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how can i not blog about this. i know that my family is safe, and that puts some rest to this insane feeling my heart and head is going thru. i awoke this morning with the tv on, and my morning show had just jumped into "BREAKING NEWS", The World Trade Center is on fire. Then..... The World Trade Center has apparently been hit by an aircraft. At this time, i was like WOAh! i was just there for Easter! My aunt and uncle work 5 blocks from there. THEY WALK TO WORK (and train) EVERYDAY. i run awake my dad, then run into see sean. I look at the tv and there RIGHT in front of my eyes, on live tv, i viewed this picture that will not get out of my head....a plane targets the 2nd tower and crashes right thru the building. THEN the Pentagon. OHMIGOD! WHAT IS HAPPENING?

I am a religious person, who doesn't speak of faith often. Today that changed. I am not one to minister or to preach. I am usually not one to talk about my religious beliefs, but today i held nothing back. BECAUSE NO ONE KNOWS what will happen and who will be effected. Today everyone in America is somewhat effected.

Lines to buy gas are insane. We went to Lowes and everyone is buying flags. My work is sending out emails to donate blood. I guess if anything else was a result of today it shows that power of americans and their compassion. People are flying their flags high showing that America will not be defeated. Americans are giving their blood to help save lives. New Yorkers are gathering together volunteering their LIVES to help save the injured. AnD HEY maybe all this sale of gas will help boost the economy:D (optimistic thinkin')

We spent the day in shock with Sean's parents, step-sis and grandparents. (fortunately his grandparents are in town). We sat around and thought about how good our lives are and how other countries must feel when this happens to them almost daily.

This post probebly doesn't make sense. i am just typing and not worried about editing, b/c i am not perfect and thats okay b/c somethings just don't matter. all of my worries and problems are so small.

"These acts shattered steel, but they cannot dent the steel of American resolve.'' -George W. Bush, president
posted at 11:08 PM

oiboi, fun fun life is just that joyus thing. its amazing the headaches that come. and i am so tired. i am physically dead at this point. the house still isn't there. i just want some sanity.

well seany's sis and niece and grandparents are in town. they are all so lovely. and i really truely mean that. his grandparents are so full of life and love. i can't wait to grow old with sean and end up just like them. i hope that i am that nice and loving. Sean's sister is a sweetie. we use to be such good buddies, i miss her! and little ashleigh is a year 1/2 and she is all grown up. she knows what she wants and she knows what she doesn't want. soo cute. ill post pics soon!. actually here is one of sean and ashleigh when she was a wee-one:

Uncle Seany & Ashleigh (i think she is 10 months in this pic)

Here is Tawni! She is such a nut!

Ashleigh, playing with her phone

sean is in a bad mood. i know he is stressed and yadda yadda. i am finding out that if i am stressed and he is stressed, i can just forget about ever getting an apology or us remotely being in a loving mood. we are short with each other and i think we both need sleep. LOTS of sleep in a comfy bed without boxing piled up all around us. and yes it will all be over soon, it will all be over soon. anyways, that has been my weekend. i plan on working working working all week at work. i miss it, i have been trying not to think about it and focusing on this thing called moving. i took a break for a few hours today and surfed around thru work email, trying to get caught up and that jazz. all will be well i know it will, just takes a little time and prayer and LOTS of prayer heh..

:D
this is a good one:

It's always something . . .-Gilda Radner
posted at 11:46 PM

sleep? whats that? i am in such a state of exhaustion that i can't yawn and i dont know what i am typing. oh boy it was a long long day. its all good i guess, just long and complicated and too much to do to much to decide and to much too much. i did make myself relax for the 1 hour i take out of the day to watch days of our lives, the view, oprah and passions. we got this neato tivo type thing on the satellite that is super spiffy. i record each of them everyday and skip thru the commercials. its a compulision if thats a word, of mine. or habit, yeah well routine is more like it. well jan got raped by paul, who is nikki's dad at camp and kevin and mimi almost did it and belle and philip are getting to friendly, and good ol' shawn comes to the rescue of them all. penelope and susan are jealous of mimi b/c they want kevin for themselves... oHKAY i am OFFICIALLY pathetic, and tired. so ignore what i am writeing and im going night so NIGHT
posted at 2:53 AM

im somehow for someGODONLYKNOWSreason i am still awake. today was nuts, just like every other day, oh for the past week. i want down time! soon soon please PLEASE soon. i am taking friday off to pack, thanks to the folks that are OH so nice at my work, and then sometime next week to close on this house, and then WaHoO. we finished all the selections for the new home today, and i am STOkeD! so happy can't wait, just wanna move right on in, despite the fact that it will be empty for the first few years :D but it will be home!

need sleep!

posted at 12:30 AM

work work work... work work work... work work work... work is good work is the best work is its 1:49am and i am still working, im trying to learn this content management system, which i get, but its just taking TOO MUCH TIME to implement, and plus, this place is reeking of pizza and i have the downstairs almost packed from sunday, which means boxes upon boxes of crud. oh lovely. but tomorrow i get to wake up at 6:30 and goto work!! wahoo! haha :D MUST REMAIN POSITIVE!!!

"Life is what we make of it, and the world is what we make it. The eyes of the cheerful and of the melancholy man are fixed upon the same creation, but very different are the aspects which it bears to them." -Albert Pike
posted at 1:50 AM

okeeeeeeeeee dokeeeeeeeeeee i am EXHAUSTED, but its all good, thanks to a venti-mocha-frap frum....where-else. StarBux (im in frisco peep, there is no such thing as original here, we are total franchise. we have 5 starbux within half a mile from one another, lets see 1 park/preston, next stonebriar mall >> 1 barnes & noble (so what their cafe counts :), and 1 downstairs in the center, then just go up the escalator, and you have another one), 1 in supah target (YES target with a starbux), and now one OUTside of target in the same damn parking lot, but see... THIS ONE is DRIVE thru for all of us lazy peep or in a hurry peep. anyways, work work work.

my sis and i packed the majority of the day, then went to our fave restaraunt, then i headed home where i have been working for the last 5 hours.. now i will sleep till 9 am and wake up to work my normal j-o-b. which is all good. i need the accumulated time off!

im outie and time for nighty night!
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"There is no great achievement that is not the result of patient working and waiting." -Josiah Holland
posted at 2:50 AM

hmmmph.. so i went to bed ohhh.. at 4am or so this morning, and was eagerly awoken 3 times by the teley ringing. but good news was on the other side on the line! we got an offer on the house, that i think we are going to accept. so WooofreeekinHOO!! :D i knew we would get an offer soon, its just a pain waiting and stuff ya knowZ?

bobo had to go back to my dad's today. we went and played with the other doggys, then went to breakfest. so we goto breakfast at this little run down place, and MY brother walks in the door. its so just odd:

i grew up in this (then tiny, now mid-sized) town called Allen. They town itself is just so cheersy-know what i mean (everybody knows your name.....). i know that if i am in the town i am bound to see someone i know, which is good & bad considering what a bitch i was in high school ;) Yesterday, the waiter at the restaraunt me and amy went to, me and him went to school together, i drive down the road and there is SOMEONE i have once known. its just odd, so almost mayberry, maybe updated mayberry. its just weird... i just feel sorry for seany. :D

I think this suits me best for today:
"[about the past] ...the way I see it, you can either run from it,
or learn from it. -Rafikki to Simba in Disney's The Lion King
posted at 12:41 PM