meet me at the bottom

You know, this is only entry 114, and already I'm packing up my bags and leaving. Why? Well, I think it's time to leave. I made this journal, this new life on November 24, 2000. I never changed the layout to it neither. This one was the first, and only layout it ever had, and I like this layout. I think the picture of Haruka-neko is very kinky and kawaii, and it says alot. Did I ever explain the layout?

Used to, Kaci couldn't say my name because of her speach problem, so she just called me Kitty instead. Everytime I did something good or nice or funny, she said "good kitty!" just playin around. The name Kitty caught on and alot of people called me Kitty. Well, soon, alot of people thought I was a ho, (I honostly don't know why because I wasn't at all! I had only had 2 boyfriends the year at the time and it was like October and November!) and instead of good kitty, I was called "Bad Kitty." Soon that turned into "Bad Pussy," and that was my name for a while.

But there is alot of depression, and alot of memories, although, I generally don't write about it if something big happens. Like entry number 19 for example. I didn't write that that was the biggest fight my mom and dad ever got into, and that I thought my dad killed my dog, but only hurt him, and I heard lots of hitting, and stuff breaking, but I didn't know who was being hit and what broke besides my mom's heart. I just told Kelley to make them stop, and she wished she could. I think I'll start writing more details now, so I can remember. But what if I don't want to remember, and I only wrote two sentences there that make no logical connection (if you didn't know what happened) and I remember everything.

Anyways, I must leave.


It's a long way down.