4.1.2001Yes. my site is solely a blog right now. while i try to fix my royally jacked up computer. Ill try to write here everyday. Yeah, whatever, i suck at promises. The reason i really hate teen magazines is the way they incessantly use alliteration, rhyming, and stupid puns. "when it comes to hair care, this color chameleon knows her tinted tresses need some TLC..." BLEH!! i swear im going to puke. Well anyways, i just bought an MP3 player so im dead broke. This sucks. So, i heard strippers can get up to 700 bucks a night? Maybe later.1:39 AM -------------------- 3.28.2001im boring.. we have the most annoying english sub. I want to kill my math teacher. I was thinking about putting calcium carbide in that camel's water and watch her blow up.. but im not that morbid :)5:52 PM
1)Starting time: 5:15 pm 70)What was the last thing that you ate?: popsicle -------------------- 1.17.2001sometimes supporting your family sucks...hehe, im kidding, im not bitching. Its just sometimes im tired, and id like to at least have saturdays off. oh well, its just more experience when i can get a job when theres more than 1 person working or at least more than 3 customers a day. And of course, it means more money for me. I cant lie to myself, i am obsessed with the material world. i love ebay. im obsessed with ebay. They have the coolest stuff there. You can look absolutely any word and find something. speaking of obsessesions, who could not be obsessed with marky mark! He better not marry jordana brewster.
-------------------- 1.1.2001wow. i havent updated in forever. My life has been so busy. i havent been home in a long time. well happy new years to everyone! woohoo! i hope this year will be better. i say that every year. It never happens. actually, its just the opposite. i got thesims from my friend. its a wierd game. very wierd. haha.. i want a laptop so i can update my site on it. that would be cool. well anyways, i finished my layout, but i need to upload it. only problem is that my cute ftp thing isnt working, so i need to download something else.12:46 PM -------------------- 12.10.2000hehe.. i love easter eggs. look at this... http://www.askeviljeeves.co.uk/2:44 PM -------------------- 11.28.2000wow. im in a rut, not just a rut, a hella deep rut. i better shape up. sometimes i feel cursed. no doubt about it.4:38 PM -------------------- 11.19.2000wow. you know what. i didnt fail algebra. Im passing with a 93. rawkin. Once i listened to the same song pretty much 12 hours a day for 3 days straight. Im still not tired of it. I listened to "whats your fantasy" all day today, and i totally hate the song, but im still listening to it. Thank God for Napster. I can listen to a different piece of trash every day! Dont take the IQ test at thespark.com i dont think it ever ends. i went up until 1030, but i stopped actually answering at about 300. Wow, im smarter than you think! Hey, will someone AIM me, if youre actually on! My name is Imjustme25 or SadisticKelli . Im on as Imjustme25 right now, though. I am extremely bored, and i dont want to work.1:38 AM
Damn. I have a research paper due Monday. And i haven't started. And the example has 22 pages. Typed. 12 point font. Oh well, im still a procrastinator, and i dont care. I feel like talking about guys now. So theres this one guy. Sometimes i feel like he thinks im really special, but sometimes, i feel like im just his friend. -------------------- 11.13.2000I only have one thing to loose. Im just holding on like a feather in a breeze. Its so useless5:39 PM -------------------- 11.3.2000most people want thier parents to loosen up, but i just wish my mom would just push me. i have absolutely no self-motivation. this six weeks, my algebra grade dropped like 20 points. i better not fail. that would be soooo humilitating. i mean, i took the entire course and algebra 2. Im totally certified to skip algebra and go straight to geometry, but what will everyone think? im failing algebra, and im skipping a grade? how twisted is that?5:42 PM
i decided im not going to be as passive on here. i am going to whine, rant, and gush my bootie out on here. my eye hurts. well.. its a start. I feel lost. Like im not good enough for my friends, but im too good for them. have you ever felt that way? youre not included in what some of your friends do, but you are just better adjusted, prettier, or more popular? i think im going to buy a domain, but i might not advertise it. i was at one website, and she had links to her friends site, and she had sort of a slpash for them. i dont know whay that convinced me so strongly to get a domain, but for some reason, it did. now i have my savings fund with about 5 dollars in it. i registered with namezero a while ago just to save the name, so i have a while to get the money.. well like 3 months, but if i try really hard...
Im unmotivated. someone please email me. im bored. wow. i need to start writing and put up an actual layout for this blog. im bored. very bored. Im pretty much failing algebra, a class which i have already taken, and did well on. i guess i can do the hard stuff, but not the easy stuff. well, sucks to be me. and anyone else for that matter. -------------------- 11.1.2000DOOOOOOOOD.. hehe. My computer is being evil. I dont really care. I just wanted to post something.8:44 PM -------------------- 10.15.2000I have the music blaring. Why does it seem so silent? its almost eerie. calm before the storm.3:33 PM -------------------- 10.7.2000My mom is going to Las Vegas tomorrow. Im going to stay with one of her friends. fun. Ill be back on thursday, so expect an entry then.9:18 PM -------------------- 10.6.2000Can you hear the silence? It surrounds us; taking, breaking. Hidden among the shadows, waiting...6:12 PM -------------------- 10.3.2000"I am down on my knees.What can't you see? I love you." GRR... We're doing a 100 question test (with essay questions) instead of a project! Im reading my old journal. Its sad. Im reading the feelings i had then, not knowing what would happen. I sound so full of rage. It just tears at my heart knowing that that was me. After everything, i jsut wish i could turn back time and just do what i should have. oh God, im in tears. I can't belive i am this horrible creature. I just wanted to blame everything else for what i was responsible for. If i only had the guts to say whats bothering me outloud. It just hurts too much, like saying it, typing it, would be admitting it was true. In a way, this is the worst time of my life, but in some ways its the best. Im trying so hard ot let this out. my life is a little less stressed without my dad. God. I said it. Hes gone and theres nothing i can do about it. and im loosing it. I know he would agree with me. But i wish it wasnt true. I guess him being so sick just put it on all of us. But now im alone, here with my mom. What doesnt kill you makes you stronger. But what about what DOES kill you? inside, i mean. and does everything turn out like a fairy tale? My life was like cinderella on rewind. From riches to rags. things can go downhill. -------------------- 10.1.2000"This shade of autumn, a stale bitter endYears of frustration lay down side by side" i am tired. I read 100 pages on and off between watching TV surfing the net, and other random things. Im multi talented. "Drugs are BAAAAAAADDDD Its a very "hickish" song. Well, im stuck, so if you have any suggestions for a song or anything, email me (kellixg@home.com) I feel sorry for my friends. my mom is eternally dumping me at their houses while she escapes to vegas. I almost thought this entry got deleted. it gave me some error. I would have been so mad. I wish i could write... and i wish i had talent in graphics... but im not about to sell my soul for it.. ill just find SOMETHING ELSE im good at. Maybe im destined to be a napkin folder when i grow up. but i cant even fold a piece of paper in half. i wish people knew the real me. But, then again, who is the real me? I now have a split personality.
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