why should i even go to school if i cant finish it anyways? why start when i cant go where i want to go and do what i want?

the monsters have struck again. everything i want or need to do is wrong, so why should i fucking bother? i've been bawling my head off for the last half hour with "Out of This World" on repeat...

theres no point in it anymore. no point in wanting to get an education if i cant advance, because SHE is holding me back. fuck. now im bawling again.

for further journal entries, please - here.

no words can describe this pain inside of me right now. searing. blinding. defeated, thwarted. and all by my own mother.

i think i might puke from all the love she's given me.

im just an unloved fool. fuck everything i am. which is nothing.
posted by jacinda ** on Tuesday, September 18, 2001

i realize that some of the fonts and colours on this new layout are screwed up, but whoever you are you'll just have to suffer as im too tired to care about it right now. i just wanted to get something new up. that last layout shitted me to tears.

i cannot wait for Golden State. it promises not to disappoint, and i need something thats going to be good. fucking war.

sign the book if you've been here. no complaints, please. danke.
posted by jacinda ** on Monday, September 17, 2001

school is supposed to start on the 4th (Tuesday) for me. but i've no idea.

gahh. i miss my roomates. i miss parkside!

nothing else to report.
posted by jacinda ** on Sunday, September 02, 2001

considering that i have to miss the powderfinger/something for kate tour in Australia, (because im a damned american....blech) the "new suburban fables" tour... i found this beautiful despite being horribly disappointed. (about the tour.. not the picture)

bern from powderfinger and paul from something for kate. my two favorite people.... hehe. it made me smile pretty big. its completely beautiful. met one half of this picture, hope to meet the other half one day. (picture courtesy of somethingforkate.com)

powderfinger
something for kate

they just are the best. :)
posted by jacinda ** on Saturday, August 11, 2001

this is the funniest thing i've ever seen in my life. i nearly died from laughing.

Conan O'Brien is my hero. lol.

posted by jacinda ** on Thursday, August 09, 2001

new pictures of me put up today. mostly these are just for Cass. :D but you can enjoy as well.

yay. go me.
posted by jacinda ** on Friday, August 03, 2001

reflected off the window is where you'll stay....

ok, well, i've gotten a start on the lyrics section. yay. go me.

i dont think im going to do a journal entry tonight.. just isn't in me. lots of badness all around me, and even far away in people i love. great. im just great all the way around. had another fight with mum tonight which ended up in some bloodshed for my arms. *sighs*

go download stuff off of "Echolalia", will you? im begging you. it's for your own good.

after you've signed my book, go visit these way better sites :
sar
jane
jen
melanie
trinity
noir
and of course my ubb.

im off to read "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire". this should be interesting.
posted by jacinda ** on Sunday, July 22, 2001