
10:28:47 PM
ahahaha. no more classes of the grimm, or the hobbs, or the mac or anything else. only finals left, and a week from now ill be done with all of this. as several people have said, this year has been one of the best and one of the worst. though there are some things, people mostly, that im going to miss, i am sooo glad this year is over. i just cant handle it anymore. im ready for a change.i need to start reviewing my wordsmarts and making sure i know as much chem as i can. also i need to make my index card. if i was an index card in my room, where would i be? hmm...
4:31:24 PM
ugh. i really need to study, but i just cant make myself do it. im thinking that i will be ok now for chemistry and english is no problem, but im really not sure about the algebra. i mean, i understood everything when we did it, but the problem is i dont remember it now. i remember doing it, but i dont remember how to do it. that is not helpful. but that finals not til next thursday so ive got time to get ready. right now its not ok, but it will be. its a good thing i dont have that final on friday. as for the rest of them, architecture, german, art, and geography are no problem, ive got them all under control. research on the other hand......i dunno. its just not fair that our final is a seminar. that has NOTHING to do with the class, its just because she is lazy and stupid. even though its a required class for ib, it doesnt give ib credit so i really need a 100 in it, or at least an a. all my six weeks grades are 100s but i believe it to be entirely possible for me to fail on the seminar. or at least get a crappy grade like a 70. well, even with a 70, my semester average would still be a 93 so whatever. that doesnt make me any less pissed that we have to do it though. arggggg. oh well. i have more important things to worry about. i really need school to be over so i dont have to obsess about all of this crap anymore. and then i get to read the odyssey and the adventures of huckleberry finn and learn the entire wordsmart one book. yippee. or not. more like death.
9:01:36 PM
one more day, one more day! (well and then some finals, but whatever)so we finally took the twice-rescheduled english eoc and it was really stupid. it wasnt hard, but it took a while. the story was long and kinda sad. my essay was total crap, but there were some good points i think so itll be fine. i dont really care.
i cant think of anything else right now so....later maybe ill write some more interesting stuff.
4:13:31 PM
i thought i was starting to cut back on my computer usage time, but now im right back in the midst of the severe addiction. i need sleep, eversomuch i need it, and yet, i keep having to check things and look for things and talk to people and, and, and....instead of talking about it, i know i should just get off and go to bed, but it takes more willpower than i can use at the moment to do that. and of course, because im me, i have to make this all seem a lot more dramatic and crazy than it really is. but at least im aware of my problems(at least some of them), right?
11:00:47 PM
according to robertearlkeen.com and ticketmaster.com, you can get in at noon on saturday and the lineup is as follows:Main Stage: Reckless Kelly 2:00PM, Cory Morrow 3:15PM, Jack Ingram 4:35PM, Charlie Robison 6:05PM, Los Lobos 7:35PM, and REK 9:20PM.
Side Stage: Beaver Nelson 1:30PM, Rodney Hayden 2:45PM, Roger Creager 4:05PM, and Slaid Cleaves 5:35PM.noon to an hour or two after 920 is a loooooong time. almost as long as geofest. but i guess we dont necessarily have to get there at noon...but its gonna be crowded so maybe we will need to do that....i dunno. whatever.
9:48:52 PM
hunger, hunger.heres a random thing. its actually really stupid, but thats ok. c.y.b.o.r.g.. kinda reminds me of john port since he liked to called people cyborgs. now there was a strange person. and then he just like disappeared. but whatever.
boredom.
i really need to get off the computer, ive been on since i got home, and i need to study some chemistry or something, but i just keep staying on. or coming back since ive had to restart several times. i would get off if i knew i could have some food, but i dont know when thats going to happen so....yeah.
am i not EXCEEDINGLY boring?
7:07:05 PM
i have like two days until my chemistry and english finals. english, im mostly ready, i just need to review the wordsmarts. chemistry is another story. i was thinking that it would be ok, but now im not so sure. i mean, i know i can do a lot of the stuff, but i really need to learn how to do limit-excess problems and i need to make sure i understand all of this new stuff we are learning right now. itll be ok. but now im worried about algebra because i really dont remember how to do half of the things on the review sheets. i guess ill be spending some serious time with my algebra book sometime soon...now im starting to realize how much more involved these things are and im wishing i had started studying sooner, but hey, you cant live in the past. itll be fine, ive never started early to study for finals before and ive always done fine. yeah.so yeah today we turned in our research papers for the hobber and yeah, shes not even reading them or anything, its a completion grade only. not that thats necessarily a bad thing, but i actually worked on this paper and tried to make it good and now it doesnt even matter. but whatever. only two more times that i ever have to see her and then itll all be over.
6:11:31 PM
deathhh. these paint scraper men are working on my windows with some really loud machine and it smells really awful. these people have been here for like a week, how long does it take? our house isnt that big...whatever.only one more time for each class, plus finals!
4:14:18 PM
well the mission trip to honduras is now officially off for us. i was really looking forward to that, but they are just too many things up in the air right now. i mean we dont have a real confirmed leader or anything and half the people werent definitely commited or anything so it wouldnt have been all worked out or whatever. but its too bad because it would have been really fun and cool. i guess theres always next year. assuming they hire a new person to take kims job. supposedly they are close to having one, but who knows for real. oh well.
6:45:47 PM
aahh. there is a really evil girl named jenny. she is so bad and upsetting and mean to everyone. she makes up lies about people who thought she was their good friend and she makes other people believe her lies so they will hate the people the lies are about. jenny used to be really nice and a lot of people liked her but now people who used to be her friends want her to just go away, or maybe explode or something. no one really knows why she is so evil because she wont talk to anyone, even the person who is/was her best friend. it makes everyone upset because she is so mean and she wont explain why she is mad. people need to stay away from this awful girl.
6:18:39 PM
school is boring. but today was the last monday! yay. mondays are evil. i got to bring home all my art and architecture stuff, but it was kinda bad having to carry it all around but whatever. we watched remember the titans in english cuz we had nothing else to do and then we finished watching seven years in tibet in geography. lots of movieness. super fun. or something.
6:13:26 PM
random park day at fleming park. a large excess of small children and a crazy oldies band. super fun. um, yeah. i am still tired.
7:56:18 PM
boredom, boredom.i am tired. perhaps a nap.
3:52:52 PM
so i went to church this morning, blah blah blah, only three of us in sunday school, one being matthew who dominated the converstaion, which was fine by me. today was the last day of sunday school for this year and hardly anyone was there. but hardly anyone was ever there except on a few rare occaasions where we had more than ten. whatever.i have a feeling i should have spent this whole weekend studying and reviewing for finals, but i havent even touched any of my school stuff. im just not all that worried about it. ill start going over my chemistry and english stuff soon since those tests are on friday and the rest i can probably wait until next weekend for. besides chemistry and research where we are having a seminar which i just really can not handle, im not worried about any of them. i will need to study a little for the others, especially german and algebra, but it wont be anything too bad. besides, i rarely study in large amounts for any test and i still make a's and b's on them so its all cool. and im just too lazy to study anyway.
12:10:44 PM
arrrrrrrrr. i just spent like five hours babysitting my cousin and her friend. it wasnt really that bad, but it really is a reality check on what a difference five years can make from the last year of elementary school to halfway through high school. we were playing a game where you look up words in the dictionary and say the word and the others have to guess the definition. my cousins friend was looking and suddenly she goes "*giggle* that's gross! that is SO gross! *giggle*" and my cousin like "what? what is gross? the word or the definition? what is it????" and she says "the definition. its just gross. *laughter*" "what is it?" by this point im curious as well, although i know i wont find it nearly as funny as they do. "its *lowers voice* 'condom'!!! *huge burst of giggles*" see, huge difference. condoms arent insanely humorous to me or anyone else i know, at least not just saying the word or whatever. sure, there are many funny things that you can say about them, but the pure mention of the word..no. and thats not the only thing, but that just really stuck out to me. also its insane how they are all like having "boyfriends" and stuff now. when i was in fifth grade, there were only a few people who had already started doing that and the rest of us thought it was weird. now they all have a boy who they like and one who likes them(these may be the same person, or they may be different.) and the boys buy the girls expensive jewelry like $90 bracelets and stuff....im like no, no that is not cool. most people in high school dont buy that expensive of stuff for someone unless its a really serious relationship or they are just crazy mad foolish or something. at least not people i can think of. whatever. i guess they will learn someday. or else they will all be married before tey even get to high school or something random. i dont know. its late and im rambling a lot.
12:21:39 AM
i went to my sisters little dance performance thing at her school and it was really funny because it was all these little kids running around and doing basically whatever they wanted. the teacher would tell them what kind of thing they were supposed to do and turn on the music and give them props to use and stuff. the cutest thing though was this one little boy who was wearing a rainbow colored tutu. it had about ten layers of the mesh stuff and each one was a different color. it was great and now i want to draw a picture of him or something.and then when i came home i was looking for something to watch on tv and guess what i found....top secret!...that is the best movie, i love it.
2:18:12 PM
i found this at Ribbon Box and a lot of them are really true for me. they make me laugh. a - next to the item means it applies to me:* Snap bracelets were always getting you in trouble at school. -
* You ever wrote with a Squiggle Writer Pen -
* You played with "My Little Ponies". -
* You've ever read The Boxcar Children, The Babysitters Club or Sweet Valley High. -
* You know all the words to "Ice Ice Baby"
* You had a crush on one of the New Kids on the Block members.
* You remember the New Kids On The Block. -
* You wanted to be on Star Search.
* You wore one of those t-shirt rings or a scrunchi on one side of your shirt -
* You owned a doll with 'Xavier Roberts' signed on it's butt. Cabbage Patch Kids!
* The Cosby Show, Alf, or Out of This World was prime time television.
* You were upset when She-ra, Princess of Power, and He-Man cancelled.
* You can remember watching Full House and Saved by the Bell for endless hours, back when they were new episodes. -
* You have seen at least 10 episodes of Fraggle Rock. -
* You remember Madonna in her cone stage.
* You knew "The Artist" when he was humbly called "Prince."
* You remember M.C. Hammer. -
* You can still sing the rap to "Fresh Prince of Bel Air". -
* How many of you can recite the theme to Ducktales? -
* You own any cassettes. -
* You owned a pair of L.A. Gear, Keds, or Converse tennis shoes. (converse! i never had them then, but i love them now! i had keds though....many pairs.) -
* My Little Pony, Gummy Bears, KIDS Incorporated, Captian Kangroo, Double Dare, and Hey Dude are familiar to you. (dont forget clarissa explains it all!) -
* Do Polly Pockets or Popples ring a bell? -
* Big wheels and bicycles with streamers were the way to go. -
* You stayed up all night listening to Teddy Rupskin.
* Can we say Trapper Keeper? (oh my god! those were like the COOLEST thing EVER) -
* Can you tell you how to get to Sesame Street? -
* You wanted to be on the GLADIATORS!!!
* You still have a crimper in your bathroom drawer
* You remember singing Amy Grants "Baby, Baby"
* You watched orginal episodes of the Muppet Show -
* You remember when rollerblades were the new thing -
* You felt like a big girl when your mom bought you GIRL TALK
* You used to wear bright pink slip-ons and jelly shoes -
* Inspector Gadget was part of your daily ritual. -
* Pee Wee's Play House? -
* Fanny Packs? -
* You can remember when your "Kid Sister, Kid Sister" seemed so tall...
* Did you keep your hot pink lipstick in a caboodle? -
* You could not get enough hair spray on those bangs.
* How many trolls did you have? -
* Does "Heros in a half shell" mean anything to you? -
* Everything was rad, totally awesome, and tubular!!! -
* You remember when the original nintendo was the best $100 you could spend
* You owned a Hollywood Hair Barbie.
* You loved to play with your glow-in-the-dark plastic jewelry. -
* You remember when there was no Barney -
* You can name all the ninja turtles and all the first and last names of the characters from Saved By the Bell. -
* Your barbie house was the one made of cardboard and had a plasticelevator.
* Punky Bruister -- what a babe!!!!ahh. eighties/ early nineties. gotta love it.
11:16:22 PM
ok well the astros game was kinda fun i guess, but since im not all that interested in baseball and everything it was kinda boring. but whatever. it was better than sitting around bored at home, and possibly babysitting my sister.i dont know what im doing tomorrow but i want to do something fun and away from my house.
10:47:57 PM
friday, last day of the last full week of school for the 2000-2001 school year. today some seniors decided it was time for a senior prank. a great number of pigeons were found in the halls sometime before ten and this caused first period to be further extended and for the third floor hall to be blocked off during passing from first to second. although there are many better things that they could have done, i thought this was pretty funny, except i heard that all of the birds ended up dying so thats not cool. whatever.in chemistry we tried to make mrs grimm let us go to house of pies by telling her it was 'mrs grimm appreciation day' and that we would pay for her food, but she wouldnt go for it. she said we can bring food on the last day though so i guess we are doing that.
in german we had to write fairy tales, eighteen to twenty sentences. it was really hard to think of what to write, but we got to use our books and whatever to help us with the german so it was ok. i ended up making mine about a girl who really loves shoes and she heard about a special pair that she had to find hidden in the mountains but the evil king wanted the shoes himself so he tried to stop her but she got the shoes in the end with the help of a little bird. the story is good i guess, but i doubt that my grammar was all correct. oh well.
tonight i am going to the astros game with my dad and brother and grandfather. random, yes, but i dont think i have anything else to do so why not? the last time i was at enron was with kim and a bunch of middle school boys and everyones favorite girl, MARY. aahhh. that was in like september. whatever.
4:59:01 PM
lalala. friends, will&grace, and er finales. good, good. lots of nice little dangling things to bring everyone back in september. gotta love it.my brother is being really upseting today.
im tired.
10:26:58 PM
uh, ok. scaryness. coming home and finding lots of worker men all over the front of your house is a strange thing. at least when you arent expecting it. and when you are alone, its actually somewhat scary. these people are strangers and for all i know they could come try to kill me. am i paranoid? perhaps, but that also sounds like something you would hear about on the news...whatever.seven years in tibet is a very strange movie. we are watching it in geography. at first it was hard to get into it and pay attention, but then, due to a lack of anything else to do, i started watching it. its actually ok, but everyone is obsessing about how great brad pitt looks, but i dont think he looks that wonderful. but thats just me. maybe its because his hair reminds me of leonardo dicaprio, who i absolutely can not stand.
i dont want to do gas law problems. and tomorrow we have to be in chemistry for two whole hours because of end-of-course testing. death. but at least part of research will be cut off. i really dont like that class. mrs hobbs makes NO sense whatsoever. errrrr.
4:06:55 PM
ok so i am doing all the fun ibdc stuff. i know im excited...um not really. but whatever. my mom also suggested that i take english or something during the summer just to get it over with, so perhaps ill do that. get it over with and out of the way. i hate english. blah. whatever.i have done absolutely nothing homework related this afternoon. somehow, with it being so close to finals and all, i think there should have been something i needed to be doing. but i havent done a single thing. oh well. i have the omam test tomorrow, but you know, those tests are never that hard so im not too worried. a quick look-through of my worksheets at the beginning of class and im sure ill do fine. ugh. ive had at least one test every day this week, but i think im clear for friday. the algebra test today, rumored to be really hard, wasnt actually that bad. either that, or i did terribly on it. again i was the first one to turn it in. i HATE doing that, but you can only look over ten problems so many times. with that stuff, its either you know how to do it or you have no clue. sitting there forever is not going to help. i currently have like a ninetyfive or something so i should be fine no matter what i get as long as its passing(which every other one of my tests in there have been, so itll be ok).
ok. enough about school.
9:49:02 PM
"you are not in hollywood, and too much lipstick makes the german boys nervous."so we got schedules today. about half of mine is ok, the rest, im not sure. for one thing, i am NOT taking bio2. i would rather die. so that needs to go to physics. the other ones in not sure about are electives. currently i have tok, art history, and engineering graphics. im not even 100% sure that i am/want to be ibdc so i need to make that decision veryvery soon so i can get out of tok if im not. and for art history, like it would be interesting and everything, but its a lot of work and id rather DO art than learn about it. and then engineering graphics. i definitely want to take a class with shep, but i dont think thats the one i want. i need to talk to him about it tomorrow but i think i can take construction next year, or cad. i want to try something different besides just the drawing, even if its all related and the engineering is different from architectural. so i need to make these changes and then everything will be ok. as ive heard, a full ib junior year is harder than hell, but ive also heard they are combining regular and advanced next year and i already know i am way beyond that.
but if i am gonna be ibdc then that means another added thing called cas. um, thats like a hell of a lot of work write there. doing the stuff isnt that bad, but the documentation crap is insane. and griffith seems really obsessive about it, which is kinda funny, but it also means you have to do everything EXACTLY perfect. which i guess everyone in his class already knows. whatever. i need to decide about this NOW. arg. i dont know.
5:04:23 PM
tests are not fun. and all the teachers decided it would be good to give us lots and lots of them right now before we take finals which are even more tests and they are even longer and more ridiculous than ever. but whatever. because in sixteen days there will be no more school for a long time! yay. at least sort of yay.
6:51:21 PM
argh. all day i had things floating around in my head to write down in here but now i can only remember one or two things and i know there were more. oh well, maybe they will come to me.one thing is that sister wendy is really really disturibing. we had to watch a video of her talking about modernism today in art and ahhh. that lady is frightening. the mac loves her though.
also i realized today that for my first four finals, i will be in the first class for each class for each teacher. first i have chemistry and since its the first one, obvioulsy its the first class. fifth i have english and the ryan doesnt have a first period so that means we are first. the sinor does have a first period and its the same test, but since its not the same teacher i decided it doesnt count. second i have research and the hobbs only has that class second, fourth and eighth, so again, i am in the first class. and that is the one where we have to do a stupid seminar. that still really pisses me off. anyway, sixth i have architecture and we are the first class to be taking that final cuz the other class that is the same as our is third and they dont take it until the next day. and then for my last four, i will be in the last class taking those tests. third is german, and the three other people who are in a different period are in second period so they will have taken it before us. seventh is art and actually im not sure, she may have a fourth period that is art one and if so my class is second ot last but if fourth period is something else then we are last. fourth i have algebra and all her other ib classes will have already taken it by then. and finally eighth is geography and obviously since that is the last one, we will be the last class.
thats just some randomness. you can tell i have too much time to sit around and think about the most random things all day. whatever. i cant remember what else i was going to write about. that seems to be quite a reoccuring problem lately. oh well.
6:21:23 PM
conair is a good movie. nicolas cage is a good actor. these things make me happy. the fact that i watched that movie instead of studying for my world geography test does not make me happy. but life goes on. besides, world geography isnt until last period tomorrow and i can use the rest of the day unitl then to study. right? yes. and if not, too bad for me.
10:26:03 PM
blah. another boring day at school. but this is our last full week of classes for this year! almost out, almost out. and then in another three months we will be back again with more work and more boredom and everything. i know im excited. except, no.there was something i was going to say, but i forgot what it was. oh well.
5:03:34 PM
hmm. well i went ot the beach with my family. that was exciting, let me tell you. i read three magazines, listened to six and a half cds, and watched about four movies. fight club was the only one that was good. charlies angels sucked immensely, which is why i never saw it in the theater. whatever. i cant think of anything else worth writing so theres that and now im doing something else.
9:32:02 PM
well here i am, awake already, its not even seven thirty and i was up til at least midnight last night. why can i never sleep late on the weekends, but when its a school day i dont want to get up at all? oh well. and this morning waking up was really great. i could not open my right eye at all until after i went and soaked it with warm water. that is a really strange feeling, to only be able to open one eye. but now its ok and the brokenness of it seems to be going away. so thats good.
7:26:39 AM
hahahahahaha. we got kicked out of pop show. i think that is really funny. at the time i was very afraid because i did not want to get in trouble and i was very upset about having to pay seven stupid dollars for only about half of it and most of it was not all that super. i wasnt even doing anything bad to need to be kicked out but because we were sitting by moe and these other guys who were being really loud, we all got kicked out. now its really funny though.
10:36:13 PM
aaahhh. guess what happened when i got into world geo...i was putting my backpack on the floor and felt something falling off my arm. i glanced down at the desk and there was the schlitterbahn thing. it finally broke and fell off. two months short of a year, thats too bad. but i still have the art car ball one so its ok.
4:37:46 PM
uhhhhh. my eye is broken. it makes me really unhappy. i dont know what wrong with it, but my mom put some drops in it and it seems a little better so who knows. i want to go see a knight's tale but marcos said i should go see the pop show tonight so i guess ill do that but i have to get a ticket and they might be sold out....whatever.random things:
last night after i got out of the shower i got a towel off the shelf and began drying myself off. then i noticed that i was covered in cat hair from the towel. um, gross. so then i had to get back in the shower and wash off the cat hair and then get a new towel. i dont know why there was cat hair on the towel that was supposed to be clean.
this morning i had nothing to do before my carpool came so i decided to download some songs. i got eleven songs between six thirty and seven fifteen and i could have gotten more if i could have thought of some i wanted and how to spell them so i could actually find them. in that amount of time i wouldnt even be able to get one whole song on my old computer. this is why we love the new comp, even if it isnt a mac.
elias said they are having a sale on converses tomorrow at academy. i want to go! i hope they really are having a sale and that they have lots of colors, not just black, white, and blue like when i went before. i want to have lots and lots of pairs of different colors. they are the greatest shoes ever. and that is why my research paper for stupid old hobberoo is about them.
4:33:37 PM
yay. today is the birthday of erin hazel and we went to tcby for a fun bday surprise except i missed the surprising part because i had to walk there from my house and i went to walgreens first to buy a present but oh well. it was still great fun. helen, anne, kristi, elizabeth, rachel, hallie, chris, marcos, lillian, erin schnitz, and jost were there too besides me and the hazel. the people at doodles(next to tcby) got really upset because they didnt like us standing around near their store or something. and then chris decided that a drive-by mooning was in order so they tried to do it in hallies car, but they kinda screwed it up but whatever. later we were just standing around and all these people kept telling us we were too loud and that we had to leave so finally we did and we went around to the back of eckerds and waited for some parentals to come.now it is one hour until all of my fun favorite shows on the nbc channel. but i dont think i have any homework so i shall waste away my time here in front of the computero. fun fun fun.
6:09:37 PM
go here to see my webcam. it is rather random and i look really stupid, but whatever. im still figuring this thing out.
5:53:24 PM
blah. today was a pretty boring day at school. we had a random sophomore assembly where some guy talked about how drinking and driving is bad. but see, in my opinion, everyone who already doesnt drink just sat there and said "yeah i know. drinking is bad" and were thoroughly bored, while the people who do drink just let all the information go in one ear and straight through out the other(they dont have many brain cells left anyway so the information just shoots on through...) so overall it was pretty pointless. but at least they are trying.
9:50:06 PM
haha. i am figuring this out. yay. and i have a web cam! woo hoo. fun fun.
7:24:52 PM
aaaaahhhh. i have no clue how to work this computer!!!! it is making me very upset. well i know some things, but mostly i am a very VERY confused duck.
4:17:17 PM
today it is my birthday. i am sixteen. and it was not a bad day. last night i was being very pessimistic and cynical but today i am happier. helen gave me brownies at school and lillian and erin haze gave me cards so that was fun. then the grimm made everyone sing to me in chemistry. and a lot of people said happy birthday to me, but some of them i think it was only because they wanted my brownies. also we got yearbooks today and that makes two years in a row that ive gotten it on my birthday. thats kinda fun. then we got shakes in carpool and i came home and looked at my yearbook for a bit until people came over for present opening and stuff. the best present ever is a thing called MY OWN NEW COMPUTER and tomorrow they are coming to hook up the cable connection. i know most people are going to think i am insane, but i like that more than a car right now since i am stupid and uncapable of driving. a car would do me no good whatsoever right now, but a new computer...oooh thats fun. but its not a mac so i dont know about that...it will take some getting used to i suppose. but hey it is a computer and it is new and it is MINE and it goes in my room and i get new fast good connection that is not crap and not only stupid 28.8k and i am so happy. then we went and ate dinner at ninfas and they came and sang and put icing on my face and my sister covered her ears because they were too loud and all the other random people there looked at me funny. but i dont care because i got a computer!hahahahahahaha.
9:33:14 PM
arg. stupid stupid stupid. i dont understand what is going on with me. well in a way i do, but in other ways i dont. since i got home from school i have cried at least five times. there really is no reason for it and it makes it seem like i have serious problems. im feeling a bit better now, but i still feel the possibility of more tears. i think i am just way too stressed out and i really can not handle it being my birthday tomorrow. there are only a few parts i am looking forward to and the rest of it makes me feel terribly upset. but i have to deal with it anyway. whatever.
10:25:58 PM
blah. i am so tired and also i am ill. it is not a good thing. i am not happy. and tomorrow is my birthday dammit. is it too much to ask to be blissfully happy on your birthday? when you are me, apparently it is. cuz right now all i want to do it cry and i dont have a fucking clue why.
4:54:38 PM
"NO! THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT YOU!"
10:28:16 PM
its random. for so long ive been listening almost exclusively to country(93q and then kikk), but then around the time of the everclear concert i switched my alarm clock radio back to alternative rock stuff(the buzz) but still listened to country on my stereo. now i still really like all the country and everything, but im starting to really really like some of the other stuff again. and theres nothing wrong with this, but it just makes things harder in some ways because i have to decide which station to listen to or which cd or whatever and that means there is a much larger selection of cds and stuff that i want now which in turn means more money i have to spend and so on. and i dont even listen to my cds that much, which is kinda bad. i mean ill spend fifteen dollars or however much on a cd and listen to it for a few days and then probably not again for months, unless its my latest obsession and then ill listen to it for a few weeks until i get tired of it or something. and yet i still want to buy all these cds, just to have them i guess. the thing is, its easy to listen to the radio because you dont have to decide what to play because they do it all for you, but at the same time, if you listen to cds you can pick exactly what you listen to and you dont have to hear stuff you dont like. in this situation, as with many things, laziness(radio) usually wins.can we tell that im avoiding bed because i am pretending that if i dont go to bed, morning wont come and i wont have to go to school? if you couldnt tell, well im letting you know, thats basically what im doing.
10:26:41 PM
ughhhhh. i was on this really great like high happiness since about tuesday but i started crashing this morning and it sucks. i do not want to go back to school. i had a little breakaroo and it was just like a teaser for the summer but now i have to go back to school and do tons and tons of work and take evil tests and ugh. im going to die. i can not concentrate on anything at all. i think this feeling should pass pretty soon, once i am thrown back into the routine of school, but for right now, i am not feeling real great. everything makes me feel like crying. and my birthday is the day after tomorrow. you are supposed to be happy on your birthday, especially your sixteenth. stupid mind and all its complexities and shit that make me get depressed. argh.
10:13:19 PM
the eyc party was kinda random. it was at brians house and we just sat around and talked and ate burgers and stuff for a while. there were more adults there than kids, but that was ok. the people there were me, francesca, andrew edelman, brian, matthew, andrew jewett, jeb, some random girl named karina who is edelmans girlfriend or something, katie, kim, todd, kevin, alison, greg, and like four peoples parents. when kim and todd got there alison made them tell the story of the proposal and it was really cute. i think the best part is that he bought the ring all the way back last june and waited this whole time until she was really ready. thats just so..i cant even think of the word to describe it, but its amazingly cool. they are so perfect together.
9:54:13 PM
my birthday is sooon, sooooooon. today is the birthday of the wonderful george clooney. i am very tired and all i want to do is sleep right now, but i need to look over my notes for the aild essay. and i also need to do some other homework but i dont want to do it. not at all. but i need to. ugh. at least im going to a party at six. but i need to try to sleep before that or i will be too tired.
2:36:14 PM
today was the special sunday at church where they honor all of the graduating seniors. before it i was trying to think of who the seniors were and i could only think of a few, but like always there were many others who rarely actually come to church, but are members so they were there too. after the service i talked to a bunch of people outside, like sam who had his prom last night and got home at six thirty and then had to leave for church at eight thrity. kim was also there so i talked to her for a few minutes and later i listened to matthew explain all this weird stuff about genetics and bone growth to kevin. i dont even know how that conversation got started, but it was random.now i have to do all this homework and stuff to get caught up from the two days i missed and everything. ugh. im too tired and i cant concentrate on that kind of stuff. i havent had to do any stuff like this for like four days and for some reason it is incredibly hard to get back into it. oh well.
1:34:11 PM
aaaaahhhh. waco was so great. i really had a lot of fun and i made some great new friendaroos: geoffrey/geoff/ge-off, justyn/tappy, johnathan/little wanker, michael/mike, albert, sarah, phillip/wanker junior, and a bunch of others. i knew most of these people before, but not really. but when you are around people almost constantly for three days and you are working together to get stuff done and everything, you really get to have a special closeness feeling. or something. im rambling.im sure no one cares, but im going to write a little thing about what we did because i want to. thursday morning we met at school at the normal school starting time and a lot of last minute stuff had to be done and we had to load up the trucks and everything. we left around ten thirty(only an hour after we were scheduled to, which i was told was a good thing) and i rode in a van with geoff, justyn, johnathan, anthony and mr. houston. it is quite a lengthy drive to waco(at least three and a half to four hours) to be squished in the back seat of a ford windstar. but anyway, after a while(around noon) we arrived in the *big city* of calvert to eat at dairy queen. having been suddenly struck with my reoccuring problem of not being able to eat anything(i.e. most of last years mission trip) i only had a chocolate shake, prompting geoff and justyn to repeatedly accuse me of being anorexic. i am NOT anorexic. so then we walked around outside for a few minutes and then loaded back into the vans. by two fortyfive we were at the waco holiday inn. but we were early than we were supposed to be so we all sat around by the pool while shep(mr. sheppard) and t(mr. taylor) tried to get the rooms. eventually(i think it was like four something) we all went up to room 402 and we found out what was going on. that room would be the one where the computers were going to be set up(they were brought for various reasons, mainly to plot out some last minute drawings and so the guys could play games) and thats where geoff, justyn, mike, albert, and johnathan were going to be staying. luckily it was a big room, but with only one bed and a couch, it probably wasnt big enough for five guys, but there wasnt that much sleep taking place anyway. then they told us there were eight other rooms for the remaining twenty four students. at first what they told us was that we would have to be five or six to a room, but then it was only going to be about three. everyone else had like just the right number of friends there to pick their roommates, but the only people i really knew previously were guys(and they were already in the main computer room) so um who was i supposed to share a room with? but then it was only me and sarah left so we went together and were assigned to room 114. stuff was unloaded from the trucks and everyone went in their rooms. some people went swimming and whatever but i wasnt feeling really great(and also i dont like swimming) so i just laid on the bed and watched random shows like "full house". later we all returned to 402 for a meeting about what was going to happen next. dinner was the next activity, but since i wasnt feeling like eating would even be a possibility i stayed in the room and watched tv some more. i eventually decided i had to eat something so i went to the vending machine down the hall and got some cheez-its and famous amos cookies. the people who had gone out ot eat came back and another meeting was called, so back to 402 we went. this time it was about what everyone wanted to do for the rest of the night. sarah and i decided to watch E.R. and then johnathan and mike came down and invited us to watch them play spades with shep and t. so we went into t and wilburs room and they played and we, along with albert, cristina, belinda and wilbur watched them play and that random blind date show. finally, after two or three games of spades(and mike and albert switching places and johnathan getting really mad because albert didnt play how he did) we all decided to go to bed, or at least back to our own rooms. sarah and i actually did go to sleep pretty soon after that, around midnight, but we heard later that the guys in 402 hardly slept at all. i think most of them had about fortyfive minutes because shep called everyone around five or five thirty because his clock was an hour fast and he wasnt really supposed to have woken us up until six. then it was time to get ready and load up for breakfast at ihop by seven. we didnt actually all get there until seven thirty but it took them that long to make room for us all. i still wasnt feeling capable of eating so i was further accused of being anorexic, but i protested and after a while they left me alone about it. justyn had his digital video/still camera with him so he was taking picture and little videos of stuff like the weird waitresses and geoff with him knowing it. the way things were set up, about half of us were finished completely before others had even started so a bunch of us went to sit in our van and listen to music. it was justyn, wanker, geoff, me, mike, and sarah and then albert came and after a few minutes of keeping him locked out we let him in too. everyone was so tired we all just laid there and listened to music and some people tried to nap a little before we headed to the convention center. finally everyone was ready so we left ihop and got to the convention center to sumbit all of the work for the contest. we were there for a long time. i dont remeber when we got there, probably about nine thirty, and we didnt leave until at least twelve thirty, but it seemed a lot longer than tha since so much was going on. there was a competiton called on-site that geoff, mike, and wanker were supposed to participate in but shep told them the wrong time to go so they didnt get to do it. but because we werent sure about whether they could or not for a while, we had to haul the computers and the plotter back and forth FOUR times and it was not a short distane. at least there was a dolly and the plotter has wheels, but still. that was frustrating, especially for the three guys. after learning for certain that they could not do it, we just got to do whatever we wanted for about thirty minutes. a bunch of us walked over to this bridge that geoff and justyn climbed on and walked around on about fifteen feet up. before it was time to go back, justyn decided/was persuaded to jump down onto the bridge. after about five minutes of thinking and prepartion, he finally did it and was successful in not breaking anything. we went back to the convention center and met up with the rest of the group at the bottom of the stairs. when almost everyone was there, we were ready to leave and the sponsors brought the vans around so we could go back to the hotel. but wanker junior was missing. no one knew where he was and they had him paged several times but he still never showed up. after a long time mike and sarah finally found him and we went back to the hotel, but shep wasnt there when he was found so we had to wait for him to get to the hotel because the guys had to get the computers from his truck. so some of us sat and talked by the pool until he came and they got the comps and we(me, sarah, geoff, justyn, mike, albert, hector, and the wankers) went and hung out in 402 for the afternoon. geoff, justyn, mike, and johnathan played this really *great* game called carmageddon against each other on the four computers that were all linked together and the rest of us watched tv. then a great pillow fight or something broke out between sarah, the wankers, and mike and that was some craziness there and i got people thrown at my head because i was sitting at the end of the bed. so we did that from like two to five thitry when we were told we had to be dressed up and ready for dinner in thirty minutes. rush, rush, everyone got ready and we took pictures in the parking lot with the sun in our eyes. everyone was dressed fairly nicely, guys with collared shirts and nice pants, girls in skirts or dresses, and we got in the vans and where did we go? outback steakhouse. we were the only people dressed that well but that was because we were expecting to go to a much fancier steakhouse, but things changed. so we ate lots of food(i only had some mashed potatoes, but most people had steak and stuff) including justyns steak that was so rare it moved like jello when you touch it with a fork. rare steak is not cool. geoff and justyn told me they were going to teach me all of this stuff that was going to make me crazy like them and i was like ok whatever, but they never actually did that. oh well. after we left the restaurant, some people went to the movies and some to a special tsa dance, and the rest of us(all of the ones who were in 402 all afternoon) stayed at the hotel. the wankers came and stole all of the pillows from me and sarahs room so we had to go up and get them back and then we went up to 402 and watched the matrix and more carmageddon and quake 2 playing and most crazy pillow fighting ensued. although the stated rule was no mixed company after ten, sarah and i stayed up there until at least twelve, but shep knew it and he knew it was fine so it was ok. when we got back to our room we watched look whos talking too and mike and albert came down for a while. albert left after about thirty minutes but mike stayed. i fell asleep about one and i woke up for no reason at six. i was surprised to see that mike was still there, but he must have fallen asleep too so whatever. after not having received the official wake-up call from shep, we called around and found out we needed to meet at seven. so we met in sheps room and talked about the days plans and then they told us we werent leaving until nine thirty. i woke up way too early. oh well. so sarah and i watch the blue lagoon until it was time to leave, but i kept feeling really bad so i thought that it was not a good thing, but i got over the sick feelings and was ok. we finally left for dennys, but once we got there, we had to wait a while for seats. once we got in and ordered i got some bacon and i was able to eat it with no problems so that was good. wanker and mike decided that i wasnt really anorexic because if i had been, i would not have chosen bacon as something to eat. after that meal we walked around outside some more and played with a bouncy ball and listened to random south park mexican music(not cool). when we left there, we went to the convention center again to collect the projects and prizes and everything. we had to wait a long time for everything to be sorted and then we loaded up the trucks again and we were finally ready to leave. we pulled away from the convention center at about three thirty, houston being our destination, by way of the calvert dairy queen. one of the vans got lost so that delayed us a little and then there was a ton of terrible rain and stuff so that made for slow going as well. we all finally got to dairy queen and this time i got some fries(also not an anorexic food choice) and we hung out there for a while. there were some really loud and annoying middle school kids who had been at the competition too and they all had to stand around and wait until there were seats for them. when we left there we still had a couple of hours until houston and me, geoff, and justyn(the only ones still in the car with mr. houston) dozed most of the way, as we had on the way to dairy queen, and listend to music. we got to school at about seven thirty, with two other vans and shortly followed by a fourth. the fifth van and shep were still behind but eventualyl they showed up too. we unloaded the whole truck, which took at least thirty minutes and wasnt that easy since it was raining, and finally it was time to go home.
i probably left something out but that was really long and im sure it was boring to everyone.
10:29:50 PM
"culver palms" by colorfinger is great. it is the same words as "why i dont believe in god" by everclear(cuz colorfinger was arts old band) but the music is a mite different and i like it a ton. i think, download, download.
6:54:13 PM
hahaha. i dont have to do homework tonight because i dont have to go to school until monday. well, like, i have to go to the place of school cuz we are leaving for waco at 930 but we dont have to go to class before that so that is good. it is going to be a really random little adventure, but i think it should be fun so thats good. and hey, its two days of no school and three days of no annoying siblings. yay for the magical waco adventure!
6:31:50 PM
today is may day! hooray, hooray! may day is really great fun. the party at helens was tons and tons of fun but now my mother says it is late and i must go to bed so i guess i shall have to record the funnesses at a later time. my mother also said "tut, tut" and that makes me afraid. but anyway."rachel is mad because she thinks i stole her bathing suit, but they are not the same. i mean hers is from j. crew and mine is designer!" -- hallie wimb
10:37:05 PM
blah. i tried to look over my geo notes for a minute, but after a page or two i decided that was too boring and i dont care. so im not going to study. i doubt itll be that neccessary anyway. with that stuff you can usually just guess and get a pretty good grade anyway. whatever.i am so bored. i dont feel like doing any of the things i need to do. i only want to sit around and be lazy and try to download random stuff from napster but it takes like thirty years per song so....its kinda boring too.
9:09:29 PM
my brother makes me soooo upset! he insults me and throws things at me and whatever else he feels like constantly and and then if i ever open my mouth in a slightly negatvie way about him then he acts like a little baby and tells 'mommy' and everything. and its usually because i indirectly imply that he is stupid, which i apparently am FORBIDDEN from saying because its true. which makes no sense at all since he can call me fat and stupid and gay and ugly and anything else all day long and no one does anything. shut up. i hate him.
4:36:02 PM
yayyyy. we finished our book and it is super. the ennis will love it and we will get a great grade on it.
4:31:22 PM
confirmation day, confirmation day. the service is way too long. everyone falls asleep and stuff. they should not make it so long. but whatever.boredom. i need to do some algebra homework and probably some other things too, but that sounds really boring. i also need to call kalie so we can try to finish our project since we got practically nothing done yesterday.
blah blah blah.
1:15:52 PM
random random. i am bored. i need to either sleep or go work on the geo drawings. blaaaah. instead ill sit here and do nothing.
11:26:12 PM
hows this for a random mix:papa roach
mark mcguinn
alan jackson
robert earl keen
jessica andrews
george strait
the soggy bottom boys
tommy tutone
the muppets
sawyer browm
charlie robison
garth brooks
the offspring
duncan sheik
the eagles
savage garden
travis tritt
old 97s
josie and the pussycats
lila mccann
the beatles
shawn mullins
the impossibles
fuel
outkast
alabama
adam carroll
roger creager
randy travis
bbmak
john anderson
leann rimes
3:54:49 PM
the snocone thing wasnt that bad but it was really hot. after i finished my shift with the snocones i walked around with brents and rachel aubach(or however you spell that) and we saw random people from lamar that were probably just at diedrichs and then they said "look, the are doing something at lanier, lets go". it was great. and then i saw mrs crowley so i talked to her for a minute. i tried to find some other teachers like mrs zembek but i never saw any others.i need to call the kaliearoo so we can draw our geo pictures.
3:16:02 PM
ok, is it just me or do the songs "pretty fly for a white guy" and "original prankster" by the offspring sound almost EXACTLY the same? i mean, obviously the words are the same, but like the music and everything is veryvery similar. just an observation for the morning.i get to go sell snocones in like thirty minutes. how fun. but brents will be there too cuz she is painting faces so i can go say hello hello to her. brents is good.
10:15:27 AM
here are some answers to questions i am tired of answering:no, it is not a real tattoo.
no, i have not been in the hospital.
yes, you may call me 'haloise' if it pleases you to do so(and you pronounce it correctly).
yes, i will try to help you with whatever work you do not understand, but i can not guarantee that i will know what to do either.
9:58:47 PM
i went to kalies house again today and we finished writing our story. it is so random and great. our book is gonna be super.
7:05:50 PM
kelly has requested a blog. i wanted to write something random or funny or at least not exceedingly boring but i cant think of anything that fits that description.i am going to "family picnic night" at my sisters school in like thirty minutes. big fun. lots of children under five running around like they are crazy. and then after that i am going to the art car ball. woo woo woo. that actually will be fun.
um...i need to finish my everclear layout. but i dont have time right now. theres a ton to do on it still, namely thinking of what im doing with it...whatever.
on saturday i get to sell snocones at lanier for an hour and a half. WHY did i tell cuz that i would do that? that does not sound fun. it will make me really upset. but oh well.
i have to go make the vcr work so i can record all the great newnesses of friends and ER and everything in between.
5:25:44 PM