Time spent with the Lord is time well spent.

I need to keep that phrase running through my mind constantly. I get so caught up in what Erica wants to do...is doing...is gonna do....that I often (and I do mean often) push my prayer life and Bible study to the back burner (yeah, that one the kettle sits on). Then, when I find myself run down, feeling blase about everything and everybody, wondering why my life is not going the way I want to.......The light bulb comes on......"You've forgotten about God, STUPID!!"

Yeah...I'm pretty hard on myself. I KNOW better, that's why. There has never been a time in my life when I didn't know how to serve God. I just hate the fact that I'm oh-so-human and self-involved. I also know, however, that the more I try to do it on my own strength, the more it's not going to work. I have to lay everything in God's hands, and then live like I know Him. Easier said than done.....

But is life worth living if I don't do it?

posted by Erica Batte 10:17 PM

Wednesday, January 17, 2001

Lemme just say..I love Blogger..but dang why do I have so many problems with it??
posted by Erica Batte 3:32 PM

I'm back...knowin I need to keep this up better if it's gonna be on my site. Just haven't felt like typing....been in the mood to chat, so I've been in BlackVoices in the BBW room!!! I used to be in there everyday...now it's more like once a month..maybe. Anyway, caught up with some old buddies, made some new ones..those folk are CA-RAZY!

My paternal grandmother died this weekend. I've only seen her 3 times in my life. But she was a sweet lady. I kinda feel bad that I don't have more to say about that.....but hey, I didn't know her too well. I liked her though. And I kinda look like her, so everyone says. Maybe one of these days, I'll have my Family section up, and you can be the judge.......

My child grabbed the coffee table and pulled his little fat butt up on January 13th!!! I was so giddy!! But kinda sad too...WHERE is dat baby I brought home in April???? I kinda miss that lil thang. He's growin up TOO fast!!!

I know I'm not the only one who's ever done this...but I was lookin at my ex the other day...wonderin.....WHAT THE PUFF I WAS THINKIN!!!!!!!!! I mean...how can you imagine yourself to be so in love with someone...and then, when the smoke clears....not really like them at all?? We were such good friends...but he ruined that recently (I may talk about that another time), so now I only speak to him when I have to. He's so clueless that he probably thinks nothing is wrong. Actually..nothing is wrong...I've just seen him for what he is, and I'm accepting that. But that means our relationship can't be the same....it's just that right now, he's caught up in whatever he's caught up in at the moment..and he hasn't realized that I'm not the same ole buddy who loves him no matter what. OH...but I know him so well.....when he doesn't have the friends he has now...when he's all alone..he'll be callin me..actin' all sheepish and innocent......I used to overlook that mess, and we'd be friends again. But NO MORE!!! ooooo I can't wait..cuz this cuss out has been comin for a few years............

I know..I got issues...but who doesn't???

posted by Erica Batte 3:24 PM

Thursday, January 11, 2001

I finally got this to match my site..so I'm a happy camper...........
posted by Erica Batte 10:04 AM

This is my first web journal. I've kept a written one, off and on, for years....but at this point in my life, I need to do this. I have too many thoughts that are probably very important for me to remember, but I can't keep track of them all. Also, I need to focus. I can feel myself changing everyday, and I need to keep track of it. I'm a new mother, I will be 30 in a few months, (March 27, and I take presents at ANY time!!) I'm single, I'm trying to live my life the way God wants me to - I can't be scattered. I have no idea what will end up here...but it will be who I am (whoever that is today).
posted by Erica Batte 9:45 AM