Monday, September 17, 2001

damn, internet boyfriend strikes again. bam!
gone crazy with thoughts of where ive been and where i am now and the galactic differences between them. how the hell did i get here? where the hell have i been? what the hell am i doing? cant stop thinking about a year in the life. so good to see people that you havent seen in ages. so good to have personal landmarks. nothing is predictable. nobody knows. for the first time ever not even mom knows what is going on.
been flipped upside down. personal life reflects world changes. the personal is political. everything i think is feminism. everything i want is art. all i want to do is speak truth just once.
miss everyone. feel like everyone spreading out and about is a little from column a. and a little from column b. makes the world look a lot smaller and more inviting and comfortable but makes the small and personal feel as though it is missing elements.
fixated on oppression, gender roles and systems of power. imagery includes intertwined guts, endless, winding roads, american cornfields, america the beautiful.
my autistic cousin must be going crazy with all the flags everywhere. that's his fixation.
visions of specific intersections calling me home. cant shake them. setting sun hitting asphalt. used to be safe and sorry. used to not have anything to worry about. used to have routine. used to have one person to think about. fixate on one person and lose all the other imagery.
brain could burst light from every orafice. could gush till the end of time and never dry up.
saw streetlight perspective for the first time in a long time lost in god knows where, wisconsin, with someone who feels good in the passenger seat.
wanna get laid.
"change, shit, i guess change is good for any of us" - 2pac
posted by vic @ 12:47

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Wednesday, September 12, 2001

i have no idea what to think about all of this.
i am so confused over the whole situation that i cant even elaborate more than that.
im really glad im not at nyu.
i just dont know.
posted by vic @ 00:50

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Tuesday, September 11, 2001

This is unbelievable. My mother called my sister sobbing this morning about how worried she was for me. She told me to stay home today. Chicago cars that are downtown are being towed. New York just saw destruction. There really aren't words to describe everything that is going on and I'm not even in the States. Everyone write me, I want to know that you are okay. I love you all.
posted by Stephanie @ 14:36

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