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[ Wednesday, June 20, 2001 ]

On a less serious note, I noticed that when you go to the old http://www.nastyassholes.com URL for 3 Nasty Assholes, you get a page that says "Future Site for Baby-Quilts.com". hahaha

posted by Mike on 6/20/2001 09:54:43 PM | link


I just got back from visiting my parents. It's amazing how I’ve taken little things for granted. For instance, tonight when I was driving home, it was cool enough to roll down the windows and open the sunroof. I was driving down the road and the sun was setting. They were playing "Drown" by the Smashing Pumpkins on the radio. No matter what was going on in my life that very moment seemed to disappear. I felt content. I felt peaceful. It's something you can only feel when you are alone. It's been a long time since I've felt like that. Just this afternoon I felt so angry. It took a lot to hold back from lashing out at other employees, but I did manage to keep it under control. I'm slowly starting to think I might have had an anger management problem when I was younger. Maybe I'm getting more patient as I get older. I was pretty patient as a child, but sometimes I was pretty uncontrollable.

Back to taking things for granted... things pass by everyday without us giving them a second thought. I know I’m not saying or discovering anything profound that any one of you hasn't already experienced, and this certainly isn't the first time for me. But, it's enlightening when you do notice it. It's just a relaxed state of mind I had on that drive home. Also, yesterday I watched some children riding bicycles. I remember how nice it was to be so carefree. It's funny how you don't think about it when you are that young. Sometimes, I wish I could go back to when school was the only thing I really had to worry about.

posted by Mike on 6/20/2001 08:58:48 PM |
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My grandmother on my father's side passed away this morning. She was my last living grandparent, but we weren't very close. I think I'm more concerned about my father than anything else because I know how I would feel if it were one of my parents. Everyone I have seen today has said, "She's in a better place". I suppose that is true depending on what you believe. What if you don't believe that? What if you don't believe in God? Not that I don't, but I think I'm floating somewhere in between. Part of me wants to believe I will see my family again in the after-life, but I will never know until my time comes. I think that is the most maddening thing of all -- the not knowing. I'm the type of person that normally doesn't "believe it until I see it", but I suppose that's the opposite of how most religions work. I guess I'm lacking "Faith". I know ultimately only I can decide what to believe, but I have such a hard time figuring it out for myself. Death always seems to make it more complicated.

On a brighter note, Debbie had a wonderful birthday yesterday. I took the day off to spend it with her. Every time I take a day off, I always feel like I'm playing hooky. *shrug* I guess some feelings you just can't shake from high school. I gave her a few things that she wanted, took her out to lunch, and then went back to her house to celebrate with her family. We also went to the animal shelter and checked out the dogs and cats. It's sad to see them all locked up, but I think it's better that they are in there getting taken care of than out on the street where they could be hit by a car. We also went to Ft. Eustis and played a game of bowling. You just can't beat base prices ($4.00 for one game). I wish it were like that everywhere. Too bad every day couldn't be like yesterday.

Someone that worked here that I despise was terminated today. I'll admit that I got a bit of pleasure locking out her network and security accounts, but now I feel a bit guilty for the way I felt. On one hand, I'm glad she is gone because she was the main suspect for stealing $150 from the secretary's purse. Everything indicated that she did it, but we didn't have any concrete proof. She also was the main suspect for deleting other employee's work of the network. If she didn't like you, you better have made backups of whatever you were working on for the day. I started monitoring this, and miraculously the deleting stopped. You just couldn't believe anything she said to you. On the other hand, I don't like to see anyone lose his or her job. I know how it feels to be fired from a job, as I'm sure many of you do. I wouldn't wish that on anyone; especially now with our country's current economic state.

posted by Mike on 6/20/2001 12:50:48 PM |
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[ Sunday, June 17, 2001 ]

Hope everyone had a happy Father's Day. I think my dad liked his gifts.

Song stuck in my head for today: Sunshine Anderson - "Heard It All Before"

Baby let me explain to you I'm sayin
what you sayin
It's not even like that
It wasn't like that but I saw you
Baby I don't love her
You don't love me
you know what I don't even want to talk to you
she don't mean nothing to me
I don't want to see ya face
I just want to see you walking thourgh that door
there ain't nothing else to say
peace

Come home late
It seems you barely beat the sun
Tapping my shoulder thinking you gon get you some
Smelling like some fragrance that I don't even wear
If you want some loving I suggest you go back there where you came from
Day to Day with you it's always something else
Working my nerve God knows I don't deserve
What you put me through cause I been so true to you
For you to come at me with another lame excuse
See I .....

Heard it all before (heard it all before)
All of ya lies, all of ya sweet talk
Baby this, Baby that
But your lies ain't working now look who's hurting now
See I had to shut you down (I had to shut you down)
Played the fool before (played the fool before)
I was your fool I believed in you
Yes I did yes I did
But your lies ain't working now look who's hurting now
See I had to shut you down (I had to shut you down)

WHat were you thinking bringing her into our home
In our bed, you must have fell and bumped your head
Messing up my sheets and violating me
Have me bout to call my peeps and take it to the streets
Nothing you can do
And there's nothing you can say
That would persuade me to stay with you another day
You have crossed the line to the point of no return
What you do from here on out
I am no longer concerned
See I......

Heard it all before (heard it all before)
Let me explain, baby, it's not what you think, that's what you said to me
But your lies ain't working now look who's hurting now
See I had to shut you down (I had to shut you down)
Played the fool before (played the fool before)
You got a good game I must admit I was it but it's over
But your lies ain't working now look who's hurting now
See I had to shut you down (I had to shut you down)

Use to hang on to your every word
but the more you lie to me the more I hurt
the things you use to say would sound so sweet
I was naive Quick to believe

Heard it all before
I was at work, It wasn't my car you saw, baby, I swear it wasn't me
But your lies ain't working now look who's hurting now
See I had to shut you down (I had to shut you down)
Played the fool before (played the fool before)
you were my boo I trusted you for way too long
But your lies ain't working now look who's hurting now
See I had to shut you down (I had to shut you down)

Heard it all before
you know you messed up you got to know you messed up
You got to go now say what you want
But your lies ain't working now look who's hurting now
See I had to shut you down (I had to shut you down)
Played the fool before
I done change the locks on the door, yes i did and you ain't welcome no more
But your lies ain't working now look who's hurting now
See I had to shut you down (I had to shut you down)

See I heard it all before.

posted by Mike on 6/17/2001 11:04:28 PM |
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[ Saturday, June 16, 2001 ]

I finsihed getting things for Father's Day this Sunday. While I was at the store, I noticed they had Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon for only $17.00. I had to buy it. :) I also got the new Static-X cd. Now I need to get things straight for Deb's birthday on the 19th. :P Hope everyone is having a good weekend. By the way, Here is a picture of Deb and I in Nags Head over Memorial Day weekend.

posted by Mike on 6/16/2001 03:16:27 PM | link


[ Friday, June 15, 2001 ]

For lack of anything else to post today, here are the lyrics of the last song stuck in my head:

Deftones - Change (in the house of flies)

I watched you change
Into a fly
I looked away
You were on fire
I watched a change in you
It's like you never had wings
And you feel so alive
I've watched you change

I took you home
Set you on the glass
I pulled off your wings
Then I laughed
I watched a change in you
It's like you never had wings
Now you feel so alive
I watched you change

It's like you never had...
annhh-ahah (6x)

I look at the cross
And I look away
Give you the lung to blow me away
I watched a change in you
It's like you never had wings
Now you feel so alive
I've watched you change
And you feel alive
You feel alive (2x)
I've watched you change
It's like you never had...

annhh-ahah (6x)
You change (3x)

posted by Mike on 6/15/2001 05:17:25 PM |
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[ Thursday, June 14, 2001 ]

Wow, my weblog turned 1 year old a week ago. I didn't even notice until today. Below I will repost the entry that started it all!

Test

hehehe.

posted by Mike on 6/14/2001 11:12:10 AM |
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Thursdays just make it seem like an eternity to Friday.

posted by Mike on 6/14/2001 10:48:45 AM |
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[ Wednesday, June 13, 2001 ]

I guess I'll write my bit about the Timothy McVeigh execution. Personally, I have mixed feelings about the death penalty. I really don't know if anyone should be put to death, but what he did is probably as good a reason as any to be put to death. He killed 168 innocent people. If I killed 168 people, I would expect the death penalty, especially if I didn't show any remorse.

I noticed that a few think he was executed for what he believed in. That may be partly true, but I tend to think he wasn't executed for what he believed in, he was executed for how he demonstrated what he believed in. Maybe deep in his heart he thought he was doing the right thing but, if he felt such strong contempt for the United States Government, he could have easily gotten his point across by destroying the building at night when it was empty. Martin Luther King, Jr. got his point across peacefully; Timothy McVeigh could have as well. In my opinion, the only problem I have with the death penalty (or with any verdict) is the fact that the punishment can vary substantially from person to person. Why one person gets the death penalty and another doesn't is beyond me. I guess every case has special circumstances. I do feel that if Timothy McVeigh was put to death, so should the person that helped him -- Terry Nichols.

I can't begin to comprehend how the victim's families feel. I'm sure some of them are glad he was executed, and even some had probably forgiven him. Other people would rather see him sit in jail for the rest of his life, but what people forget is the fact that prisons use YOUR tax dollars to take care of these inmates. How nice. While some people are struggling to make a living, a convict gets to have a roof over his head, physical exercise, a clean bed to sleep in, showers, and 3 hot meals a day for free. I don't even eat three meals a day! I do know this: if he were to kill my brother or one of my family members, it would be very hard for me to keep myself from killing him. People expect the issue of the death penalty to be as clear as "black and white", but the person who believes that needs to realize there are some shades of gray in everything. Those same people would probably sing a different tune if it was their blood.

posted by Mike on 6/13/2001 01:57:53 PM | link


Metallica - Blackened

Blackened is the End
Winter it Will Send
Throwing All You See
Into Obscurity
Death of Mother Earth
Never a Rebirth
Evolution's End
Never Will it Mend
Never

Fire
To Begin Whipping Dance of the Dead
Blackened Is the End
To Begin Whipping Dance of the Dead
Color Our World Blackened

Bustering of Earth
Terminate its Worth
Deadly Nicotine
Kills What Might Have Been
Callous Frigid Chill
Nothing Left to Kill
Never Seen Before
Breathing Nevermore
Never

Fire
To Begin Whipping Dance of the Dead
Blackened Is the End
To Begin Whipping Dance of the Dead
Color Our World Blackened

Blackened

Opposition...Contradiction...Premonition...Compromise
Agitation...Violation...Mutilation...Planet Dies
Darkest Color
Blistered Earth
True Death of Life
Termination....Expiration...Cancellation...Human Race
Expectation...Liberation...Population...Lay to Waste
See Our Mother
Put to Death
See Our Mother Die
Smouldering Decay
Take Her Breath Away
Millions of Our Years
In Minutes Disappears
Darkening in Vain
Decadence Remains
All Is Said and Done
Never Is the Sun
Never

Fire
To Begin Whipping Dance of the Dead
Blackened Is the End
To Begin Whipping Dance of the Dead
Fire
Is the Outcome of Hypocrisy
Darkest Potency
In the Exit of Humanity
Color Our World Blackened
Blackened

posted by Mike on 6/13/2001 10:41:22 AM |
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[ Tuesday, June 12, 2001 ]

I just got home from going to see WWF Raw is War at the Richmond Coliseum. I'm totally wiped out, so I think I'm going to head off to bed. It was so hot in the coliseum! Not to mention the big smog all the pyrotechnics left in the coliseum since it didn't air out properly. We had a lot of fun. I had some fruitcake next to me who had to call every fucking friend of his on his cell phone. His first words to each one of them were "Guess where I am?!". Jeez, shut the fuck up already. There were some mighty drunk people there. OH wait. They drink beer because they like the TASTE of it (see earlier post). My bad. They just happened to get drunk along the way. :P

There were some really good matches. A lot of WWF superstars were there. The Rock and Triple H were not there, but we saw them when we went to Smackdown the May before this past one, so it was all good. The main event was Kurt Angle and Chris Benoit in a steel cage. That just flat out rocked. Stone Cold Steve Austin was there, who we missed the last time we went, so we were happy about that. There were some drunken brawls down at ring side. One of the refs (Teddy Long, for those of you that may follow wrestling a little bit) even got into it with a fan. He bitch slapped the fan so hard. It was fucking hilarious. Can you say "lawsuit"? And someone from the second tier dumped their beer on some people right in front of us. I thought we were going to see another fight right there! Anyway it was mad fun. It's a lot better to see it in person than on television.

posted by Mike on 6/12/2001 01:28:29 AM | link